baby smsed me when i was hesitating if i should sms him. Not that i am being strong headed or i don’t realise i’m in wrong for throwing temper at him.. but i just misses him too much to have short conversation. i thought he would understand. but apparently, no. Nevermind about that.. like me, he miss me too much that he can’t don’t call me or sms me.. just like i was hesitating because i can’t don’t sms him.. i hope this time is the 1st time and the last time because i seriously think that i’m going crazy.. soon enough if this kind of quarrel surfaces. but in which relationship there isn’t any quarrel? am i being childish? =[ den bren ask me out to M.W to visit a.k.a disturb ah kang because he’s working closing this whole week + he misses me. LOL. i say he miss me on my own accord. LOL. thick skinned to keep saying people misses me. it’s been awhile since the last time me & bren went to slack.. just the two of us. =] kinda miss this kind of feeling. =] had some crappy moments. had my agilo olio. hahahaha. special request. baby, learn how to cook this for me den i will marry u! hahaha. time to slp. cos i’m mentally tired now. haha..

Am i too much?

Am i too much to ask him leave me alone for the whole of this week? I’m frustrated over this relationship.. or was it because relationship is not my cup of tea.. and i should remain single forever? Damn, I m having second thoughts again. This must be the Xth time i’m thinking about it. Nothing about us matches except maybe for the mole on our nose? ha. I guess i m throwing my temper again. What for? I misses him so much everyday, i waited patiently to finish my work early so i can talk to him and of cos i will be disappointed if our conversation is so short when i have been waiting to talk to him. he’s trying to say i’m not understanding. i told him a millionth time if he’s tired den he should slp early. I know he wants to talk to me every nite, not that i don’t want. But he’ll be tired to concentrate on talking to me loh. So in order not to make myself disappointed i told him tat we shall not chat on phone every nite. Sometimes i’m tired too.. but i always waited for his calls. I don’t like this. ahhh, nevermind about this. Sometimes i’ll have this urge to say the ‘forbidden’ sentence to send me back to hell. But i always refrain from saying it out because i don’t wanna hurt this relationship. I just need to know what’s my purpose in this relationship. i need to know. it feels like i m hanging out of nowhere. And den i asked myself, how many times a week i actually meet up with my friends that he has to wait to call me? he said I’m stepping on his tail now. He’s stepping on mine? I’m FENGYUN.