I hate the world today, your so good to me
I know but I can’t change
Tried to tell you, but you look at me like
Maybe I’m an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet, yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you’d be so confused, I don’t envy you
I’m a little bit of everything all rolled into one
I’m a bitch, I’m a lover
I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell, I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way
So take me as I am
This may mean you’ll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
And I’m going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change and today won’t mean a thing
I’m a bitch, I’m a lover
I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell, I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way
Just when you think you’ve got me figured ou
tThe season is already changing
I think it’s cool you do what you do
And don’t try to save me
I’m a bitch, I’m a lover
I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell, I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way
I’m a bitch, I’m a tease
I’m a goddess on my knees
When your hurt, when you suffer
I’m your angel undercover
I’ve been numb, I’m revived
Can’t say I’m not alive
You know I wouldn’t want it any other way
Month: November 2005
In school
Now i’m in the boring school trying to get some work done – alone. and yes, i did some work (i mean amendments and some findings). =) i added in all the legend to my graphs for my result of my surveys and i’m writing the conclusion from the results i got. yeah.. boring but i stil have to do it. jus met up with my supervisor and he’s quite alright with my storyboard, which means i can start my coding once i have finish installing my SQL Server 2005 Express (i’m still d/l it now.. and it’s only 75% done and it’s still moving.. =X so slow!!) and then i can sign out and get out of this place.. yAY.. sometimes i like sch though.. it’s only sometimes.. cos i love the lib.. i love the sq.. i can do my work w/o ppl sitting beside me kpkb (even though there are some guys beside me now kpkb but i’m listening to my music..). my supervisor say meanwhile i can dun amend my TOR.. i have to start to do my database!! otherwise there wun be enough time for me to finish cos i will just keep concentrating on my design instead of the whole thing… i’m a design person though. so i need to complete my coding and sees that everything fixes before i do flash blah.. i’m stil not sure whether there is a need for WHY-WHY diagram. cos my supervisor say can leave it out. and this sem, the report’s weightage is about 30% whereas last sem is 50%.. lol.. alright, i need to get back to work.. sigh..
Macaroni
Today i start work at 12pm today.. so i woke up at 10.30am.. LOL. take my own sweet time bath and den play with tooty for awhile den get out of my hse for work.. today i kept laughing at work.. Amin said, ever since i started working there.. the floor is quite clean (alright, u know why? cos my pants quite long.. so i was like sweeping the floor with my pants..).. and he say “ok lah, ppl also always say i wear my pants too high”.. den i start to eat him, “yah, wear too high and i wanted to tell u long time ago but i dun dare..” and i told sharon he looked like Mr Bean.. LOL! and i told Sharon if Amin do the actions Mr Bean do, he will definitely looked like him.. and so, YES.. he DID look like him alright.. LOL. i keep laughing till i’m going to roll on the floor. so sharon called him A-bean.. LOL.. ok.. i must start to write about this new full timer guy, his name is call… ALLEN!!! gosh, i must be haunted by this name – allen. so today i heard is his 2nd day at work.. i saw him hopping (i supposedly is dancing lah..) pass me.. i was like… -_- hahaha… and he told suzy that i’m very unfrenli.. OMG.. i find him weird, so i wun even bother to talk to him.. when sue was doing bar, allen came to ask her why she doesn’t smile. so she told him, cos when she’s serious she doesn’t smile.. and i said, serious peoople normally dun smile too wat.. den he asked, “den i look not serious meh”? Both me and sue say yah. den he -_- he said i’m always so oppose him.. lol.. i wondering why.. and guess what? when i walk out of the kitchen i saw this dumb ass use a cup and drink water.. when i saw it.. it was MY cup and he use it w/o asking! i wanna change my cup!! he can’t even read? there is my name on the cup and he didn’t even bother to ask??? stupid.. today, i’m so blur.. i took extra order for table 5 and took the correct order and write it in table 5’s bill.. so the extra order is Macaroni Gratin.. so Wati let us eat.. lol.. so sharon went to eat first den me and suzy.. but den i finish all. lol.. today i finally make the TCC membership card for free.. LOL! great, i can go TCC eat liao. gtg now.. so tired..
AVFE
I guessed my hair is a bit messy though.. =X
Well, that’s rite.. it’s me.. lol.
Do we look like we are walking passing each other?
Tooty is acting cute again.. GOsh..
mE & darling at Gelare (Citylink)
me and duckie at NewsRoom Bar
woke up at 7am to pee and went back to slp again. and finally i woke up at 11am. the sun is so darn hot today. don’t even feel like going to sch on such a hot day but i don’t think i have much choices in life and so i went. i’m early for lesson and teacher (melvin tan) is late.. so the lesson today is to learn how to use adobe premium pro.. it’s quite cool.. and actually for the 1st time i felt i have learn something interesting.. lol.. den i went to the square and rot my time off while waiting for darling.. i emailed my supervisor and he said my storyboard is quite ok but my tabulation of my survey results need to make amendments.. so i’m going to do it tml.. so i can show him on thurs.. i guess i really have to be hard working this time.. i don’t wish to fail.. den i went to meet alicia at dover instead of clementi cos the bus 74 came 1st. den we went to citylink to eat our waffles (since it’s tues today.. all waffles is HALF price!!) at gelare. keke.. b4 that we went to in TCC.. i went into the kitchen but was being sent out cos that person that i don’t work in TCC.. lol.. but after the cook talk to her i can go in again.. cos i work in TCC mah.. diff outlet nia.. darling say everyone knows i worked at Raffles Xchange except her.. lol.. so kuku.. saw darling’s joseph (TCC cook) and the rumoured lawerence (TCC waiter).. gosh.. he’s wearing those color specs.. so ugly.. perhaps he tot that’s style.. lol.. disgusting.. den we slack at gelare at a very long time den we went to walk ard at citylink den we went to M.S (marina sq).. but almost all the shops are closing.. so, we took a train back at city hall.. on the way back, we saw joseph.. den we took train hm.. i’m so tired already.. i almost fall aslp in the bus on my way home.. =X
No lesson
today i wake up at 12plus. last nite my flu got worse and i got running nose as i slp.. as i slp, i sneezed.. tat’s how bad.. today my mama didn’t go work.. and she ate the cheesecake i left for her.. mama say the cheesecake is very cheesy.. =_= where got cheesecake NO cheese one? lol.. nvm, next time i will bring home chocolate and mango cake for her.. =) mama keep waking me up today.. so no choice i got up and take shower then i went to sch.. GOSH.. when i went into the class there’s NO one, NO teacher.. den there is this guy came in.. after sitting in the class for 14 mins, i finally got the courage to ask.. and guess what? that guy told me the lesson is CANCELLED! gosh, i feel like i’m a dummy sitting in the class.. den i meet duckie for lunch cos he hasn’t eaten.. den we went to library read magazines.. lol.. we stayed that until 6pm den we go to clementi to have our dinner.. den we took 154 to JP to walk walk.. den we went to buy the new coke with lime drink den we go hm liao.. =) so i reached hm about 9plus..
ytd, i asked duckie.. why didn’t he talk to me in WISP class when i was sitting right behind him for a few mths.. he told me he’s shy and he don’t know how to start.. lol.. it’s only when i went to black with jesslin & co to celebrate jess’s bday, we exchanged hi.. somehow he knows i went to the toilet and he, somehow, saw me outside the toilet.. den he came to talk to me.. hahaha.. that’s how we exchange no. bcos of the zouk thingy.. and the reason is he’s interested to know me lah.. DUh, jus now in the lib he kept teasing me. say i collect 10 cents outside the toilet at black.. lol.. stupid.. it’s better than someone who pretend to go toilet just to talk to me and to exchange no. loh.. lol..! but then after that time, he oso nvr talk to me.. even though he saw me we still din talk.. so i tot he has forgotten me.. so i didn’t reali care too.. until the day chang yuan celebrate his bday at zouk den i sms him asking him the price of zouk.. and he tot i’m going to black when i told him is zouk.. he told me when i say i’m at zouk he sian diao liao.. LOL.. after that day, we went out.. talk.. and chat on msn.. and the rest.. ull know liao mah.. hohoho.. that’s the end.. =)
Homely
i was suppose to go down to town to parade.. for awareness about the star wars exhibition that’s coming to singapore on the 18th nov.. but i was so tired that i woke up at 3plus today despite my mama’s attempt to wake me up at 10plus.. she even bought lunch for me, but i didn’t eat.. i gave to my sis eat instead.. so my elder sis came hm and i share the cheesecake, that i bought hm ytd, with her.. oh, i LOVE cheesecake!! delicious! lol. i left the rest for my mum and bro. =) i’m suppose to go to duckie’s hse today.. to cook.. but since his hse got alot ppl, thus, the plan is off. he wanted to go Junction 8 today.. i don’t reali mind but i don’t feel like taking train.. so he suggested causeway.. oh well.. so after much suggestion, i decided not to go out.. den after a while his parents ask him to have dinner along with his relative.. so yah… haha..
i knew piggy wont do the things he said, cause when he scolded me.. he’s so drunk.. i just knew it.. nvr take a drunkard’s word serious.. =) that’s what i learnt.
Cheese cake
Lucky i am on time for work today.. lol.. today is such a boring day at work but amy dropped by to say hello.. keke.. jesslin ask to go zouk next wed.. and i took 2 american cheesecake, 1 marble cheesecake and 1 chocolate gartino (Amin (my store manager), let me have it.. ) home. =) keke.. i wanted to take the strawberry shortcake and mango moouse home, but i don’t eat so, i didn’t take.. lol.. duckie came to meet me.. den we went to town to have our dinner and we went for window shopping.. den we headed to esplanade.. den i told him wat happened lah… sian de lah.. he sian abit den ok liao le.. i am so damn sian loh.. keep scolding by him and the latest sms i received was at 3.34am and this is what he smsed me
“fuck u cheebye bitch ! Hope u tio fuck n kana dump n go die man !”
this is what he said.. =.= and i didn’t even reply and then he replied
“fuck u dont want to apologise prepare to face ur punishment !”
and before that 1st sms, tis is wat he said
“For everything that u’ve done past n now. i think u have taken a lot of time money n attention from me n nv give any back no? N u keep hurting me no? u don’t feel guilty at all? are u still human? say sorry. or i won’t give u another chance to even if u beg me.”
and den the latest sms is
“fuck u u wan say sorry a not?”
and i asked him, why he keep insisting me to say sorry? he’s hopeless.. damn f**king hopeless.. each day he smsed me, the more useless i think he becomes.. even more a coward than a saviour. den now he say
“oh stubborn ah ? Then fuck u man dont blame me for watever i do ..”
thanks for f**king warning me. hahaha.. i’ll see what he can do to me.. if he tries anything funny den don’t blame on me. going to church on sun doesn’t make him a saint. he can club, drink and smoke all he wants and no one is going to stop him. LOSER. i’ll see wat he will say next.
Late for work
It’s as usual.. i woke up at about 8plus.. but my mum wants to bath first so i let her.. and end up i’m 10 mins late for work (cos i stepped into the store at 10am and den i went to change, thus i’m late).. it’s my 1st time working lunch hour.. makes me kinda busy for the 1st time.. lol.. oh well.. learn something new about stations.. it’s only during lunch hr that we got diff stations so as to carter to the needs of the customers.. i think i’m quite fast today and i’m getting on.. =) work is as usual.. tim is a joker.. he told fred that i’m on tv.. lol.. and told him i’m samatha, and the worse part is that guy believed! hahaha.. i can’t believe it.. but yah.. hohoho.. so after work (i got off at 3plus cos i dun dare to say..lol..) i went hm to slp.. =) because his dad ask him to go to fetch his relative frm i-forgotten-where. so i slp at 5plus and wake up at 9plus.. haha.. sigh.. i don’t know how to pls ppl.. and.. i hate myself………………………………………………………………………………..
The toy i bought for him today. =)
Why did i buy this toy for him is bcos, he always show me that.. lol.. he’s full of craps.. lol..
Him and his toy.. act cute de him.. lol
Milkshake
Just reached hm today.. i’m starting to feel very slpy now.. and i think i shd go slp early otherwise once it passes my slpg time, i will have a hard time to make myself slp.. =) i woke up 3plus 4plus today.. due to.. tiredness (well, i know lah, it’s kinda crap cos i dun rem doing anything except clubbing..) … =X this is bad, and i wanna stop it.. clubbing with a lot of ppl makes the whole clubbing thingy mood suck.. it’s a grave mistake to club on a public holiday eve.. if i know, i join in my sis.. hohoho.. at least she had her fun.. aaaawwww.. always make myself regret after that, what’s the pt? sis carol told me this kind of life is wasting time blah blah blah.. but then, sometimes even thouogh i feel there is an urge for me to go church, i forsake it anyways.. that’s laziness.. i admit i’m lazy to the max.. but can’t help.. =X i just dun feel like doing anything at all. so i went to meet duckie for dinner at BP.. den someone bump into me i almost wanted to scold that person.. when i look at that person, OOPS, it’s LAO PA!!! haha, it’s been a long time since i last saw him.. he changed alot as in the way he dressed.. lol.. he was with a girl.. lol.. den i told him my bday is coming, guess what? he rems and he even bought me a present from thailand (don’t know if it’s real or not..).. haha.. heng he rem otherwise i KILL HIM! lol.. violence.. den me and duckie went to town to walk and went to look for my sis cos she’s treating me milkshake!! =) gosh, i LOVE milkshakes.. keke.. tml i’m working 10am -3pm.. sigh.. how come my money always dry up so fast? i stil have to transfer $50 to valerie (prudential) for the saving policy i bought, what makes me think that i will get rich? lol.. it’s impossible to get enough money!!! holy crap.. hopefully next wk i can work more hrs.. =) and i’m sad enough because i can’t earn the double pay on public holidays cos the outlet i’m working is CLOSED.. sigh.. lol..
Listen to my heart beat 