sigh

just finish chatting with Shaiful. and i realized my life is revolving around him him him (JJ)… When i read thru my blog entries, which of it is NOT about him? when it comes to him, it makes me feel so sad. makes me so heartbroken.. but it’s so truth.. he chose to break up with me.. why am i still… he’s not ready to commit… and i’m committing so much.. it’s not fair.. and of cos i’m not hearing nice stuffs from Shaiful. What am i supposed to do now? i love him, but………………………………………..