Bad day

i had a very bad day ytd.. it all started when i woke up in the morning and my left leg hooked onto the bed bar when i was trying to get out of the bed to switch off the fan.. and den my right leg hit onto the bed bar causing a little swollen.. and my head almost hit the floor.. and i hurt my back.. i slept with discomfort in me ytd nite.. i keep tossing here and there trying to find a suitable and comfortable position to slp..

things at work got worse.. sigh.. i only check where is my station and i just go stand there forgetting the rest of the station and when i took order from table 3.. the guy ordered a dessert which i neglected.. bcos i was busy with other customers.. and as usual, pat go ard giving orders.. =.= outrageous… who do she think she is? so the customer at table 3 complaint abt that and tim wasnt too happy abt it.. and of cos, i have fault too.. my fault is i din inform whoever is in-charge of station 3 and that person happens to be suzy.. and, i only gotta know it after the customer complaint. and when pat came to talk to me & suzy, i was ignoring her somehow. c’mon, she’s a floater, i’m a server.. with so many tables to handle, and i’m such a forgetful person.. they expect me to remember everyone’s order so everything can come out promptly? fuck it. my mood is bad enough.. but damien always manage to make me happy by giving me some wedges with cheese dip to eat! hahaha. he still want me to work until 10pm so he can treat me fishball noodle? haha.. or rather, i treat him? =.=

after tat i went to meet up with duckie… if he din come to wait for me, i could have work until 10pm instead of 8pm.. who will say no to extra money esp, got OT.. sigh.. den he asked me what to eat and i have no idea so i say go home.. on the way home, we didn’t speak any words until when we are going to reach JP soon, den he say “lend me 5 mins of ur time, got things to tell u”.. when i heard that i was like “what are u going to say to me this time?”.. harsh i may seemed to be.. den i walked towards JP bcos he say he wants to eat and den he say he cannot eat things that are hard.. how am i suppose to know what he can eat or what he cant eaT? am i suppose to be like a god knowing everything without telling me? am i? den we walked to the playground we always go.. den he say things like “i think u shd forget me”, “i think u shd stop wasting ur time on me”, “i wun live past 30 yrs old”.. everything else i can accept but definately not those sentences he said to me. i can accept that his heart got a hole.. i can.. but i can’t accept he saying those things den then next min tell me he doesn’t wanna break up with me, but he got no choice.. it’s hard to make this decision.. and since he made this decision what makes him think that i will listen to him when i dun listen to everyone? of cos he went to seek help from darling.. after everything i said, darling said i’n black hearted bcos i refuse to say whatever is on my mind to him. bren say i shd go talk to him. but i nvr will. he erase me from his life.. so why shd i bother when he wants to push me away? so what if i care? he doesnt want me to care.