What’s wrong with my relationship with human beings? It’s getting worse. Holy crap.

Went to watch movie with Esmond at cine. Watched “Kung Fu Mahjong 3“.. reminds me, i haven’t been watching movie lately and i missed playing mahjong. so where is all my mahjong kahkis? Every mahjong show always say the same thing “love mahjong like ur own. so what tiles u wan, it will come to u…” something lidat. had dinner at Xin Wang Hong Kong Cha Can Ting again. haha. had curry chicken with rice. I like to go out with people i can talk crap with instead of going out with people with a few words. I like to go out with interesting people. I like to go out with people whom i’m comfy with. I like to meet interesting people too.

I wondered if people will be offended by my words.
I wondered if people hates me.
I wondered if people likes me.
I wondered if people can accept the way I am.
I wondered if friendship is really important.
I wondered if i’m good enough.
I wondered how to please people.
I wondered how to cheer people up.
I wondered why the universe must rotate in circle.
I wondered why people has to be angry with each other.
I wondered why people fall in love and then fall out of love.
I wondered why is there LOVE?
I wondered why does people reject/accept each other?
I wondered.






Who can tell me the answers?

It’s hard for me to reject people. But there are times whereby I just couldn’t do it anymore. Sometimes, people around me might not see the real me.

Sometimes, I’m forsaken.
Sometimes, I’m the attention of no one.
Sometimes, I’m the attention of someone.
Sometimes, I’m good to someone.
Sometimes, I’m bad to someone.
Sometimes, I get flare up.
Sometimes, I’m moody.
Sometimes, I don’t feel like talking.
Sometimes, I hate being myself.
Sometimes, I’m disappointed.
Sometimes, I feel like crying.
Sometimes, I’m strong.
Sometimes, I’m weak.
Sometimes, I feel empty.
Sometimes, I’m so happy.
Sometimes, I’m noone.
Sometimes.

I will make up for her. I will. I don’t have time. But I’m trying. Give me time.

Let’s see what i have been doing this whole weekends. hahaha.

Friday, 26.01.2007

Went out with Bear and his N.S frens (“bing xiang“, Jeremy, JJ & Jason) after work. Went to P.S. and i finally bought my blusher brush. hahaha. i have forgotten clearly that i have The Body Shop membership card. Then we went to Makasukra at Esplanade to have “supper”. having NO idea where to go, so they decided to go Pub at Clarke Quay. And we ended up at MoS (yes, again. ahaha.). had so much fun dancing. BUT the thing is, i don’t really like ppl to push me ard. Bear & JJ was like trying to get me out from those guys because they were hugging me. haha. Guys in clubs = Chee Hong. So i don’t really care about them that much. hahaha. and i only went home like 4a.m? damn. JJ, Jeremy and Jason lives around my area. tat’s so cool. muahahaha. and i had barely 3 hrs of sleep. OMG.

Saturday, 27.01.2007

Went to RX to get the S.H.E concert ticket from jacky. haha. makes me excited. so i had lunch “cum” dinner at RX as well. after that we went to Funan bcos i wanna take a look at HP laptops. Finally have made the decision of buying HP Pavilion Entertainment series DV2000. den we went to have ice cream and den go Indoor Stadium. waited for about 30mins or more before the concert starts. haha. took pics of the concert, but it’s not clear because i’m sitting a bit too far from the stage + i’m using hp to take the pics. so pardon me if the pics is blur, but don’t expect much. After that we went to phuture to meet JJ. It’s not the type of my music. sigh. but had fun dancing again. hahaha.

The concert:
– Special Guest, Fei Long Hai (WU ZUN!!!)
– Special Guest, Sun Yan Zi
– Individual Performance, Selina’s hot & sexy dance
– Individual Performance, Ella sing David Tao’s song + play piano
– Individual Performance, Hebe + Fei Long Hai sing that song – zhi dui ni you gan jue
– Individual Performance, Hebe’s fantastic drum set playing
– S.H.E came down while singing a song. yes, i saw Seline, but i don’t enough space to see the rest. stupid security.

Overall, the concert is so cool. it last for about 3 hours. =]

“you are beautiful“, that’s what the 2 frenchmen said to me when i wanted to go zouk from
phuture. =] we stand there and chat for a little while. Their english isn’t good. but still able to communicate. isn’t it so cool? They are leaving for Vietnam today. lol. both of them are so cute. the french guy suddenly ask if he could kiss me on my cheeks. and he did kissed me on my cheeks. and the another cute guy wants me to kiss him on his cheeks. which i didn’t. and den i went back to phuture. lol. interesting?

den i went back to phuture and JJ was very emo because he saw his ex with another guy, pissed me off because he kept walking in and out of the place (bear keep asking me out to look for him and each time i walk out he came back, tat’s y i’m pissed). and i went to “talk” to him. and den we went to zouk, he had a little beer, and we had screwdrivers. and i Boxed him and slapped him because he requested. In return, he slapped me back – real hard. hahaha. the 2nd time someone slapped me, the 1st time a “fren” slapped me. and den we went back to phuture again. There is this group of guys who wants to get my no. but i wasn’t in the mood to give my no. so i didn’t give. ahaha. they talked to me though. so this guy was say “please don’t be offended.”.. c’mon, i’m cool about it. hahaha. then i went off 1st bcos i am sick and tired of waiting for JJ to come out from that place + i don’t wanna let bear send me hm. they came out in about ten mins later. den we go hm.