I know who killed me

i don’t know if i am happy or sad. or maybe i don’t feel anything anymore. each time the things that i mentioned here wasn’t executed. e.g. we are breaking up. i don’t know it anymore. i don’t wish to always feel sad. i wanna be happy. i don’t know me anymore. i need a listening ear. that’s why i seek advice from Bernice. Sometimes i don’t know baby anymore. is “break up” something that can come out from his mouth so easily? it hurts. *ouch* i met up with sze tien on friday for dinner and last minute we decided to watch movie. but we can’t decide on what movie to watch, thus we decided on watching “I know who killed me” by Lindsay Lohan. Oh gosh, please don’t ask me is this movie nice… it’s just like.. weird.. imagine if you had a twins and he/she dies the same way as you… you will find it ridiculous. really. i got so distracted the whole saturday. and it feels like saturday morning suck. because i almost had a parent yelling at me because her son’s preferred timeslot was unable to start due to not enough registration, then what’s the point of putting 2nd and 3rd if they can’t attend them as well?! it’s damn ridiculous to me. but still i have to keep my cool. and talking to su ming always brighten up us. because she always joke with us etc. it feels gd. then i’m meeting baby to talk and rebecca to club at night. i can’t stand baby‘s treating me so coldly after being together for a period of time. i can’t stand baby not giving attention most of the time. i don’t like baby‘s action trying to prove that other girls are more imp than me because he can sacrifice his slpg time for them but not for me. but i would really try my best because i don’t wanna feel inferior to them. I DON’T WANT.