Just My luck

well well well… couldn’t stay at home for a day so i went out to watch movie.. went to cathay and watched “Just My Luck” and realised, it wasn’t as funny as “She’s the Man”.. after the movie, we went to roam around to find food to eat. bcos by the time we finish our movie is about 9.15pm.. oh well.. =P so we walked from The Cathay to Bugis just to find something to eat.. and i’m famished.. so was he. lol. thank god that he’s willing to acc me lah.. haha.. otherwise i might just die at hm bcos monkey wants to watch soccer at 11pm.. england : ecuador. was a bit shock that england made it to the quarter finals. lol. but i can see that everyone wants them to win the world cup. oh well.. went to take a look at the adidas brazil jacket which costs $129.. but it’s pretty.. sigh.. how? den we went to one chinese kuku place to have our dinner and he offered to treat me even though i want to pay for my share.. oh well.. lucky i insisted on paying my own movie ticket even though he say he treat me.. den i realised the ice milk tea is killing me.. it hurts.. giving me stomach pain.. pls remind me NOT to drink ice milk tea at nite. =[ the sharp pain.. kills me.. anyways, we went to the arcade to play.. wahaha.. we are lousy in the games that we play.. both are equally pa jiao.. lame.. it’s for fun anyways.. lucky we are in time for our last train.. wahahaha.. phew.. thanks for acc me anways.. otherwise i might remain upset for the rest of day if i stay at hm.. sigh.. life doesnt suck at all.. but the person who is making it suck is me. i have a clearer picture as to how to solve my existing problems. 1st, i wish someone can just brain wash me which i know is impossible. so just treat that i’m bullshiting. haha. i always bullshit anyway. i wish i could lost my memory someday so i don’t have to keep thinking back to the past things and make myself unhappy and den make everyone unhappy as well. gf is right. i’m fucked up now, and of cos i know. and of cos i know i doesn’t know how to control my feelings. it’s a tough job.. she’s right, i shd try harder. but i don’t care abt having a full time job in tcc anymore. i used to be happy in tcc and now i dread to go work not bcos i hate working there.. but bcos i hate myself for being useless. at some point of time when wati told me she took 2 days to convince tim to convert me to be a full time, i start to think if i’m capable den she dun have to use 2 days to convince him. thus, i believe i’m never capable. i hate it so much. i just can’t wait to leave. i believe there is some place that is meant for me.. maybe a road sweeper? haha.. was crapping with him jus now.. talking abt future stuffs.. 1st time actually chat with him.. kinda weird at how things works.. anyways, i’m heading off for bed now. nite.