he apologised for telling me off by saying he’s gonna transfer me out to CBJ ytd. and den again the reason why he wants to transfer me out of RX was because he feels that we (me & she who shall not be named 2) can no longer work together. i have no idea how she who shall not be named 2 backstabbed me.. but if the things that she said has this kind of effect on me, den it must be serious. am i right to say that? no matter how i dislike the person, i still have the “respect” for that person.. and if the person cannot respect the way people respect them, den how the hell is that person gonna gain respect from the people they work with? there is reali no way… and unless we can work together, den i don’t have to be transfer out of RX.. but the thing is, is she willing to? she’s over-sensitive over small matters.. and look at the way she handle things? grow up. she’s not rational enough. and after certain matters had happened, she will pretend not to see me, or she will never look at me.. and she don’t talk to me at all. it’s not my fault. like when she’s angry or something, her tone towards us is not that good too. well, at least i still treat her as my junior captain and give her the respect she deserved. otherwise i might scold some unpleasant things to her. but i give in.. because we are talking about working as a team here. so no matter what she did or said to me, i put it aside and still willing to work with her. but c’mon? she complaint about my attitude.. why don’t she go and reflect her attitude too? enough of this matter.. it’s true that it takes 2 hands to clap.. if i’m only the one willing to put everything aside and work together and she’s not willing, den it doesn’t work.. we are talking about compromise. no compromise, we cannot co-exist together. if u guys get what i mean. it will be unfair because of her i get transfer out. i’m dead serious about this.

i’m crying in my heart. i’m crying physically too. why can’t he be fair to me? why can’t he just let me stay since he had already let me stay for 2 months when i was supposed to get transfer out of RX to CBJ? then why the sudden decision of tranferring me out to CBJ again? sometimes i don’t understand how things work for him. the he who shall not be named… but everyone knows.. i don’t wanna mention names here.. but i’m just upset with this “sudden” decision. no, i’m not reali upset. but what i’m really upset is his “i-dun-care-about-ur-well-being” tone. his tone hurts me. and i tried to be tough but obviously, i’m not a tough person. when fizah and starkey went into the kitchen and my tears couldn’t help but to flow out. i cant suppress this kind of emotions.. or am i too emotional? and i went to the toilet.. i wished i could cry out loud. but i have to control myself, bcos i know if i did that i’m gonna stay in the toilet for a long time. and den i went to for my training lesson.. it’s cool.. and i was happy for the last 3 hours.. laughing out loud and saw uncle jeremy there. threatened to report me to SPCA bcos i’m a pet. lol. lame. i just have to keep irritate him by calling him uncle. hahaha. i partnered with my “son” who is fizah’s bro.. and was happy there.. den i went to meet sue to meet shawn to have ben & jerry’s ice cream. his treat. bcos 1st, he took his pay and 2nd, he broke my BIG pen. haha. the deal is sealed off when the mix & make ice cream which cost $12.50. gd deal. hahaha. and den we had cookies cookies sundae, of cos this is not his treat lah.. we had to pay.. crap with them.. make fun of each other.. and yup, it made my night worthwhile. and when i’m back alone.. the thought of getting transferring came back and it makes me sad.. but i know i have gotta accept. but first, i need a job. and when i am transferring? anytime after OCT 31st.

it’s a fun saturday, we, i mean i, wear the wig and i look so weird. HAHAHA. guo bin wore the wig and the mask.. and it looks so funny… i told tim he shd help the wig cut layer so it will look nicer. LOL. have a fun time laughing at myself. lol.

and i woke up at 2plus in the afternoon.. so i was supposed to meet bear out for dinner today and some kbox session but den fang chew smsed me and said he’s unhappy today so i went to acc him instead. his grandma passed away this morning and he’s stressed about work, so i kept him accompanied.. we went to kbox to sing because the boxing machine he wants to hit is down.. and den after that we went to have dinner at esplanade open space coffee shop.. both of us was like shivering until dying. haha. thanks to his “they never on air con? den i will “hot” until die.” and thus, we were almost cold till death. HAHAHA. and even though i was wearing my jacket, i still feel so damn cold. sigh. it’s a raining day today.. and den i took a bus home bcos i don’t wanna stand with those.. i’m not going to mention what color in case u say i’m racist. LOL. anyways, it’s time to go to bed. *yawn* sometimes i wondered, which part of a man’s brain is spoilt that they likes me. haha. nite world.

what am i thinking? i don’t know. but today is a very stupid day to start with. i am only late for 2 minutes and den get myself change in the toilet, she who shall not be named 2 talked like i took forever to get myself changed. and so she complaint to tim. =] how nice of her. i’m really so glad that she complaint. she said i disrespect her. didn’t even apologise when i was late. the thing is, she was clearing table and i have apologised to she who shall not be named when i time in… but she who shall not be named didn’t hear me.. at all that is. and she who shall not be named 2 blamed us or rather me (bcos i was doing the drip coffee) that we didn’t drip the coffee fast enough to give CQ.. and so i said, drip fast overflow, we get scolding.. drip too slow oso get scolding.. and den she who shall not be named 2 ask fizah if i was trying to find fault with her.. i seriously think that she has something against me that she always find fault with me. and when i tried to be nice and inform her of her mistake, she get angry with me. wat’s wrong with these ppl? and fizah told me & sue that she who shall not be named is quite against the idea that fizah teach us paperwork.. they are scare aren’t they? den why are we doing ordering? it’s not our job. it’s captain’s job. duh~ anyways, they celebrate she who shall not be named 21st bday today.. and i dun quite like the fact that she hugged me bcos she was hugging everyone thank you. and let’s hope she will be smart since she gets older. it’s a bit surprising that she who shall not be named didn’t side she who shall not be named 2 nor me for that issue. listening to both side stories. which is what a manager shd do. and i always think she who shall not be named 2 as ridiculous. trying hard to get a double promotion? wait long. and still she wouldn’t get it. snobbish person like her will remain as what she is now.

anyways, went to CQ to have dinner with wati, sue & fang chew. i had yuzu dory today but, the one damien cook is nicer. =X had chocolate fudge cake for wati‘s bday cake.. and had a fun time chilling out.. the only thing that we didn’t do is to take pic. hahaha. uncle jeremy keep bullying me. zix too. and i finally saw louis. HAHAHA. kinda weird to see him get his new haircut or was it because i haven’t see him for a very long time? =X and we said hi, but he was busy so we didn’t get to talk much.. sigh.. den i took bus home and slept the whole journey.. =X and saw jesslin at the bus interchange. i didn’t hear her calling me bcos i just woke up plus fang chew was blocking her. hahaha. oops.. den went to the bank to withdraw money and den head back home. hope to meet up soon~ =]

你那么爱他 – 李圣杰
直到爱消失　你才懂得　去珍惜身边每个美好风景　
只是他早已离去直到你想通　他早已经　
不再对你留恋最后的你　开始了一段挣扎你那么爱他　
为什么不把他留下为什么不说心里话
你深爱他　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他 为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔直到爱消失　你才懂得　去珍惜身边每个
美好风景　只是他早已离去直到你想通　他早已经　不再对你留恋
最后的你　开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱他　为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话你深爱他　这是每个人都知道啊你那么爱他 为什么不把她留下是不是你有深爱的两个他所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔你那么爱他　为什么不把他留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱他　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱他 为什么不把她留下是不是你有深爱的两个他
所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔

learnt some paper work today. quite interesting.. and hopes i remember. haha. and today fang chew dropped by, no, actually he came to take the vcd from me.. hahaha. and he bought me chocolate.. and everyone was teasing me when i offered them. =_= hahaha.. anyways, terrence came with him.. *yawn* i’m tired. bcos i need some rest. i had some yuzu dory, some oven bake chix, some chicken chop and some kahlua salmon. can u see i’m a pig today? muahahaha. i think i will grow fat soon. at the rate i’m eating. provided damien works closing. LoL. =] time to go bath and zzZzzzz =]

I’m very angry with she shall not be named. but i shall elaborate more when i have the energy or should i say when i’m more awake? she’s RUDE. i hate her. i feel like slpg the whole damn day.. bcos i went zouk last nite! finally. hahahaha. the price to pay for going out till so late is i don’t have enough slp. went with kelvin & his frens. well.. kinda fun lah.. maybe bcos i’m still not that retro yet. but i learnt some retro dance step from him. LOL! it’s kinda funny to see everyone who was standing on the podium dancing the same step. =] and den after that we left the place about 3a.m den they went to makan and i tag along to drink because i ate quite a lot of food ytd. lemme recall what i ate. i had tom yam fried fish with extra rice. half plate of wedges. a bit of this and that.. omg.. mon cherie say i’m hungry ghost. hahaha. he’s becoming more daring. lol. well, i need food therapy.. because i’m not happy today.. and i’m so happy that starkey bought me my fav subway cookies. =X so sweet and nice of him.. i had yuzu dory, kahlua salmon & chicken chop.. i mean a bit of everything.. HAHA. at least half of everything. HAHA. and today sue is not feeling well.. poor thing. but i had asked damien out for a drink.. so we went to sit by the river side to talk.. and i promised him not to reveal any content. i reall hate the feeling whereby people treat me so invisble. what have i done wrong to deserve this? life is unfair.. when u lose something, u gain something.. either way.. so in a way, life is fair back.. so wtf am i talking? rubbish. HAHA. time to go slp.. b4 i faint in front of my laptop.

ignore the last entry i had wrote. haha. that’s the thing about PMS-ing. hahaha. alright. time to watch my show.. btw, i’m going to wang li hong’s concert!! oMG OMG OMG OMG omg.. i’m sooOoooooooooo excited.. damien went to buy the tickets today.. yAy~~ but it’s still too early to feel excited though. LOL..

i don’t know what’s wrong with me now. i really mean at this moment, at this point of time. i was pretty ok, joking ard with sue & wati.. and now, i’m confused and perhaps a little mad.. which i don’t even know i’m confused over what and i don’t even know i’m mad at what.. mood swing i guess.. sometimes i really hate it whenever people ask me my whereabouts, or flood me with irrelevant questions.. questions which i don’t even think i have the need to answer.. being concern? i guess so.. but it kinda irritates me.. i hate questions. and i don’t know what’s wrong with the world now.. or was it just me? people fall in love, and den fall out of love.. and me? i don’t love. i love myself more than anything now.. and i love my frens.. try asking me to love a guy.. pretty tough.. i want to, but i just can’t do it now. i can’t play this game of love anymore.. and i don’t wish to. why does guys always confess he like certain someone over sms or msn? weird.. was it because of the technology? high technology always prevents people from talking face to face.. what about a guy confessing he likes certain someone over the telephone? either way, i would considered them insincere.. or perhaps, i’m thinking too much? over view, there is none of the guys say they like me face to face. is it really so hard to say so? i guess it is.. i don’t have the courage to do so.. or they are just afraid of rejection? i’m afraid of rejections too.. words are easy to say.. wati say i’m being choosy.. am i? humans are selfish creature.. and i admit i’m selfish.. if i think that the relationship doesn’t work before it starts, den it’s better that it ends before it starts.. isn’t it better to remain as friend first? i need to feel something different. i reali need to.. i just can’t feel anything.. why does people see more things than i do? they can tell who like who, and me? living in my own world.. always the last one to find out the “gossip”.. haha.. kinda crap.. just tell me straight……………………………………………………… i hate me.

i went to the ZOO with damien, fang chew & jiayong today~ muahaha. but i don’t have the pics with me bcos i took them with fang chew‘s camera. =] it was a good day to start with.. the sun came out once i reached AMK.. and we took bus 138 to mandai zoo.. and it’s kinda cool.. we walked and see alot of animals. we went to Shaw Foundation Amphitheatre to watch the animal show.. but the “showcase” for penguin & sealion is under renovation.. so we couldn’t see. but the show is nice.. it’s been a long time since i watched an animal show. after that we went to the Children’s World Animal Land.. LOL. guess wat? of cos i have to see my kind, cow. =] and i took some cool pics. it’s kinda cool. den we went to eat KFC after that.. and we saw dark cloud approaching.. and by then we had already explore half of the zoo. and we wait patiencely for the rain to stop.. bcos we almost wanted to take the tram ride to get out of the zoo but the rain gets smaller so we continued our adventure! but the camera batt is flat so i can’t take anymore pics.. so i wish starkey they all wun cancel the trip next wk.. so we can take MORE pics. =) keke. can’t wait. after the zoo trip, i tagged along with them to geylang to have dinner with (ok, bear with me.. it’s a long list though.) michael, mason, jacky, boon peng, billy, joseph, ningma & ah di whose his chinese name i forget.. HAha.. it’s michael, damien, fang chew & jiayong‘s treat today.. so i don’t have to pay.. haha.. and i had 3 kind of crabs. 1st one is jiang chong pang xie (ginger green onion crab (well, direct translation.).. 2nd one is hei hu jiao pang xie (black pepper crab).. and the 3rd one is la jiao pang xie(chilli crab). but the thing is.. i don’t know how to eat crab.. so.. fang chew helped me with the crabs.. so he help me with the crab shell, and i eat. haha.. just tell me i’m lousy.. but anyways, it’s yummy.. after dinner, the guys except michael went “window shopping” and i tot they are going to Kallang’s MRT station. make me walk round & round. stupid rite? haha. anyways, it’s like exploring the nite life of geylang. i have always wanted to go there eat. =] den fang chew send me to boon lay b4 he go home because he wanted to send me home… well… and den it’s time to watch my vcd!! nite ppl.

well, today is wo de tong lei (my same kind’s) a.k.a michael‘s last day at RX.. kinda feel sad though.. he got promoted to CPD.. and from tml onwards there will be no more winks from him.. no more of his funny jokes.. can’t hear him scold ppl.. took a few pics with him but my hp low batt and i took the pics by using bin bin‘s hp and his hp just died.. so, i gotta get the pic from him next wk or what so that i can post it. when he walked to me to say those farewell words and i just feel like giving him a hug. and so we gave each other a goodbye hug, and when he bid farewell, it’s more like a can’t-bear-him-to-go kinda feeling… when he walked out of the outlet, i did the rub-the-ear action which he did to me b4. and it was so funny. and once he left, there isn’t anymore big ear ppl in RX anymore. so i will be the only teapot. hahaha. and think about it, we might be able to see him occasionally too. he said he will be like a spirit without a home when i asked him he will be in charge of what outlets. haha. in chinese is what we call gu hun ye gui. =) michael is a funny person.. a very nice person.. but he never send me home b4 even though we live so near each other. LOL! bcos there is no extra helmet. he said he will send me home if i have extra helmet.. well, the qns is, how am i suppose to find helmet? borrow from amin? HAHA. ok, this is so crap. Haha. anyways, life is good. so i’m going to cont my My lovely sam soon which i borrowed from tarong.. yay~ HAHAHA.

good luck wo de tong lei a.k.a michael~! all the best. and come popping by RX~