CRAP

maintaining a relationship is so troublesome. I QUIT. i don’t like to talk sweet stuffs to people. i dont like this i don’t like that. WHY the hell am i still in a bloody relationship for? CRAP. i love him. i do. i do love him. so what? THIS IS ALL CRAP. maintainence, commitment blah. crap. i DON’T LIKE IT. ARGH. and i will NEVER understand what the hell he wants from me. i quit trying to understand. SINGLE is the best. ARGH. I QUIT~!

Jordan came for lesson today. PRESENTATION next week. i’m nervous. hahaha. i haven’t choose what song to play for my presentation. damn, i don’t even have guitar at home for practice! and my class is next MONDAY! gosh. i’m doom. there goes my almost beautiful grades. Today my patience almost run out when i was teaching the student how to download course material from the Member’s Portal. Lucky i tolerated, otherwise i might say “why are u so stupid? i have repeated so many bloody times to u and u still don’t fu*king understand?“. Alright. everything suck today. food suck today. y? i bought tom yum fish soup today, but it taste more like bitter groud soup to me. sigh. i feel much more comfortable alone at the counter. now that i have a “sidekick” (that’s what Irwin said today when he came in. LOL), i feel… a bit helpless. haha.. that’s very bad of me. or mayb because i was used to being alone at the counter ever since JOrdan quits? oh well, we shall see. he’s stil new after all. so he couldn’t do a lot of stuffs yet, moreover, he’s a N.S man. HAHAHA.