well, i saved money today for break time because tim cooked fried rice for us. yuMmy~ =] so i had fried rice.. =] and tim bought me cookie!!! yuMMy~~ long time never eat subway cookies already. =X and when i wake up this morning, the right side of my body aches like hell. stand straight long and i feel like ach till dying. hahaha. shawn keep laughing at me because i said azuki “collar” when i wanna say “cooler”.. see? after i fell down, my mind isn’t right at all. and i tease him back of cos. haha. i’m a mean person. =P had some fun during work.. after work, i meet monkey out for dinner. went to Funan TCC to have dinner because i wanna get camera from fang chew. =X and we ordered food.. hahaha. and we had big portions. hahaha. a big portion of linguine for the Oven bake chicken. haha. kinda got shocked. and we had dessert as well. hahaha. yuMmy~ so i spent a lot on food today.. Hahaha. after that we had to go home because i’m working Opening tml~ =] received sms from tong lei. how sweet. muahahaha. take care world. injured person has to go slp~

it wasn’t supposed to be a big issue. i was venting my frustration because she refuse to talk to me abt whatever she’s thinking. that’s all. one side wants to solve, another side too tired. at some point of time. everyone is sick & tired of the same damn thing. i’m too. but, i don’t treat friendship like some kind of child’s play. and i really treasure my friendship with her. she needs to understand how i feel too.. or at least try to? knowing that she has so many things on hand, so i’m cool about it. she’s losing cool.. so am i. can’t we just sit down face to face and talk? the reason things remain the same was because, we only use the high technolgy call SMS to communicate each time some problems pop out. i would prefer face to face.. would she? sigh.

i’m soOOoo unlucky today..
1st, i wake up late.. and den i rush for work..
2nd, i fall down.. and hurt my arm, my leg.. lucky that’s about it..

the only lucky thing that happened to me was, lucky the cabby drove very slow, otherwise i wouldn’t be sitting in front my lappy and blog.

that’s rite, i fall down in the middle of the road. hahahahahaha. =] so luck of me. and i get up the moment i touches the road floor and “OuCH!”.. it’s painful~.. anyways, i did lunch bar today.. and it’s pretty ok.. except the fact that i was a bit slow. haha. crippled. den tim said he will buy me protector.. he talks as if i always fall down.. this is my 1st fall down after so many years. hahaha. ooPs. fizah helped me do the bandage and clean up.. hahaha.. kinda trouble her, because she’s sick.. and sue is on MC for 2 days.. damn it must be serious. after that the bandage got loose so, jacky helped me.. haha. the new missy. anyways, after work i went to meet amy darliNG~ we are supposed to go Ikea but we changed to town because i’m injured.. so we watched movie today. “John Tucker Must Die”. it’s kinda funny.. haha. shall not reveal any details. cos i’m lazy to write? HAHAHA. lame.it’s been so long since i watched a movie with her.. both of us can’t even rem when was the last time we watched a movie together. lol. it’s always so cool to meet up with her. now we have a little promise and we must do it. so tml i have to buy paper and pen on sat(bcos i will only get pay on sat. LOL) and get my brain working! hahaha. children’s day is coming, so what do u think we are gonna make for each other? by the way, mooncake festival is here to. Zhong Qiu Jie is just next fri! damn, i reali hope tim can let me work 10-6pm.. or earlier shift lah, so i can go out with amy. let’s go carry lantern!! hahahaaha. nitey world.. have to wash my stupid wounds. =]

周杰伦 & 费玉清 – 千里之外

周杰伦： 屋檐如悬崖 风铃如沧海 我等燕归来
周杰伦： 时间被安排 演一场意外 你悄然走开
周杰伦： 故事在城外 浓雾散不开 看不清对白
周杰伦： 你听不出来 风声不存在 是我在感慨
周杰伦： 梦醒来 是谁在窗台 把结局打开
周杰伦： 那薄如蝉翼的未来 经不起谁来拆

费玉清： 我送你离开 千里之外 你无声黑白
费玉清： 沉默年代 或许不该 太遥远的相爱
费玉清： 我送你离开 天涯之外 你是否还在
费玉清： 琴声何来 生死难猜 用一生 去等待

RAP：闻泪声入林 寻梨花白 只得一行 青苔
天在山之外 雨落花台 我两鬓斑白
闻泪声入林 寻梨花白 只得一行 青苔
天在山之外 雨落花台 我等来

费玉清： 一身琉璃白 透明着尘埃 你无瑕的爱
费玉清： 你从雨中来 诗化了悲哀 我淋湿现在
周杰伦： 芙蓉水面采 船行影犹在 你却不回来
周杰伦： 被岁月覆盖 你说的花开 过去成空白

费玉清： 梦醒来 是谁在窗台 把结局打开
周杰伦： 那薄如蝉翼的未来 经不起谁来拆

费玉清： 我送你离开 千里之外 你无声黑白
费玉清： 沉默年代 或许不该 太遥远的相爱
周杰伦： 我送你离开 天涯之外 你是否还在
周杰伦： 琴声何来 生死难猜 用一生

费玉清： 我送你离开 千里之外 你无声黑白
费玉清： 沉默年代 或许不该 太遥远的相爱
周杰伦： 我送你离开 天涯之外 你是否还在
周杰伦： 琴声何来
费玉清： 生死难猜
合唱： 用一生 去等待

uh huh~ finally know what’s going on. however, i don’t think it’s all my fault. she has her faults too. she ignored me that kbox day and still expect me to behave as if i’m happY? when i kept asking her if she’s going on sat, she say most probably. den when i ask damien, he say she IS GOING. what different ans i have got? den nvm. she didn’t talk to me the whole nite.. she was talking to damien the whole nite, ask damien to acc her sing and stuffs. i feel so “invisible” of cos i m unhappy that nite. she don’t understand the feeling of people treating another person invisible was because she’s the one doing it to me. whatever. just let this matter cool down 1st, den decide.. otherwise it’s just empty nuts. and, i’m going nuts.

it’s MASON’s 21st bday today!! hahaha. and he got sabo by the rest of the kitchen staffs.. and he’s… so untidy! haha. the 1st time i see the kitchen in a REAL mess. it was like they are having war right after lunch time. hahaha. it’s funny to see mason bluffing his way and hug jiayong and make sure the rest of the people gets dirty as well. it’s funny. and i had a good laugh. it’s a joyous occasion and he’s happy.. taking pic with the rest of the kitchen staffs at the end of the sabotage. hahaha. and they bought him a birthday cake as well. i didn’t take any pics bcos i was doing ordering. after work i went to meet sue because we are chilling out together. so i went to paragon to meet her.. and after that we went to, i think it’s, emerald orchard’s foodcourt and sit there and chit for awhile while waiting for her time to break fast. did i mention that Fasting month a.k.a Ramadan starts on last sundaY? yup, so we waited till she can break fast and eat. after dinner we went to CNL to check if amin is working.. and he’s not there because he went to office and we saw taha, once again. haha. the ironic thing is if we see taha, amin isn’t working.. and amin works closing, we wouldnt see taha. LOL. funny. anyways, we crapped with amin.. disturb disturb.. chat for awhile den we headed home because sue is falling sick. she has the same syndrome as fizah.. both of them has sore throat, and a nose that runs. poor thing. hope they have plenty of rest. get well sooN~

Seriously it’s a waste of time to put in effort to make certain someone to realise that he/she is an important friend when that certain someone doesn’t even give a fucking damn to u.

she said people would tolerate my temper but she wouldn’t and this sets me pondering what have i done to her that makes her think that way. was it because of the “Bday incident” or whatever that triggers her to think that way. whatever it is, she doesn’t even bother to tell me what’s wrong and i feel so.. *wondering* and i asked her if i throw my temper on her? she said it doesn’t has to be on her. C’mon, she’s looking on the surface stuffs? if she was referring about me calling out bin bin‘s full name when he failed to reply me, i apologised and explained to him why i was so pissed. how can she judge me lidat? damnit. i hardly throw my temper now and she said i throw my temper? causing problems for people? create more problems? and when i asked myself, how often do i see her around at workplace? 1 or 2 times or sometimes none? i have offended her that way? gosh, that’s so bad. and this shows how much our “friendship” worth. when she was there with her mum for dinner, i tried to talk to her, she ignored me.. and she just said to me that she’s tired to deal with me. it’s not like i have forced her in ANYWAY to meet me up, accompany me go shopping, have dinner like she did with her friends, go out for dinner, for movies, even to JB.. ha. =D she asked me out, she cancelled at the very last min. i asked her out, she agreed and den cancelled. set this aside, she’s not convincing to me enough, and all she had to say was “den u can dealt with ur disappointment and find someone who doesn’t disappoint u”. when i told her i was disppointed with the way she treated me. and that came out from HER hand (bcos we were smsing each other for awhile ONLY cos she doesn’t even bother rem?).. i was, and am upset about this. but apparently she doesn’t even wanna tell me what’s wrong because she needs to study, get her license, teach her kids. =_= she talked like during these process, i have stopped her from doing all these. she is NOT fair towards me. and since when i have to drag her into ANY of my fucking problems? which i don’t even have? When was the fucking last time she asked me “how are u?”, or when was the fucking last time she bothered to talk to me like we used to be? she has things to accomplish. i don’t have? am i not a human too?

How do u feel when u talked to someone and he/she doesn’t acknowledge u? I feel like an idiot. that’s how i feel each time i talked to someone and he/she doesn’t acknowlegde my pressence. it felt like i have just talked to a wall, or something similar to that. Can’t they just reply with an “ok”, or nod their head to acknowledge to what i have told him/her instead of just keeping mum and continue to do whatever they are doing. and den when i repeat myself, they would say “yah, i heard it”.. thanks people. this is how i f**king feel.. i’m pissed at these kind of people. sometimes i feel it rude. c’mon guys, to reply someone is a very tough thing to do? it’s not. with people always treating me invisible, that’s the worse of my life. i wanted to be “visible” to that certain person and den i found myself reluctant to do so. What would you do if things like that happened to u? tell me. to take the initiative or wait? however, both of us will be at the “losing” point, because someone has to give in. and who will that be? me or her? we don’t talk anymore. don’t smile to each other. don’t crap. don’t play around. but then, it’s only towards me. what about the rest of the people? it’s the same. as in, different treatment from what i can see. and i have no idea why she’s not talking to me. she hasn’t talk to me since 2 weeks ago. and, i have no idea. i tried not to feel so pissed off each time i see her, but.. i just can’t help it.. or it was just me? hah… life is so funny sometimes, when u stop what u r doing for awhile and think back, we have been thru this “shit” before. so why let history repeat itself? g0damnit. or was it humans just don’t learn from their mistakes? no idea.. but certainly i learnt.. everything over and over again.. however, past few days was quite a happy experience. it was only when i see her, and this kind of feelings comes back to me.. sigh..

i had soOo many things to update. gosh, but i’m so tired now. so it’s time for bed, and update tml. hah. i can’t even type properly. gosh. nitey world. =]

let’s see.. to start of with, i was late for work today.. super late. almost an hour late.. so i arrived at almost 8am instead of 7am.. and tim said i was to make up the late hr after work which means i have to work until 4pm instead of the usual 3pm. =] i smsed tim the moment i wake up at 6.20am.. and lucky he’s cool about it.. and he even offer me his sandwich. yuMmy, i love ham sandwich but i don’t like tcc sandwich.. it reminds me of my sec sch life whereby the 8 of us (u know who u r~~), will bring lunch box to sch during our sec 5 life. =) and den after that me & bin bin walk to FM to visit wati and just nice it’s her breaktime.. and i have to wait for fang chew anyways.. and after that bin bin went off, me & fang chew went to chinatown because he wants to take pics of the lanterns, which we, ended up, didn’t.. hahaha. we went to visit damien because he’s on MC today and we had nothing else to do, and i’m going to doze off any moment. and we went to bugis to have our dinner and i still ate my dinner even though i kept saying i’m on diet. haha. lame.. and den we sat there and chat for a while den we walk to city hall to take bus home. and fang chew acc me take bus because he said i’m tired.. oh well.. watever, im gonna head off for my bed soon.. cos i miss my elmo~ little boOboo~~~~ but she’s not here.

chilling out with sue means laughter and craziness. haha. and i love to chill out with her. =] that’s how life shd be. and everything that is unhappy for me this week is gone. worked morning, 9-5, today and everything went smoothly and of cos with everyone’s “professionalism” which mon cherie keep repeating. HAHAHA. it’s kinda funny lah.. cos i was saying to him “to encourage u, i helped u top up the ice till the rim because i know u will need it”.. and he got cursed, he used the ice till it left half in the ice box? container? who cares? and he said he wants to kill me. HAHAHA. funny. and he become more daring till he will hit me too. so i was saying “grow up already. got wings already. now can fly already.” in chinese to him. and i had so much laughter working with them. =] and he keep saying me about my “professionalism”.. haha. was it supposed to be compliment or something else? lol. anyways, i accompanied fang chew to chinatown to buy the non stick pan for his work since i’m waiting for sue too. and den 3 of us chill out together.. and coincidentally, me & him was wearing black. =_= went to have dinner at kfc and feel like i got cheated because i only had 2 drumsticks.. and the person didn’t inform me that if i wait a little while longer, i could have something else. =.= thanks eh. anyways, den we went to check out if amin is working but it’s his OFF day.. aaawww.. den we walk ard and i bought a belt for myself.. and walked past tcc again and saw taha and went in to disturb and we ended up chilling there. LOL.. had 1 american cheese cake & chocolate charlotte. =) 1 for 1. how nice of them. had drinks of cos. and we took a LOT of pics man. will upload once i borrow the camera from fang chew to upload. =) it’s a nice day to chill out. and of cos, i love taking pics. HAHAHA.