i was supposed to go for yong quan‘s bday but i didnt know he’s gonna check out tml so i can’t go cos i worked until 10pm today.. =( meet up with duckie for a movie – Ultraviolet.. i think the show is a bit…. too exaggerated. haha.. “Hi, my name is violet and i’m born into a world u may not understand.” this is the starting line of the movie. haha. finally i can rem something huh? sigh.. duckie asked for patch up today but i just couldnt patch up with him.. i just can’t.. he needs to learn to be responsible for his own words.. even anger words.. even it’s words that was said out when he was angry.. just like him.. they just need to be more responsible.. can they really understand my feelings? nope, i dun think so.. at least this is what i think.. when he ask me whether do i still believe he still loves me.. actually, i’m a bit lost.. one moment he was scolding me, next moment he say he still loves me and of cos a part of me still believes that he cares for me.. but guys… how contradicting can they be? duckie too say he loves me alot.. but i stayed firm on my beliefs that, if he really loves me.. den he shdnt have blunt out that “break up” word so easily like as if he’s crapping with me. i have already told him many times before these break up that once he said break up with me again, den it’s hard for us to patch up again.. he should know the conseq… i’m not trying to act “ya ya” because i know he still wants me back.. i’m trying hard to let him know that i have been giving in to him each time he mentioned a “break up” to me.. he make me doesnt trust his words anymore.. den in the 1st place, he shdnt have promised me.. i cant patch up with him knowing now, i can’t really trust his words.. it’s pointless if i do that.. time will prove everything i guess.. or at least i hope so.. amin say i’m not myself recently.. i think i have not been myself lately too… sigh… and i know ppl in TCC cares.. but… i m just a human..