SorrY~

i’m reali sorry. to know the truth and somehow rejected u. to protect myself. human beings are selfish, and i’m a very selfish person in this case. i would rather keep this friendship than destroying it. it’s a different thing between friendship and relationship. people would advices me to give u a chance, but i couldn’t. not because i couldn’t forget my ex, but i don’t even feel like going into any r/s now bcos, it reali suck. i know u are a good person, too nice to me.. makes me feel like i’m a bad person. i feel bad for making u upset, which i didn’t mean to. but being direct, i couldn’t think of any way to tell u nor i wanna explain myself. it’s reali hard to forget 1st love. and i don’t wish to be ur 1st love. and i don’t wish to end up hurting u nor getting myself hurt. even though ppl say u wouldn’t, but i’m a cautious person now. to enter into a new r/s is like entering a dream.. not sure if it’s gonna be nightmare or sweet.. every new r/s that started is always sweet and end up with nightmare. i don’t wish to have anymore nightmare. nor do i wanna give u any. we are still young. still can make decision.. 7 months plus, is a long period of time.. u r still young and have plenty of time. why waste urs on me? sigh. whatever it is, i have to stop talking now. gd nite.