I guess i have to return this story to him. and this is wat i have to say.

Before we are even friends, we are just classmate who doesn’t really talk until i borrowed his laptop during the lesson and use it as if it’s mine cause that time i haven’t got my laptop yet.. and that was the time we started to talk like as if we had know each other very long.. and there was edwin, kean lee and derek in our group.. and we always hang out together.. yeah, that was a very happy time.. when once, i organised an outing for steamboat and on that day itself, everyone except him said they dont wanna go any more bcos it’s raining.. i was so very upset and unhappy… when he came to console me.. i scolded him “fuck off”.. i feel so bad.. and since then i had nvr scold him that anymore..

so we went to have our first movie outing.. and with our blur-ness.. we watched a thai movie “The Unborn“.. den we took a bus hm.. since den.. we always went to watch movie together and had enjoyed each other’s pressence.. that was a very fun time.. we became very close friends and we always go out together.. and i remembered the time he kept saying he’s takashi (jin chen wu).. it makes me laugh alot.. and i always LOL in the cinemas.. we always shared blah blah.. till the day he told me he likes me.. i was shocked.. he even asked me to be his gf.. i think for a few days and. finally i gave him an answer.. that was, on 14th april 2004, i’m willing to be his gf..

during the r/s.. there are some ups and downs.. promises that i made but nvr manage to fulfil them.. like going to zoo together, going to malaysia for his bday, blah blah blah.. i always remembered the first day he said he wants to get a mistress even though i knew he was joking.. he just keep saying that and i wasn’t very happy about that.. den he stopped saying about tat.. i remembered the first day we met up after i had agreed to be his gf.. the first time i holded his hand.. the first time he hugged me.. the first time he kissed me on my cheeks.. it was all so sweet..

during some occasions like my frens’ bday, they wanted to go clubbing and so i went since i don’t miss out my fren’s bday.. but i don’t like clubbing.. this is a KNOWN fact to my friends.. they also know i don’t like to drink.. so they nvr force me to.. for example this yr.. my bday we went to ktv pub, they open a bottle of chivas.. they ask me drink a few glasses and when playing game, i said i don’t wanna drink.. they nvr forced me.. that’s my frens.. but to him, he always thinks i love to club.. but its’ ok.. but i did not go clubbing to let guys to touch me.. this is another fact he got wrong.. whoever went clubbing with me b4, know my style.. =) but it’s ok..

and so, we break up after 6 mths plus of r/s.. the reason was because of a guy i don’t like.. and that guy is yujie. and i must say and clarify that i only treat yujie as a close fren of mine and nothing more than that.. but he doesn’t believe me.. he asked me if i love him but i told i can’t say i love him yet.. but i like him lots.. but he don’t take that as an answer.. sadded.. and so he break up with me because of that guy.. i did not cry.. at least i tried not to.. but i still cried out.. even after we break up, we maintain like as if we hasn’t break up.. so everyone knows we break up only after a few months after we break up.. and when everyone knows that.. he treat me like a stranger in sch but when we are alone.. we are still close.. so no one knows we contacted each other.. no one knows.. but he didn’t want them to know.. simply bcos.. “When we are together, i make sure everyone knows we are together. When we break up, i also make sure everyone knows we break up.” i remembered once when i called him.. he hanged up my calls bcos he was in Kailun’s car.. he didn’t want kailun to know i called him.. so he only sms me back when he reached hm.. i was very upset.. but he doesn’t really care.. he only said that to me.. i was heartbroken.. but he still treat me very nice.. so i also don’t care.. after that, each time i went clubbing.. he will scold me bitch.. say bad things to me.. that makes me feel like i’m worth nothing.. i feel VERY down.. even so, i still love him.. bcos i finally had the courage to say i love u to him.. but.. he doesn’t believe me.. even i had the courage to ask patch up.. he doesn’t want to.. i feel like going away but den i can’t.. cos.. i really love him..

and he got very close with a girl he knew frm working last yr.. i was very jealous.. so i went out with my friends even more.. and on jesslin’s bday, i gotta know duckie (even though he’s in the same WISP class as me.. we didn’t talk until that day we saw each other in chinablack..).. and since then i got contact with him.. when i was sad.. duckie talked to me.. and i always told him about piggy until he listen until very sian.. and i stopped talking to him.. the day b4 i became duckie’s gf.. i was so upset with piggy.. we had quarrlled and duckie consoled me.. i was surprised to know duckie likes me.. bcos i only treat him as a fren.. and den duckie asked me to be his gf.. and some considerations.. i decided to be his gf.. but i broke up with him bcos of piggy.. i admit i’m indecisive cos i simply don’t know who to choose and i don’t know how to pls both of them.. but i patch up with duckie bcos, i still thought piggy wun wan me anymore.. and in any sense.. at least duckie wun scold me bitch the way he scolded me.. being with duckie is diff… at least we can sit down and talk.. but in my heart there is always piggy.. sigh.. i hate it whenever piggy forced me to choose.. i hate to be forced.. that’s y i didn’t choose him.. and i don’t hate him.. i just can’t let… i don’t wanna say out..

ppl, shd stop judging me for u guys don’t know me nor him.. just.. let the past be a past.. thanks.. any reprimands will not be considered..

ytd, went to work.. morning.. 7am.. hahaha. so early bahz.. =) den i reached there 7.03am.. was late abit only.. so nvm.. =) so we do housekeeping (as usual lah..).. den i stayed there to help Erin to draw a face for the store.. so i left the place about 1plus.. and meet up with duckie ard 2plus already.. by the time i reached his hse is already 3pm.. den his mum cooked mee fen and i ate it b4 i went to slp.. haha.. was soooo tired and tis guy kept coming here and disturb me but i ignore him cos i couldn’t even open my eyes.. hahaha.. =) but i wake up after he had taken his bathe.. =) so we went to town to have our dinner b4 meeting with amy & darling. =) cos we are going to Expo to watch WU YUE TIAN!!! hahaha.. omg.. the concert started at ard 8.30pm and when we left the place about 11.30pm.. it hasn’t finish!!! but we had to leave cos take cab VERY exp!! hahaha.. but in the end, there’s no train to boon lay already so we took the train to changi airport and took 36 to town.. WU YUE TIAN sing a few of my fav songs like zhi ming yu chu jiao, zhi zu, gong lang, so on.. =) so nice… kekeke.. we went to mac to have supper.. joseph came to meet us (or rather, darling lah..).. amy went off after supper cos her bf came to fetch her.. =) so nice.. den duckie send me hm.. =) and den he took a cab hm..

i was suppose to go duckie’s hse today to do my IC assignment but i slept until 4plus den wake up.. hahaha.. so i meet him at JP for dinner instead.. we went to blk 492 to have my fav hor fun… den we went back to JP.. den we went to playground to sit and chat… =) keke.. den after that we went to pasar malam to walk walk and buy food to eat.. i eat until my stomach very big now.. sian diao.. hahaha.. =) lalala..