Sucky, Yucky day

sigh, the whole day started bad by a series of events..

1) i woke up in the afternoon and realised HR was looking for me.. and they actually thought i was playing “MIA” game.

2) thus, i went to take a shower and den call tim back and the HR call back and told me to reach the office at ard 2.15p.m.. i left my place at 1p.m and i reached the place at about 3p.m.. guess wat? i forget to bring my cert (excluding my dip cert bcos i haven’t take it) and i have to wait for my younger sis to get it for me.. and I got LOST while finding my way there. =.= and i have to take a cab which costs me almost $5.. lame..

3) everything “went well” at the office.. however, when i stepped out of the office.. it was drizzling.. and when i got into the bus, the rain got heavier.. and i have to walk to cineleisure w/o any umbrella.. lucky for me, a lady came to “resue” and gave me a “shelter” under her umbrella and we walk to cNL. =]

4) reached CNL at 3.45p.m and kelvyn told me i have to work until 12mn instead of 11pm.. i was disappointed bcos i’m looking forward to 11p.m to go gf‘s kbox.. was a little upset.. den amin came in for work.. and i got happier bcos i haven’t work with him for a long time. crapped around with him and den went for my break bcos i was feeling hungry.. and den i asked amin if i reali have to work until 12mn, he let me off at 11pm bcos he knows i wanna go meet gf….

5) the sms from him makes me rather upset too. and everytime i start work at CNL, that kelvyn will ask me to go wash all the glasses. =.= watever.. i don’t know what’s wrong with me.. i couldn’t think well.. smses from him makes me… argh.. so i went to kbox for less than hr and i “left”.. called him to ask him if he wants to meet me bcos i have promised him.. but he some sort attitude towards me.. keep saying i “dua” him and stuffs, it reali pissed me off.. esp when he told me he saw yi hui who is in the same company as him in tekong.. i’m even more pissed when he say i have dated so many guys how he knows the name. fuck it. and i’m feeling hungry.. so i called missy to ask her if she wants to acc me makan.. and mon cherie came down instead bcos he had nothing to do.. he asked me go back but i dun wan.. so we went to visit amin… after that i acc him up and i wanted to go and michael came out and pull me in.. wth. i don’t feel gd leaving the place lidat and den suddenly go back again. and i went in, i saw how pissed gf was… aiyah, i don’t know lah. wtf am i doing??? i kept doing things to piss ppl off.. maybe i will feel better alone i guess.. waited until morning with lim xiao di, missy, bin bin & damien.. went to mac to have breakfast and i share with lim xiao di bcos i don’t eat a lot for breakfast. and he helped me to carry my super heavy bag. haha. very nice of him.. and the rest keep teasing me and him.. duh.. and den damien even ask me to consider lim xiao di.. =.= even missy say the same damn thing.. wth.. it was suppose to be teasing.. they are talking as if it’s real. =.=

i wanna watch the brazil match against ghana.. can’t wait. and seriously, i don’t know what i’m becoming. i really feel i suck a lot nowadays.. i feel so different.. i feel so, hopeless.. sometimes, i think death might be the best solution even though at certain aspect, it’s not a good solution.. sigh.. i’m.. i reali suck alot.. i must put a lot of determination NOT to go too near to him or him.