To his frens & to my classmates of NP: thanks for reading. thanks for telling him my bad and thanks for telling him i’m using him. =) i feel so good now.. lol.. i wish i could manipulate everyone with my words just like i manipulate him. =) i’m not good with words but then, i know all his friends is watching to see me fall so they can laugh loud into my face. i know he will too. look, he’s right. i love money. and i love it alot. hahaha. to me, money is god. just like everyone say i need duckie in order to survive. in order to prove myself. i’m going to break up with him. i don’t know wat’s wrong with me. but i know i’m sick and tired of crying each time i read his diary and read what he wrote abt me. well, that’s true. hahaha, but look, i’m not trying hard to gain ppl’s pity on me.. i hate to study.. i wanna earn big bucks.. and spend all those money i earn on MYSELF. =) in tis way, NO ONE will ever say i NEED a GUY to survive. =) and i hate him for throwing my booboo & co away. =(

p.s. i’m not sad.

I just reformatted my laptop on monday.. the process of reformat is so damn long and it makes me wanna fall aslp.. sigh.. nevertheless, i managed to ‘tahan’ until i install SP 2(Service Pack 2) den i went to bed.. but it’s so late already! so i didn’t manage to wake up and reach sch at 8am.. why so early cos i have made a bookin for visual basic.net.. sian diao.. and ytd (tues) zhiwei didn’t help me sign in so i went to get a MC for whole day.. so i whole day didn’t go sch and i meet duckie for dinner.. sian diao.. this yr is a very suay (unlucky) yr.. my hp bill is exploding and ppl just dun call me and they like to sms me instead.. thanks leh.. 134 bucks.. hahaha.. -_- how did i did it? gosh.. and tml i got sch.. more jia lat.. sian diao liao me.. my laptop now got NOTHING inside.. i mean no programs lah.. sian diao i have to go sch tml to install everything back..

today, went to work usual.. start work at 11am.. lunch hr is so damn busy till i got 1 order wrong.. =X oops… den after lunch hr, nana told me to do bar again.. so yup.. i was like sian diao.. but it’s fun doing bar.. i learnt a new drink.. absolut esp.. =) tim taught me.. =) i was so shocked when duckie came near the bar and OEI me.. my soul was like came out of my body for a few secs before it came back to this world again.. =.= i was about to reply him cos my hp was off automactically for absolute NO reasons.. stupid duck… lol.. den i keep myself busy while the rest are doing the stuffs for decorating the place on sun.. =) i’m SO excited.. hahaha.. everyone was like shocked to see him too lah.. suddenly come and OEI me.. lol.. and tim keep asking me if he’s a doc.. -_- crazy one him.. living in his own world.. haha.. i mus rem how to make those frappe.. i just keep referring to the SOP.. is NOT the solution at all.. sigh.. and den i finish work at 7pm and went to have dinner with him at JP.. eat KFC.. yay.. long time no eat!! hohoho.. den we went to liberty to buy my cup noodles and den we went to somewhere near the playground to chit chat.. hahaha.. sigh..

i will be meeting darling alicia tml.. she will be coming to my sch to look for me since she finish sch at 1pm.. =) cos i haben meet up with her for more than 1 wk.. =( tml tml tml.. tml duckie will have his TP test.. at 10am.. but before that he got revision at 7am.. he’s very kuku always book so early.. -_-

my world is falling down.. will chicken little save me? yeah.. we will be watching that on fri.. cos i have already booked the tickets.. =) he gave me a voodoo doll.. i don’t know it’s right to take or not.. and again he made choices for me.. =) it’s the same thing since yujie’s incident.. =) and again he said i didn’t choose him.. i can’t choose him and will not choose him.. i can’t go back to someone who keep degrading me.. his frens didn’t degrade themselves but i did. =) thanks alot. and i don’t need guys like what he said.. i don’t go into r/s with all the guys i went out with.. and i’m not a playful girl.. i don’t play with guys emotionally.. i only play with my tooty and toys.. and this is what he smsed me:
“12 midnite. Fairytale has ended. Cinderella has changed back to being herself. Let it be.”
“ok. I already helped u made a choice. Take care.”
“haha.” (i have stopped replying him since he only sms me haha.)
“When will u learn little moomooz? When will u change? Haha. Perhaps u are not the one afterall. Rem ur promise ok? I can’t afford to let my life be ruined at ur hands.” (den suddenly he sms me this.)
“=) all i know is that everything wrong now. I am going to make things right again.” (he said he got gd frens while i got bad frens.. who threaten me with frenships.. think about it.. sometimes it true…)
“they feel sorry for me. Good frens. =)”
“i wonder why u have to say such things when all alone ur choice isnt me? if ur thinking never changes then u r rite. We will break up. There will be many more yujie n donald n history will just repeat. isnt it repeating now? When u have been urt b4 hen u will know how much u hurt me. For now it is best we dont contact. ur heart already choose him, believe in ur own choice for god’s sake.”
“ok. i asked u to be with me. u didnt. it’s ur choice all alone. don’t take me for granted. i will not be there when he is not. please just stay out of my life n dont look for me when u need me. rem ur own words and promises. i will rather be with someone who choose me.” (if i were to choose him, things like yujie’s incident happened again.. we will break up again.. if i choose him, he will abandon his frens like the past.. and when we break up he will start blaming me again.. and most importantly.. his frens don’t like me.. =) and.. my frens don’t like him.. he also dun like my frens & family.. )
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“ya. i promised.” (we are to spend xmas together cos we promised long time ago.. plegde.. )