she’s not loose, she doesn’t go club, she doesn’t go online to know guys.. she’s such an angel.. how envious.. i’m all the opposite of her.. and i don’t really understand.. but it’s ok since he said such things to me.. this makes me feel good too.. i online not know other guys but it’s always other guys who came to know me. i went clubbing, but it’s been a long time since i went clubbing. i’m loose, cos i go ard hugging ppl and perhaps kissing ppl.. =) so proud of myself… i don’t know wat to say but saying anything more makes me sounded like a bitch.. oh my.. will god come to help me out this time round? He used to help me when i needed help desperately.. sometimes i feel so hopeless.. when i was working, there this grp of people always come to TCC to have their bible study.. ah yes.. bible study.. so when was the last time i had one? probably when i was in sec 5.. gosh.. that’s so long ago.. when was the last time i prayed and did quiet time? all probably during sec 5… what causes the big change in me? i don’t know too. i wish for god to lead me the way.. which way shd i go? sometimes i feel like god is around me but sometimes it’s me who forsake him.. i felt so bad.. perhaps He was here guiding me along but i choose to ignore him.. it’s my bad.. He helped me when i needed help.. and i forsake him after that.. what am i doing? this had been in my mind for awhile but laziness caught me.. i must change my laziness.. otherwise once i fall, there will be someone mocking at me. i know there always will be.. u can say whatever u wan, for i don’t really care.. i’m serious.