Me.

What’s wrong with my relationship with human beings? It’s getting worse. Holy crap.

Went to watch movie with Esmond at cine. Watched “Kung Fu Mahjong 3“.. reminds me, i haven’t been watching movie lately and i missed playing mahjong. so where is all my mahjong kahkis? Every mahjong show always say the same thing “love mahjong like ur own. so what tiles u wan, it will come to u…” something lidat. had dinner at Xin Wang Hong Kong Cha Can Ting again. haha. had curry chicken with rice. I like to go out with people i can talk crap with instead of going out with people with a few words. I like to go out with interesting people. I like to go out with people whom i’m comfy with. I like to meet interesting people too.

I wondered if people will be offended by my words.
I wondered if people hates me.
I wondered if people likes me.
I wondered if people can accept the way I am.
I wondered if friendship is really important.
I wondered if i’m good enough.
I wondered how to please people.
I wondered how to cheer people up.
I wondered why the universe must rotate in circle.
I wondered why people has to be angry with each other.
I wondered why people fall in love and then fall out of love.
I wondered why is there LOVE?
I wondered why does people reject/accept each other?
I wondered.






Who can tell me the answers?

It’s hard for me to reject people. But there are times whereby I just couldn’t do it anymore. Sometimes, people around me might not see the real me.

Sometimes, I’m forsaken.
Sometimes, I’m the attention of no one.
Sometimes, I’m the attention of someone.
Sometimes, I’m good to someone.
Sometimes, I’m bad to someone.
Sometimes, I get flare up.
Sometimes, I’m moody.
Sometimes, I don’t feel like talking.
Sometimes, I hate being myself.
Sometimes, I’m disappointed.
Sometimes, I feel like crying.
Sometimes, I’m strong.
Sometimes, I’m weak.
Sometimes, I feel empty.
Sometimes, I’m so happy.
Sometimes, I’m noone.
Sometimes.

I will make up for her. I will. I don’t have time. But I’m trying. Give me time.