i’m reali sorry. to know the truth and somehow rejected u. to protect myself. human beings are selfish, and i’m a very selfish person in this case. i would rather keep this friendship than destroying it. it’s a different thing between friendship and relationship. people would advices me to give u a chance, but i couldn’t. not because i couldn’t forget my ex, but i don’t even feel like going into any r/s now bcos, it reali suck. i know u are a good person, too nice to me.. makes me feel like i’m a bad person. i feel bad for making u upset, which i didn’t mean to. but being direct, i couldn’t think of any way to tell u nor i wanna explain myself. it’s reali hard to forget 1st love. and i don’t wish to be ur 1st love. and i don’t wish to end up hurting u nor getting myself hurt. even though ppl say u wouldn’t, but i’m a cautious person now. to enter into a new r/s is like entering a dream.. not sure if it’s gonna be nightmare or sweet.. every new r/s that started is always sweet and end up with nightmare. i don’t wish to have anymore nightmare. nor do i wanna give u any. we are still young. still can make decision.. 7 months plus, is a long period of time.. u r still young and have plenty of time. why waste urs on me? sigh. whatever it is, i have to stop talking now. gd nite.

yipee!! finally watched a movie tonight and i’m officially broke tonight as well. thanks to the cab fare that i have to pay after the movie. went to watch Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man’s Chest with fang chew. and the movie is great! it was so funny and i just kept laughing thru out.. and i realised something, i have lose control of myself and laughed too loud.. well, what’s new rite? lame. loL~ i almost have to do OT until closing, even though i’m a bit unwilling, but will still do it if it’s reali necessary. pat almost send missy home and i almost have to do OT. oh well, problems can be resolved don’t u agree with me? so fang chew came to the outlet with the Old Chang Kee fishballs.. and yup, crapped a bit with the rest b4 catching the show. and dun reali like the part where they keep saying me & fang chew. somehow it’s irritating me. but still, have to joke along with them. sounds lame. even though the show is great, but kinda regret bcos i have to take a cab home.. and in a day.. i’m almost 50 bucks poorer. thanks. LOL. and den, when fang chew told me the part abt damien asking jiayong what did he did on sunday, doesn’t reali surprises me. once a liar, always (or shd i say forever) a liar. =] so gf is doing the right thing. and i support her even though it seems like i’m “close” with him. haha. not that i’m two-headed snake. but look, out of a sudden, jiayong is nice to me? he has got a motive for being so nice to me, don’t u agree with me? he wanted to use me to get gf‘s good books. whatever it is, i’ll nvr help him. =.= he can cont to dream on. and i told him b4. he called fang chew while we are in the movie, and den he called me.. god knows what reason. lol. but anyways, johnny depp is so funny, and orlando bloom is handsome. oh man. =X reali enjoy the movie. and after that stone for awhile at the bus stop, and took a cab home.

Happy Birthday to Jesslin~~~

it’s her bday celebration today. so me, bday girl, amy, darling & val went out but darling and val was late. we had our dinner at Mr. Bean Cafe which is at Singapore Art Center which is just opposite paradize center. had fun crapping ard. haven’t seen bday girl for quite some time and kinda missed the old days. well, we had our bday cake which darling bought from polar. lol. and we had to give 2 of it away bcos we couldn’t finish. =) so we gave it to the staffs. and bday girl gave us the treat. how nice. so, i still have some money left. =) so i din spend any money. and i saw qiu yun, missy‘s fren today at wisma. she’s so cute. ahah.. and she’s the same age as i’m. =X oh well. den we walked to mrt station bcos it’s rather late already. had fun time today though it’s only a short moment. and i forget to take pics with my hp. =X shall take some pics from amy. =) nite ppl

alright~ was feeling damn sick in the morning.. guess i have gastric pain today.. and the pain was like so sharp till it’s so pain for me to move. so tim bought me soup from the soup spoon. after drinking the soup, i have stomach ache after which i went to the toilet and poopoo. LOL! after that i feel slightly better but still have headache which was carried forward from morning. and i feel better while closing bar.. bcos, work makes me forget everything. =) after that me, sue, wati, missy & her sis went to CQ to chill. had fun chatting, playing ard.. taking pics of kissing each other. lOL~ i will post up more if wati rems to send me. lOL~ and i have a fun time crapping and playing ard with missy & her sis. it was so funny until i couldn’t stop luffing. and gf went to CQ too. with her fren. but we sat at the different table. oh well. i’m lovin’ it. lOL. and starkey was like working OT there. oh well. they need ppl!!

*yawn* i’m kinda tired to blog. so i shall blog tml. haha. have fun just keep laughing today.. feels like i’m crazy or something. alright. feels like i’m dying already. nite ppl~ btw, i LOVE bah kut teh~~~ haha. muacKs~

i love my sunflower~ it’s very pretty~ the biggest sunflower that i ever received! =] it reali makes my day. haha. it was given by ~~~~ tada~~~~~ gf!!! *muaCks* =) she even gave wati a rose too. how sweet. when she came into the outlet with flowers, i was confused.. when she handed me the sunflower, i’m overwhelmed so that i had to hug her twice (in the morning & after i finish work)!! hahaha. =] but i feel a bit sick.. i feel like i’m going to faint. and i have an upset tummy the whole day.. and i just can’t shit out. lame. den after work i went to visit my ah ma with da xiong. he wait for me at the lobby while i went up to visit her. a few of my relatives is over there.. and i have to stand there and crap with her for like 20 mins and i went to look for da xiong again. taking the sunflower ard makes me feel a bit funny.. bcos it feels like it was given by da xiong. lol. den we took a bus to bugis to have our dinner at some restuarant. hahaha. by the time we finish dinner it’s already almost 9pm.. so we walk back to the shopping area and down to the arcade. LOL! and den we went home at 10p.m.. he wanted to send me home, but it’s not necessary to. =] now here i am sitting here to blog again. to keep my flower “fresh” i put it in my fridge. LOL. =P sounds silly? can’t help it. i’m taking the “advise” that da xiong gave me. each time when i’m out with him i can laugh my ass off. oops~ and gf told me michael was laughing at me just now. damn, i have a feeling tml, he might tease me. LOL! watever. ciao.. feeling sick.

ah ma has been hospitalised for 3 days.. and i still don’t know what happened to her.. until now.. i only know she had “stomach ache” on monday morning.. and when i came home at nite, she’s hospitalised. den the clothes keep piling up until it’s like a mountain, so i fold them today.. and my mama was kinda surprised who folded those clothings.. lol.. and when my sis told me she was thinking whether is it my dog.. =_= lame. and my ah ma is having an operation later.. and i only know NOW, at this moment. duh.

anyways, when i was sleeping today, i received a call from DBS.. asking me to go down for interview tml.. and the thing is, i’m working morning tml.. if i were to go, i have to change shift with isaac and, i have been working closing for the past 2 days.. and i have no time to go buy my things.. so i called the person up to see if i could change my interview to another day.. well, that lady say she’ll give me a call some day next week.. i must keep praying she will give me a call. haha.. when tim asked me if i got something on tml, i have to be honest with him so i told him.. and he was like saying “maybe they are desp”… kinda… watever. haha. alright, gotta go shit now. sigh. tired.

weee~ tim gave me & sue a treat of golden jubilee and chicken wings!!! hahaha.. i feel so thrilled. cos can eat my fav food. and today, we are still short handed.. and we had to go break super late.. =( so by the time i went for my break is already 5p.m.. and my food was like cooked 3 hrs ago? hahaha. anyways, i saw chilli beef soup and i bought 1 for myself.. LOL. wanna see how much is my soup?

good damien gave me a big portioN and one more garlic bread~! hahaha. wee~ and i was so happy drinking.. den i went back to work again.. den there was this group of 12 ppl who came in at the later hour and i… almost flip and die.. but lucky we are still able to handle.. otherwise it might become a disaster. =X everything went pretty well. and i feel so shagged after working with not enough slp. =X damn it. den went to chit chat with jiayong at the river again.. and den went home.. muahaha. shall slp early today.. (well, i know i said it almost every nite.. but can’t help it mah..).. ciao ppl~

alright, let me begin my LONG blogging “career” now. haha.. oh well, den i will have to start from saturday. =)

Saturday, 08.07.2006
Worked 9a.m and stepped into the outlet to see erin, wati & tim doing housekeeping. lol. and after their housekeeping, i was crapping with them until sue came in.. lol.. den i cont to crap den suzy came in.. it’s last day of work in RX.. she’s transferring to FM.. sadded.. noone will teach me malay anymore.. =[ den after that i finsh work at 5p.m.. cos erin or tim nvr say they wan me to OT and i din look at the schedule, so i tot i dun have to OT. lol. den i went into the kitchen and slack. so me & suzy went to have lunch together.. den during lunch time gf came in bcos she’s here to marinate the chicken wings… which sue & starkey went to buy. after lunch, i came in and start crapping with wati.. and den the “thanks eh” thingy started with a very retarted face. lol. after work, i was crapping and resting in the kitchen.. and jiayong say i was disturbing his mood. =.= den he threatened to throw me into the rubbish bin.. den he reali carry me up by holding my arms and “throw” me into the rubbish bin.. lucky i used my leg to block otherwise i might end up in the bin. =.= got bullied.. i was shocked so i went out of the outlet in tears sia.. lame.. den i went to meet da xiong bcos he’s supposed to acc me to the lib b4 we meet sue & gf for movie at 8.25p.m.. den when we finally settle down, i heard funny sound coming out from da xiong‘s stomach.. HAHAHA.. he’s hungry and nvr tell me..it was so funny… so we headed to town to hunt for food b4 we meet the rest.. we went to catch a movie call “Waiting“.. =) it was abt an operation in a restuarant.. but, i don’t quite understand.. forget it.. hahaha. den we had a hard time hiring a cab bcos it’s changing shift time.. and we finally got a cab to bugis to meet wati.. den we took a cab to the airport to send tong lei off to perth.. aaawww, gonna miss her.. and can see her happy face.. =) den we went to grab a bite at the Mcdonald’s… and the service is slow.. bleah.. we had a fun time chatting, crapping & bitching.. =] let’s do it again~ hahaha. den me & gf took a cab to meet damien to watch soccer at 3a.m.. it’s germany:portugal (3:1).. yay~ haha. germany “supporter” for the day.. i feel like i’m gonna drop dead. so i went home.. and just when i reached boon lay, i received da xiong‘s sms asking me if i have reached boon lay.. just nice. hahaha. den i reached hm showered and doze off after talking to him..

Sunday, 09.07.2006
woke up at 3plus, and realised… so many people smsing me.. ahaha.. so it ended up i didn’t reali slp much too.. so i smsed jiayong when gf told me missy is meeting pat instead of me.. =.= so i meet them at city hall.. and den we go together.. so we reached there about 6plus 7pm.. and was still drizzling.. so the bbq fire hasn’t start yet.. time passes quite fast when u r enjoying urself.. nothing much to say but i’m having fun.. haha. drank some red wine and barron. lol. and da xiong was a bit tispy.. drunkard. having fun taking pics with missy’s hp bcos mine is going flat. lousy.. haha.. i’m gonna post some pics~

1st pic: me & missy
2nd pic: me & gf, hugs
3rd pic: missy and I (wearing nana’s spec).. famous Ms Tan. =P


1st pic: me & nana.. will be missing her presences in RX =(
2nd pic: me & da xiong. Taken when he’s drunk. lol.
3rd pic: shows a drunkard. lol.


1st pic: wati & me
2nd pic: starkey the bear & me
3rd pic: to end the pic, our ugly face. lol

Monday, 10.07.2006
what else? taking pic in the toilet again?!?!?!

woke up late for work and lucky was not VERY late for work though. =X thanks to tim, he helped me.. there is only 5 ppl for lunch time bcos isaac is warded in the hospital.. and i’m the baristar. haha. =) finally. i thought today’s bar wouldn’t be so busy and it end up busy.. and i just kept making sumatra coffee until the grinded beans are used up. =.= hot seller today. lol. lucky, i still manage myself.. but there are certain areas that i need to improve though. i was too fast until my T.hazelnut latte has got no layer. lol. oh well.. and today, i learnt how to key in the ordering thingy. =) so i helped erin to key in.. she teach me like as if i’m a computer idiot. =_= anyways, after that i waited for missy to come so i can bluetooth all the pics to my hp. =) after that i went to meet bedmate for dinner at M.S. =) chat with her and den we went to have ice cream, and we headed home.. tada, here i’m sitting here blogging. and she kept asking me to go church this sunday.. feeling kinda lazy and tired.. shall see.. hahaha.. alright.. this entry is far too long for a human to stay here reading. haha. nite~

lalalalalla.. france france france!!!! pls win~~~ omg.. i mean even though i dun bet, but i just want france to win~ it’s world cup finals tonite. and i shall watch it.. and slp for abt an hr or 2 to go work tml.. =.= working 8.30am tml.. “opening” with tim.. weird timing. but anyway, he’s doing opening alone tml.. so, dun complain too much. haha.. i shall update my blog tml when i got more pics to upload all at once. =)