died

my love has died as of today. i have no more f**king reasons to see him or even contact him anymore. i’ve been taken granted for. and it’s not worth of my tears anymore. i couldn’t even cry now.. so i will use my energy to concentrate on other stuffs and i will try to never contact him anymore.. it’s time for some change. i’m sure it will be good. and when i meet that person who is my destiny, i will be glad that me & him are over. =]

My heart was broken into pieces long time ago. and he didn’t wanna mend my broken heart. and he chose to break my heart into even small pieces until i can’t mend it myself. he was being crude to me. he called me, to tell me he asked a girl whom he know from the pub to wake him up at 5.30a.m on sunday. when i heard that, it feels like he used a knife and pierced into my heart. i think i have cared too much. too much until he thinks that he can play with my feelings. we are just friends. he said that. i will remember that too. i was being so silly, to let him step over my head and giving in to him all the time. and he says i’m irritating and he hates me. why? because i cared too much about him. he can jolly well go to EVERY SINGLE PUB and know ALL THE WAITRESS there and maybe ask them to give him MORNING CALL. for ALL I CARE. I DON’T GIVE A DAMN to HIM ANYMORE. i swear. i can’t stand him ignoring me.. but he shall be ignored from today onwards. i love him too much. but i shall STOP loving him from today onwards. Maybe he won’t regret for treating me this way now, but he will regret someday.