went to Shaiful‘s house for the Hari Raya lunch since he’s just staying at Blk 739; the block opposite to his. but he wasn’t at home… Jiaying, Eugene, Gary and his gf came. so i hang around at his house till 4p.m and headed home to meet my younger sister out for a movie and dinner.. and as usual, my mum forced me to treat her. lol. which i did. we went to have Thai Express for dinner, then we head back to Cathay to watch our movie, Mr. Woodcock, at 7.25p.m and we headed back home again. the movie is not as funny as i thought it would be… it’s better not to have much expectation if you don’t want to have disappointment.

and i think i must have said a hundred times i miss him… i really do.. it’s really upset to not get his reply… i wanna see him.. so much… but i dun wanna bug him… i… am lost.

went double O last night. wanted to go MOS but hunnie last minute told me she can’t go because she got assignment to do and exam next week. =_= now u OWE me one MOS outing. zzzz. lao pa was trying to persuade me to pubbing instead of clubbing… but pubbing became so boring after so long, so i insisted on clubbing… JJ came to fetch me after his work and then we went to have dinner at Jurong East because i’m so hungry… and Qing Ren, Peili was already there waiting for us. i wanted to sms him if he has finish work then he called me… when i kept saying “hello” and get no reply from him, i thought he might have accidentally pressed his phone, then i heard him saying “hello” too. *relived* he offered to send me home after my clubbing, and i’m so touched and thrilled at the same time… because he cares about me. i wanted to hug him so much… i wanted to kiss him so much… but i didn’t get to do it. i was so high after drinking so much… because i don’t usually drink a lot.. saw Kelvin there and he treat me a “tequila pop”… i thought i’m going to be a goner soon… i survived but was so high until i almost couldn’t stand straight. Saw Fang Yuh and Yew Ching over there as well… after that i called JJ and asked him if he wants to pick me up… of cos i want him to pick me up because i miss him so much… but i was too high to talk to him… and i fell aslp… and the next minute i knew, i reached home already… i was really happy he came.. and i love him still. i still love him lots though i kept saying i have love him lesser…

i just came back from breakfast with him… after bugging me from my sleep for 2 hours, i finally woke up because he’s going to his HQ to pass his cert, and he says he wants to have breakfast cos he’s damn hungry… so we went to the mac at Gek Poh… and i bought myself a kid’s meal which comes with a a toy. LOL. oh well, because i didn’t wanna eat so much and get stomachache the whole damn day… =D then we went our separate way; he head to HQ while i head back home. *yawns* maybe i shd go and lie down on my bed for awhile before preparing for work in 20 mins’ time. =D *ahhh chooooo* *sniff sniff* *cough cough*

my heart was beating so fast until i could feel it, even without touching my own pulse.

i was walking to his house to meet him. in my mind i was thinking about meeting him. everything in my mind is about him. how i wished to keep the conversation going longer and freeze the time there. the night is passing so fast.. faster than i could imagine. then i wished he’s still mine, but in my head, i know this is not possible anymore. but, i love him. i do.

celebrate my dad’s birthday… was supposed to celebrate his bday on Monday but i have to work till 9p.m… so.. we have an early celebration. =]

My lim jiu session last night. Though there is only 3 of us, i enjoyed my lim jiu session… and i just get more red. LoL.. 1st we went to Jiu Tan Lin for some hoegarden, then Qing Fu smsed me, so after our hoegarden, we went to 36a Drinking Place to look for him. played pool and my skill suck. lol. it’s my unlucky day. and suddenly i think of him… so i decided to sms him… he replied me for awhile then he didn’t reply me… i was kinda upset… =[ till i almost wanna cry out… but i control myself… i think i’m just thinking too much again… and i wished he misses me like i miss him.. but i don’t think that will happen… but we are going partying soon. =]

peili a.k.a kerine, me, my sister and hunnie

me & hunnie

qing ren & me

qing ren, qing fu, hunnie & me

ubilant

dorable

ummy

erciful

nergetic

nchanting

i was so touched when weikang bought me cookies to cheer me up. =] thanks dude, appreciate that. i know everyone is trying to cheer me up.. and yes, i will try my best to be me again. =] met up with Jeffery and Hunnie for dinner yesterday… and as usual, Hunnie is NEVER early or on time? She told me her “official” knock off time is 5p.m but somehow, it got dragged till 6plus because she has a short de-brief about her company’s new service.. and the worse part is she took a BUS to town DURNING THE PEAK HOURS. lol. and that took her about an hr to reach by bus when she can reach within 10-15 mins by train. gosh, then me and Jeffery was sitting in Sakae Sushi taking our own sweet time to have our dinner, staring at all the sushi passing us while waiting for her.. and what shocked us was the 3 guys sitting beside us, they took 2 plates of the salmon sashimi each… and i was like staring at them… they are behaving like a group of hungry ppl who hasn’t taken any food for the past 3 days because their space is filled with LOTS of food. haha. crap. anyways, by the time Hunnie reached, me & Jeffery are in there for almost 2 hours.. =_= whose fault is that? then we took a bus to Zouk. and then we went to the prata place to have a drink before heading in.. and came out again because there isn’t anyone inside… then Esmond finally came. we waited for him to go in and come out again, then we went to the coffee shop because he’s hungry and we have our 2nd round of drinks… and i asked weikang if he wants to join us… which he did.

going into Phuture is like walking thru pack sardines. there is totally no space for you to go thru and you have to squeeze your way in and out.. the worse part is we have to squeeze our way into these crowd… if i’m so thin, i can’t squeeze thru, how does those fat ppl do it? =S

me & jeffery

jeffery and us

us with weikang