fuck

How would you feel when the someone you are looking forward to meet and spend time with, decides that other friends are more important than you are because both of you are no longer together? He said he would meet you, but he didn’t say he would spend the night with you. So what are you expecting? Then he might as well DON’T say it in the first place! Do i look like i would meet someone for 1 or 2 hours and then see him go clubbing with his colleagues? Watching his back as he leave me behind? Do i look like i’m such person? though we are bf-gf no more, simple respect should be there.

This is not the 1st time in this week. this is the SECOND time in this same week. Why can’t he just think about how i fucking feel? gf no more, so he doesn’t need to take my feelings into his consideration? I was overmoon when he msg me that he would meet me tonight, and that ‘joy’ simply turned into disappointment when he told me his colleagues might ask him go clubbing tonight because it’s Deepavali tomorrow. not confirm yet. So, once he confirm with them last minute, i have to be the person he ‘scarifice’? Once again? Crap, why is it so HARD to spend time with him? I’m not asking too much. He say “i’m not your boyfriend, so don’t expect too much from me. stop being unreasonable”. But sorry to say, i’m that unreasonable. It’s either me OR them. there is NO such thing as meet me first THEN join them. NO. it happened like 2 weeks ago. When i asked him for dinner. He told me he’s going Timbre with his friends. “dinner only mah. then after that i go join them lo” Then what about me? He just say, ask your friends out la, i don’t believe you can’t ask anyone out. and it’s happening again? WTF have i done to deserve this kind of fucking treatment? Fuck, if you can’t decide. Don’t say you would. I’m not your last minute backup plan. I’m sure you can ask you friends out during the 11th hour too. I’ve my anger too. I’m a emotional creature, unlike you.