i’m crying in my heart. i’m crying physically too. why can’t he be fair to me? why can’t he just let me stay since he had already let me stay for 2 months when i was supposed to get transfer out of RX to CBJ? then why the sudden decision of tranferring me out to CBJ again? sometimes i don’t understand how things work for him. the he who shall not be named… but everyone knows.. i don’t wanna mention names here.. but i’m just upset with this “sudden” decision. no, i’m not reali upset. but what i’m really upset is his “i-dun-care-about-ur-well-being” tone. his tone hurts me. and i tried to be tough but obviously, i’m not a tough person. when fizah and starkey went into the kitchen and my tears couldn’t help but to flow out. i cant suppress this kind of emotions.. or am i too emotional? and i went to the toilet.. i wished i could cry out loud. but i have to control myself, bcos i know if i did that i’m gonna stay in the toilet for a long time. and den i went to for my training lesson.. it’s cool.. and i was happy for the last 3 hours.. laughing out loud and saw uncle jeremy there. threatened to report me to SPCA bcos i’m a pet. lol. lame. i just have to keep irritate him by calling him uncle. hahaha. i partnered with my “son” who is fizah’s bro.. and was happy there.. den i went to meet sue to meet shawn to have ben & jerry’s ice cream. his treat. bcos 1st, he took his pay and 2nd, he broke my BIG pen. haha. the deal is sealed off when the mix & make ice cream which cost $12.50. gd deal. hahaha. and den we had cookies cookies sundae, of cos this is not his treat lah.. we had to pay.. crap with them.. make fun of each other.. and yup, it made my night worthwhile. and when i’m back alone.. the thought of getting transferring came back and it makes me sad.. but i know i have gotta accept. but first, i need a job. and when i am transferring? anytime after OCT 31st.