Good Friends

i have nvr expect someone who knows me better will be someone whom i used to think he doesn’t like me. i had nvr expect that. people walked in and out of my life.. people left their footprints in my life.. people gave me permanent hurts.. i gave hurts in return.. but nvr did i expect someone who knows me better will be someone from the kitchen.. and that someone is jiayong.. life is kinda strange.. out of a sudden, he talked to me.. out of a sudden, he came disturbing me.. out of a sudden he cooked food and got my share.. out of a sudden he asked me out for a drink.. and out of sudden, he’s the one who understands my inner feeling now.. why is he the one who can sense my feeling and not certain someone.. talking to him makes me wanna cry but i controlled.. i hate to show ppl that i’m a cry baby.. talked about certain stuffs that has been bothering me.. and he gave me advises.. and when he can tell me what kind of person i am.. i’m reali shocked.. was sitting at the singapore river there drinking while i had my burger.. and talking about some stuffs.. and it came to my mind that, i’m subborn in certain ways.. and, i gave up easily.. guess i drink my drink too fast and i vomitted.. *yucks* but i feel good after vomitting my MCspicy burger. =_= i feel good after that puke.. i do.. i have my regrets.. but jiayong has his point rite too.. the things that he said certainly made some sense to me.. and it’s time i shd take a long term break from something call “relationship & frenship“.. all the “ships” are actually driving me crazy. all i hope was, my frenship will last with everyone.. if she doesn’t want this “frenship” anymore.. she could have told me straight.. sometimes, i reali couldn’t face her anymore and den i will have the urgue to transfer to another outlet in order not to face her.. but it sounds silly… or facing her and not talking to me and feel that i’m invisible, makes me feel sad.. reali.. i do.. feel sad.. the end of whatever i wanna say.. bcos i’m slpy already.. i hate the way things is.. but the road out there is not always straight. good frens are forever.. at least i do believe that. that’s why i love my sec sch frens.. bcos, they forgive & forget my mistakes.. and i’m reali thankful.. even though i dun always get to see them.. but at least i think everyone rems each other.. that’s the most imp of all.. =] i miss u guys.. i seriously do.