i don’t know what’s wrong with me now. i really mean at this moment, at this point of time. i was pretty ok, joking ard with sue & wati.. and now, i’m confused and perhaps a little mad.. which i don’t even know i’m confused over what and i don’t even know i’m mad at what.. mood swing i guess.. sometimes i really hate it whenever people ask me my whereabouts, or flood me with irrelevant questions.. questions which i don’t even think i have the need to answer.. being concern? i guess so.. but it kinda irritates me.. i hate questions. and i don’t know what’s wrong with the world now.. or was it just me? people fall in love, and den fall out of love.. and me? i don’t love. i love myself more than anything now.. and i love my frens.. try asking me to love a guy.. pretty tough.. i want to, but i just can’t do it now. i can’t play this game of love anymore.. and i don’t wish to. why does guys always confess he like certain someone over sms or msn? weird.. was it because of the technology? high technology always prevents people from talking face to face.. what about a guy confessing he likes certain someone over the telephone? either way, i would considered them insincere.. or perhaps, i’m thinking too much? over view, there is none of the guys say they like me face to face. is it really so hard to say so? i guess it is.. i don’t have the courage to do so.. or they are just afraid of rejection? i’m afraid of rejections too.. words are easy to say.. wati say i’m being choosy.. am i? humans are selfish creature.. and i admit i’m selfish.. if i think that the relationship doesn’t work before it starts, den it’s better that it ends before it starts.. isn’t it better to remain as friend first? i need to feel something different. i reali need to.. i just can’t feel anything.. why does people see more things than i do? they can tell who like who, and me? living in my own world.. always the last one to find out the “gossip”.. haha.. kinda crap.. just tell me straight……………………………………………………… i hate me.