UPSET.

Seriously it’s a waste of time to put in effort to make certain someone to realise that he/she is an important friend when that certain someone doesn’t even give a fucking damn to u.

she said people would tolerate my temper but she wouldn’t and this sets me pondering what have i done to her that makes her think that way. was it because of the “Bday incident” or whatever that triggers her to think that way. whatever it is, she doesn’t even bother to tell me what’s wrong and i feel so.. *wondering* and i asked her if i throw my temper on her? she said it doesn’t has to be on her. C’mon, she’s looking on the surface stuffs? if she was referring about me calling out bin bin‘s full name when he failed to reply me, i apologised and explained to him why i was so pissed. how can she judge me lidat? damnit. i hardly throw my temper now and she said i throw my temper? causing problems for people? create more problems? and when i asked myself, how often do i see her around at workplace? 1 or 2 times or sometimes none? i have offended her that way? gosh, that’s so bad. and this shows how much our “friendship” worth. when she was there with her mum for dinner, i tried to talk to her, she ignored me.. and she just said to me that she’s tired to deal with me. it’s not like i have forced her in ANYWAY to meet me up, accompany me go shopping, have dinner like she did with her friends, go out for dinner, for movies, even to JB.. ha. =D she asked me out, she cancelled at the very last min. i asked her out, she agreed and den cancelled. set this aside, she’s not convincing to me enough, and all she had to say was “den u can dealt with ur disappointment and find someone who doesn’t disappoint u”. when i told her i was disppointed with the way she treated me. and that came out from HER hand (bcos we were smsing each other for awhile ONLY cos she doesn’t even bother rem?).. i was, and am upset about this. but apparently she doesn’t even wanna tell me what’s wrong because she needs to study, get her license, teach her kids. =_= she talked like during these process, i have stopped her from doing all these. she is NOT fair towards me. and since when i have to drag her into ANY of my fucking problems? which i don’t even have? When was the fucking last time she asked me “how are u?”, or when was the fucking last time she bothered to talk to me like we used to be? she has things to accomplish. i don’t have? am i not a human too?