i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

need to study..

fuck, leave me alone.

i dont wanna upset u, thus, i chose to keep it from u. am i wrong? it’s true that there is nothing going on.. but ur words hurts me when u say “let’s go our way”.. are u implying a break up again? sorry, i can’t take it anymore. i hate it. reali hate it. it’s not i didnt think of how u feel b4 my actions. simple, if u trust me & my actions, dun doubt me. but den each time u said something lidat, u make me sound like i’m having affair with someone else and kept it from u. if u ever break up with me again, i swear to god or whoever be my witness, i’ll NVR EVER patch up with u no matter how much u say u wanna be with me. time will prove everything. i do things my way, but i did not screw things up. or perhaps in some situation, yah.. i tried to prevent everything, but things got worse. it’s fine with me. after all, this r/s wun last long as long as we behave in this manner. i tried my very best to give u my best though sometimes i know i treated u bad with my attitude. but talking to u is like… talking to the wall or sometimes i feel so discouraging from u when i tell u stuffs. i don’t even think u r listening to me. sometimes i wondered, did u ever lie to me. if u think nothing u do pleases me vice visa, den we shd really go our own way. den u wun have to try so hard to please me anymore. but i do love u.

i hate to be a small kid in front of everyone. i hate it. i need to grow up. treat me as a grown up please and stop saying i’m a small kid. i’m no more.

she had finally stopped her “bill out” thingy. yes. peace. and shocking thing is, she went out with this cambolia guy who was a regular at TCC.. tim doesnt like it. whatever. i have no mood to talk anymore nor do i have the mood to study.