tim hasn’t talk to me regarding whatever he wants to say to me. and this is making me nervous.. whatever it is, i have already make some mental preparation.. haha…… there is 3 full time who will be transferring away from RX to other new outlet which will be opening(funan) & reopening(bugis) soon.. and i know the 1st two and i dunno the last one. and there isn’t alot of full time to guess. =] work was a bit boring and i just can’t wait to get the hell out of there… well, and den missy dropped by the outlet and was in time to acc me to eat my “lunch”.. sue went back home bcos she is on MC.. poor thing. have nothing much to say, bcos it defeats the purpose of writing in my own blog. had a funny time talking to missy.. talked about how fang chew asked her what she wants for present and suddenly he bcomes da xiong and i becum yi jing. =_= where is our xiao ding dang? LOL! anyways, we will be going out with celebrate missy‘s bday with her tml. =] can’t wait. and wati again say “couple cannot stay in the same outlet” kinda sentence.. =_= which makes it even more lame.. i knew she will say it anyways, bcos nana said it. =.= and wati say make some preparations.. bcos, i might be the one leaving.. oh well.. it might be a good idea too.

well, sometimes it’s hard to think about the problems that u are facing now and realised u have noone to turn to. but then at the same time, u know someone out there still cares for u. and at the same time, the person u once closed with, insisted that u wouldn’t change. and the fact that she was once my good friend, and she say something lidat.. i was hurt.. the fact that she says i dun give, hurts me too. everyone keeps telling me, i always push ppl who cares abt me away and in a way, i hurt them. but.. think about it.. who reali cares about what i am thinking man? the world still operates with or w/o certain ppl.. my life, whoever importants will stay, whoever not will leave. in this case, friends is imp to me.. although sometimes i make mistake.. but remembering it and not to repeat it again is more imp than keep reprimanding the person and not willing to forgive. so ppl, tell me the defination of “good friends” and “friends” and perhaps even “stranger”. so that i will have a better understanding. and of cos, at this point of time whereby we aren’t talking to each other, might be a good thing too. and if i were to even think if she ever “forgives” me for that one mistake, i seriously can go dreaming. when was the last time she asked me out? when was the last time she actually chat with me? when was the last time she actually ask how i feel? when was the last time she went out with me? all she did was to treat me as if i’m invisible and i did the same thing to her too. all i wanted was a listening ear and not someone who will let me throw my problems onto and ask her to help me solve. i always feel better talking out.. that’s why i love talking to amy. she always listens.. well, i shdn’t be so stupid in the 1st place. life still have to go on. and i’m still alive. which i seriously hate the fact that i’m still alive.. but i’m too afraid to die too. contridictions. trying hard to believe – live ur life to the fullest.. how full can i live mine? haha. a very tough qns to even ans it myself. well, sometimes it takes more than just a courage to talk to someone. it does. so i’m storing my courage, so i can approach that certain someone. sigh.