all i ask of u was to apologise to me.
but end up, i always get myself into trouble.
slut. that’s what u called me on tuesday.
i will always remember that.
first, u said i behave like a bitch.
now, i’m a slut.
nothing too good for u.
people with pride.
it wouldn’t led u anywhere.
but that’s not all that makes me unhappy.

i was “forced” to do OT today.
when i told wati “i don’t feel like doing OT today”..
she say “U know u can’t say “no” rite?”..
thus, i have NO choice at all.
and den gf smsed “gf, sorry to ask.. but will u return me the $50?”..
she makes me sounded like i will run away with that $50..
this makes my day even more worse.
i don’t even feel like talking to anyone at all.
i went to the toilet and the feeling of wanting to cry just came to me..
realising, maybe i made another terrible mistake by staying in tCC.
holy crap..
i’m having 2nd thoughts now.
should i, shouldn’t i?
ha.
this makes me terribly upset.
i just kept crying for nothing.

den he came out from tekong today.
because he‘s going to the graduation day tml.
i wanted to meet him.
thought i might able to knock off from work early
but i was “Forced” somehow to do the bloody OT.
because, iaasc is on MC today.
i covered starkey on mon..
and i have to cover iaasc today..
why ppl can say “no”, and i can’t?
bcos i’m going to be full time?
tat’s not an excuse.
i’m still taking part timer’s pay.
the very pathetic $4.50/hr with $0.80 of allowance/hr.
and everything just make me so flare up.
why work so much when i don’t earn much for working so much in the 1st placE?
only let ppl have more chance and more excuses to look down on me.

and den, donald say i’m useless.
no..
i’m not.
don’t treat me like a rubbish.
i sure have my own good way.
i just hate myself.
reali do.
there is no point always try to please everyone and den make urself so unhappy.
i’m happy when ppl is happy.
but, i’m not happy now.
nothing i do seems to be right.
to the hell i shall go.
they could make me happy
but they always choose to say things to hurt me.
i hate to please anyone.
f*ck off alright?
i don’t need anyone who doesn’t needs me.
or it’s time to get new friends?
or, i don’t need friends at all?