was almost late for work today but still, i think i made it. hahaha. lunch was as usual, a bit bz though. with she-who-shall-not-be-named as host, i dun think we can have very crowded lunch. lack of staff today cos gim wei & nana is on MC thus, me & guo bin have to look after station 3. but den it’s ok.. at least, no mistake. and poor tim, he’s sick now. and he does look like a sick person. so i worked until 8pm instead of 5pm cos it got so crowded today. well, i have a sumptuous meal today during break time. me, bin & rin shared money and we bought chix chop, macaroni & balti butter chix s/w to share. lol. omg, that’s so delicious. and the best part is, macaroni was prepared in the mama mia “banana-look-alike-bowl(plate)?”!!! damn~ lol. it makes me happy.. well, after that i acc sue to go P.S to buy her polo t-shirts and guobin tagged along too. after that i walked to heeren to meet duckie… and den we went to eat swensen.. though i’m not hungry surprising i finished my food. gosh.. i do feel like a pig. lol. and now my stomach is so big now. den after that we went to watch “Wolf Creek“. well, starting of the show is bored. reali. muahaha. blah blah blah. den we went home after that. “Pack me in ur laggage leh.. take me to aust too if not pack tooty inside..” den he said, “u think can pack whatever thing inside meh, i not go there for holiday some more”… ok.. whatever.. i was only joking. den he asked me if i wanna go with him. the prob is, i have NO money for flight, for hotel & food. haha. he reali talks like going to sentosa man. sigh. whatever…

did i wronged him? he said he din block me in msn bcos he wasnt at home. he didnt reply my sms was bcos he was at SGH.. did i? he said he wants to start afresh with me. but, who knows whether will the feeling fade away or get stronger. i’m sorry. i have my fears too.

i m so upset right now.. i have been feeling down since afternoon before my IC paper.
i’m asking if i’m wrong to ask him to teach me IC? asking help from him i dun see where have i gone wrong. but the fact that he doesnt like me meet him is true. i know he didnt like. but den i only went to ask help from him? in this sense, i’m wrong.. because he doesnt like me to meet him. i admit, on the 1st day i asked him for help i dd not inform him, i’m wrong. on the 2nd day i asked permission from him if i could ask him for help or he wants me to wait for him to finish work so he could teach me. he said i could go ahead when i called him at TCC.. den a few mins later he called me back and den keep saying staffs.. in short, we have break up. it was no one’s fault. my fault of cos. i know he didnt like & i do it anyways. but i dun feel that way. and, he even blocked me in msn. =] that shows how much he claims he love me. =)

i will NEVER EVER believe in a guy when they claimed they love me. and at the end of the day, we will just break up. =) life. that’s my life.

today, i went to work and i tot i heard my mum leaving the hse at 9plus in the morning.. lol.. well, she did.. i wake up to get my hp cos i was charging it last nite.. den i went back to dreamland. and wake up at 10plus. den prepare to go work blah blah blah.. work was ok.. quite entertaining, and gim wei was sick.. so guobin took over his shift and work until 10pm. lol. gosh… den i was like waiting and waiting to finish work.. and the rest was so fascinated by the nyp student thingy.. oh well.. den i called duckie and asked him if he wants me to wait for him to finish work so he could teach me and after the li li lala, he tell me to go ahead. fuck. a few mins later he called back and complain blah blah blah. i almost wanted to scold him fuck. i got so paranoid. i have to study for tml’s exam and he keep saying those things that arent related to it. wth.. what’s wrong with him? and he’s going to aust tis sun. gd. i dun even feel like meeting him after today. after he irritated me. fuck. i can’t think anymore.