Little Moomooz

Little Moomooz.

why did i always allow myself to get hurt by duckie so many times? and sometimes when i looked back, even though he used to said many unpleasants things to me but he had nvr wanna break up with me bcos i m frustrated. when i happened to look back into the past, i realised i was very contented with the past things that i used to do with him.. and he had nvr lied to me.. and he always let me have the best of everything. that was past and it can never come back. he smsed me just now to tell me he saw christopher at Zouk today.. that’s cool.

today, duckie break up with me but den i asked him if that’s what he reali wants.. in another words, i asked him if our break up is being finalised. once our break up is finalised, whenever he said in the future, i wun give a damn anymore. not even bcos i love him. he said he wants to take it back. den it’s fine with me but den i’m not a toy man.. i have been feeling itchy since wed, and i get no help and now, i got a scar from scratching. thanks to me. i have been scratching too hard.. seriously, why do i have to put thru with these things? i dun understand myself.. break up & take back again.. i’m getting hurt.. sometimes i wished he can be decisive in some things.. allow him to keep hurting me.. i’m not a fool.. this shall be the LAST Time and i’m serious abt it.. i’m sure that i’m not that unpopular..

i went to gf‘s hse jus now cos i dun wish to go home early.. so i went to her hse to slack for awhile.. we were surfing net, chatting & sms-ing.. i didnt tell duckie until i walked from bren’s hse to somerset to take NR home… i’m so f**kup now.. the things that i kept inside my heart seems to get heavier each day.. i’m still so lost. when everyone is moving on, i’m still lagging behind. when can i ever return to my past glory, that is if i ever have. =( i’m still so upset.. perhaps.. whatever happened reali for a purpose.

Did closing for bar and without she-who-shall-not-be-name‘s interruption. thanks. and thank god for that. den i went to esplanade to meet gf & the rest and have some talk there… sigh..

signing off going to bed soon.. i’m still so upset.