i m back from supper with that guy whom i think is a liar.. haha. was so worried that he might do whatever he said to me on msn. but it turns out to be a nice supper after all. went to the open “hawker” at esplanade bcos i dunno how to go to m.s to eat bah ku teh. i had hokkien mee & chicken wing & sugar cane drink.. =] satisfied. he went to help me buy my hokkien mee & sugar cane drink.. he doesn’t wanna take the money when i wanna give him.. and den when i ask him what he‘s eating, he said chicken wings because he had taken some food b4 meeting me, and still ask me if i wanna eat some.. (stupid, he could have told me about it. i don’t like ppl to look at me eat! all day long, i have the feeling he might play me out. so if he tell me, at least i’m mentally prepared. lol.) LOL! if i were to eat, he will not even get the chance to eat it. chit chat for awhile. talked abt tcc kitchen people. but he dun look into my eyes or he doesn’t look at me when we are talking as if i’m not in front of him. and when i asked him in sms, he said he‘s shy. =.= wanted to ask him some qns, but ended up didn’t.. but at least he honestly told me about the girl he like when i smsed him about that. den he told me that he‘s going aust to woo her. =] *Relieved* but the girl is not as bony as i am. he keep saying he likes bony girl. =.= so he‘s that kind of person who only say and will not do. that’s the person he is. so he told me that he’s single for 2 years, and he‘s lonely blah.. but i’m not that kind of person who will have sex with any guys. and den he told me he has been wooing that girl for 2 years. oh well, what can i say to him? the only thing i said to him is “good luck”.. lucky, i’m able to get the ans i want w/o making any effort. =] den he say, when i was sitting beside him just now, he wanted to hug & hold me but he doesn’t have the guts. but the prob is, i’m not the girl he likes. *even more relieveD* 3 cheers!! muahaha. now, i can finally stop worrying, bcos he‘s definetely not my prob. and i took a cab home bcos no more train or bus home. =.= and it costs me, $20.50.. damn.. poor.

today piggy came to have “lunch” with me. went to eat our fav chicken rice. still so nice & cheap. haha.. so i was kinda went back to the outlet late. den later at nite, jiayong cook a fish with banana inside, and it’s nice!! and then he fried banana, and i get to eat too. muahaha. chatted with suzy.. and den she told me about her problem. frm the start till the end. i’m glad that this problem and burden of hers, is gonna end soon. and that ex-gf of hers, just *beep* off. yup. =] sometimes, guys are so bast*rd, so what can we do rite? but don’t worry, she has got us. =] this problem of her started 1 and half years ago.. poor suzy, she has to take all this shit. but, suzy is strong! haha. don’t like the fact ppl keep saying “ur bf leh?” I HAVE GOT no bf now. the feeling suck. cannot really trust any guy i know now, but i definitely can trust the guys i know b4 him. =] 3 cheers.. wahahha. damien say fang chew said i almost killed him with the ice fridge cover. LOL! i didnt even realised fang chew was there. lol. funny.. and mason looks so quiet today. not like the usual him. but he still say me. and jiayong tried to snatch my hp. lame people. lol. ok lah.. i feeling very tired now.. need to get to bed. muahaha. nitey ppl~

went to visit amy at the hospital. was supposed to meet piggy. but he haven’t finish his fren’s report.. so.. we didn’t meet.. i meet up with monkey den we go to NUH together.. and den saw mich, ah xiang & jun yuan (amy‘s bf) at the lift. coincidence. =) saran & his gf came to visit her too. melvin went to visit her earlier.. so does jess & jo. =) she went for operation for her leg and we waited till 7pm den she came back from wherever she was previously. she looked tired.. the pain on her face. and her bf is so sweet. went to hospital to acc her everyday.. i mean, since ytd.. =X *envy* so her mum gave us a ride to jurong east.. den me, darling & monkey took train to JP to have our dinner because i haven’t had any food for the whole damn day.. chit chated and went home bcos i feel so slpy.

i hate it whenever some guys treat me like an idiot and play around. i don’t like that guy doesnt mean he has the chance to treat me like one. i hate it when some guy came to sweet talk to me & den says he likes me. he told gf he‘s interested in me. he told me he likes me. den he say he cannot be “irresponsible” towards me bcos he‘s leaving for aust. how nice of him. but when i asked him why he likes me, oh, that was because he likes skinny girl. =.= but whatever it is, he really did change my opinion about him. whatever it is, i became a victim. this makes me hate guys even more. really. and when gf told me whatever he said to her ytd nite, it makes me feel disgusted. to think i treat him like a friend. and he did that to me. oh, what a friend. shall not talk about that kind of person anymore. and guys, stand far away from me. FAR AWAY. it irritates me each time a guy come near me even though it’s funny to chat with. but once things lidat happened, it just irritates me. whatever it is, i’m NOT going to let him come in between me & gf. there he goes. i just think too much. *isolate myself* but i think again.. whether me & gf are really best friends.. i doubted.. she didn’t talk to me the whole day. only tell me she got her problems. oh well, i shall not ask any thing more.

worked 9am today.. went to bank to bank in the money, den after that slack around bcos there isn’t much customers ard. i did lunch bar today.. and i guess, i m still not good at it bcos tim still helps me. and den i did bar all the way until time to go home at 6pm. chatted with wati.. and den went home at 6plus and receive a call from amy saying that she met an accident, so i call whoever i can and inform them.. so we (willy, jiabao, boon siong, jo, alicia & mich) went to visit her. so i rush down and pay her a visit and stay there for abt an hr den went home. boon siong send me home bcos he drives. yeah. it’s better than someone who always say he will drive me home and that never happen. and when i call him each time he didn’t pick up, he say he’s driving. ha. look? i’m never the passenger he will drive around with. den he withdraw $50 from my bank and didn’t tell me. i m not angry he took my money. i am angry he took without asking me. and den he say i took $10 from him and only tell him at nite so he will only inform me that he took my money at nite. bullshit. i think he must have super duper poor memory. i told him in the afternoon immed after i withdraw, but he claimed i told him at nite. oh well, guys, they wouldn’t ever admit their mistakes. and now, i’m considering whether i shd believe whatever they say. well, will be meeting w.k (ask me who is this guy, i MIGHT consider to tell u) on wed nite for supper.. i’m having a second thoughts now. sigh.. having problems around here. and i finally know what’s going on with gf.. if i never ask her tonight, i guess i will not know. but it’s not ethical for me to say her stuffs out. sigh. but it will be damn asshole if w.k‘s using me.

here i am sitting in front of my lappy and blog. haha.. daily routine, in fact. woke up about 1plus in the afternoon and it’s pouring outside. dun reali have the urge to get out of my bed.. but i dun wanna miss the chance to watch the movie, so i did. haha. relunctantly of cos. den i realised there isnt anyone at home.. bcos they went to my grandma’s hse bcos it’s her bday.. which i have forgotten.. oh well, dun quite like to go to relative’s hse esp when i don’t know if they are talking or they are shouting. was about 10 mins late for “Over the hedge“, so i missed the front part.. and hammy the squirrel is soOOooo cute!! hahaha. he’s nuts! haha.. “But i love cookies..” “Give me my cookies!” just like me!! muahaha. i love cookies. so tim wants to hammy. muahaha. den we watched the “x-men3“.. well, and finally i know what does the last part scene (after the credit) came from.. den we went to have dinner at tcc.. again.. a bit relunctant but i still join them. had chicken wings & oreo m/s but.. it still cost me 16 bucks even though we share the chicken wings. sigh.. getting poor now bcos of the specs. damn, if i know it.. i will forsake the specs instead of making myself poor. lol. what has done has already been done, no point regretting it. i will be working till 5pm tml after which i will go home and slp bcos i’m working opening on tues.. =) shagged.. and i still dun earn a lot. wth.. watever it is, i must be happy with whatever. the more i work, the more money will have.. work more then. sigh. nite people~
gf, bin bin, me & suzy
gf, bin bin, me , suzy & shawn
bin bin & me
Title: StickwitU
Singer: The pussycat Dolls

I don’t want to go another day
So I’m telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
Throwing their love away
I know I got a good thing right hereThat’s why I say (Hey)
Nobody’s going to love me betterI’m going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody’s going to take me higherI’m going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I’m going to stick with you
My babyNobody ever made me feel this way
I’m going to stick with you
I don’t want to go another
So I’m telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our privated lives
Ain’t nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you’re the only one for me
And I sayNobody’s going to love me better
I’m going to stick with you
ForeverNobody’s going to take me higher
I’m going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I’m going to stick with you
My babyNobody ever made me feel this way
I’m going to stick with you
And now
Ain’t nothing else I can need

And nowI’m singing ’cause you’re so, so into me
I got you
We’ll be making love endlessly
I’m with youBaby, you’re with me
So don’t you worry about
People hanging around
They ain’t bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that’s all that counts
So don’t you worry about
People hanging around
They ain’t bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that’s why I say
Nobody’s going to love me better
I’m going to stick with you
Forever
Nobody’s going to take me higher
I’m going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I’m going to stick with you
My babyNobody ever made me feel this way
I’m going to stick with you
Nobody’s going to love me better
I’m going to stick with you
ForeverNobody’s going to take me higher
I’m going to stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I’m going to stick with you
My babyNobody ever made me feel this way
I’m going to stick with you

i am finally home early now. feeling slpy on my way back in the bus.. fall aslp in the bus and unfortunately, i missed one bus stop which means i have to walk a long way home. argh. slpy head. woke up at 5.30am to go work.. and reach there to realise pat hasn’t reach yet.. did housekeeping today.. so i pledge everything that needed to be pledged. so i pledged from the t-shirt rack to the wave wall den to the “wall” at the paintings.. den cont to wipe the magazine rack.. den wipe the racks where we put our menus.. while pat clean the ice cream fridge & the cake fridge. den tim came in at 8plus and crap while doing housekeeping after which sue came in. den everyone came in slowly. den it got so busy.. hahaha.. den i went to make specs since i have the voucher.. and i din know it’s so exp… it cost me about $229 so i paid $115 first.. oh man.. i made the transition lens.. so i guess it will be better bah. i wanted the normal lens.. but bcos i dun have any degree so.. the person suggested the transition lens.. and it’s $250 for the lens + the frame $79… minus off the $100 voucher. yeah.. so i have became poor now. feeling a bit regret to make that specs.. anyway, i went to meet gf & bin bin for dinner at AT and den damien joined us after his work, after some persuading. den we went to yamaha to play with the piano.. gf‘s so smart. den we went to cathay there to take a sit and play with bin bin‘s flute. it’s a long time since i last play it.. so, i’m so lousy at it.. or shd i say i’m nvr good at it in the first place? lol. den went to starbucks bcos gf wants to have dessert.. just have a feeling that gf doesn’t like us to mention about kah wei.. oh well, i already didn’t mention about him in front of her anymore. after that i took express502 home.. =[ i’m going to slp soon.. feeling very slpy rite now.. sigh. nite world

i m soooo tired.. haven’t eat dinner yet.. gf turned me down when she’s the one who ask me to call her after work.. oh well, shd have anticipated that… den i headed home.. thus, i m sitting down here blogging. feeling kinda lazy to talk to anyone.. but had some fun working bcos i finally get to see bin bin & mon cherie. =] today my elder sis came to tcc to have her lunch bcos she needs to take something from me. she’s alone bcos her friends didn’t go for work. lol. and she’s leaving for genting today. so she will be back on sun. duh. she didnt inform mama earlier.. lol.. stupid girl.. i just felt that gf didn’t wanna talk to me much recently.. oh well.. maybe i’m thinking too much lah.. today, i had lunch with bin bin and went to eat my fav chicken rice since it’s cheap & nice. =] and den i saw his father walking past.. oh well.. it’s busy today but im not sure if we hit the target since i’m working until 8pm. and mon cherie was like “wah, u finally leaving liao”.. i very sian diao.. lol.. know he’s kidding and so, i keep hitting him.. den he change to “huh, u so fast leaving liao ah”.. so fake. lol. *disappointed* lol. it’s fun working with them bcos i haven’t been working with them that much since their sch starts. and now, i’m scare ppl might kill me. haha. and tim was so .. when he make his nipple pop up. haha. and when i turn and i saw him taking a penknife to “cut” off his nipple bcos bin bin say so. =.= after that he tried to make another side of his nipple pop up.. =.= muahaha. pervert. and wati still say she will vomit bloody if tim speaks in chinese “bian tai”.. and so he did! haha. it was sooo funny. and i was surprised when tim say “i’m going home” in chinese. and he say i’m imagining. duh.. and i’m working opening with pat. muahaha… sian, but i’m going to slp soon. nitey ppl.

“sorry loh”, that’s what he claimed he said to me when we met on monday. how sincere can this 2 words be. “sorry loh”. i can said that too. and den he say we are ending our relationship that is. drag it no more. i’m thinking so hard. but now, i realised, there is no point. i cannot stand his attitude towards me. lied to me and expect me to pretend nothing happened and still treat him like a bf when we already break up? i used to do that. but den? what i got back? it’s not as if he didn’t treat me good. but, i hate people to lie to me using important things. i watched almost all my movies with him & i left with no much movie to watch with my frens. and i’m not blaming him. but den he’s blaming me for not spending more time with him, for nothing being a good gf, for treating him bad. den who else can i blame besides myself? it’s reali not my luck. better the next time. stop talking like as if i have been going around to know guys. stop talking like as if i’m a desperate woman seeking for some guys to make up for my lonliness. i seriously hate his tone. i need to vent my anger once more.

yup, i’m back again! wahahaha. went to watch x-men 3 ytd nite. it’s not as fantastic as i thought it will be.. i still preferred the previous episodes. =] “old things is always the best.” – quoted from, me of cos. and den after that i took 502 home since i have no more 174 bus to JP, and 502 is faster.. but the bus is soooo damn slow.

was late for work today. damn i woke up at 8.15am today when i’m suppose to work 9am today! damn.. was 1st time so late.. and, i’m still a part time. *depressed* money is an issue to me. i realised today, gf didn’t really talk to me.. =( went to cut hair at Jean Yip today and got shock of my life when i saw the bill and my haircut cost me $42. marvellous. i got conned again. stupid. i got conned once back during CNY eve, when i went there to cut and the price is about $40 plus too. once bitten twice shy. a lesson learnt. maybe next time i might just go to some neighbourhood hair salon. lol. den after that me & monkey went to meridian to have our dinner.. after that we went to have a little walk at heeren (we also took a neoprint!! hahaha) after that we headed back home bcos i’m reali so tired!! thus, i m going to slp sooN! wahaha.. i think i’m getting old. i keep forgetting abt the movie marathon this sun. old. =P nitey people~

一首簡單的歌 – 王力宏
曲︰王力宏 詞︰王力宏／陳鎮川 編︰吳慶隆

這世界　很複雜　混淆我想說的話
我不懂　太複雜的文法
什麼樣　的禮物　能夠永遠記得住
讓幸福　別走得太倉促

雲和天　蝶和花　從來不需要說話
斷不了　依然日夜牽掛
唱情歌　說情話　只想讓妳聽清楚
我愛妳　是唯一的傾訴

＊寫一首簡單的歌　讓妳的心情快樂
愛情就像一條河　難免會碰到波折
這一首簡單的歌　並沒有什麼獨特
好像我　那麼的平凡卻又深刻

我一直　在思考　讓妳了解我的好
卻忘了　常常對妳微笑
失去的　忘記的　我會盡力去彌補
妳是我　最珍貴的財富

重唱　＊

深刻　簡單的歌　簡單的歌

重唱　＊

i m sick and duckie didn’t even bother to ask and he still wants to meet me to talk abt us patch up again.. well, it’s alright den. expected it anyways. he demanded me to meet him ytd nite too.. and i went all i got back was.. “i dun even wanna repeat myself”. went to see a doc and doc say i’m not to drink milk for a week. dont’ bother to say much neither. been running to the toilet so often today.. but life is still good. i will live good w/o him. *sick*

shivering. i thought the rain will wake me up from my nonsense. but i experienced coldness. now, i truly experience how ruthless one person could become. i was hoping to be that kind of person. to be bitch, and a slut. it’s difficult. i can’t even face the fact that duckie lied. i can’t even face the fact he said i m never a good gf. maybe i reali am not. ever since that genting trip, i just couldnt feel happy at all. it makes me feel a bit regret. and i feel even more sad even since we came back. i m only happier when i went there and play those games.. and i hate myself even more. that’s it.. living aimlessly. that’s who i reali am. i feel like… why does HE DO WRONG, and makes it sound like i m wrong too? and by saying those hurtful words. i am reali hurt. i cried. and no one help me. i have gotta help myself. i m reali sick.