took leave to attend Randy‘s wedding. it’s not a waste trip. because watching the Solemnization Ceremony was such a touching thing to do. By just watching how this blissful couple being pronounced husband and wife. The wedding is a fun one because i met some people whom i haven’t seen for ages like sister Eunice! been saying that i wanna give her a treat because of the job but i have been saying that for almost a year. But, i still haven’t give her the treat. =[ my bad.
my bday is coming soon.. and i only left with… 400 bucks… with $200 plus bill not cleared yet. Gosh. I’m need to create a bday wishlist soon. Maybe today. After all i might need to give ppl time to prepare? But then again, noone reads my blog. got write = nv write. LOL. there goes my dream. but the 1st thing that came to my mind is, WILL HE CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY WITH ME? i really wished he would. this is my 1st birthday wish. but i know it’s not gonna happen. because he has totally outcast me, he has totally forsaken me, and he doesn’t remember me, he wouldn’t contact me nor does he reads my blog to know that i wanna celebrate my birthday with him. so he wouldn’t know that i really wish to celebrate my birthday with him. i was looking forward to. but then, it was being thrashed into the rubbish bin when…. i don’t know. you can say i’m being stupid.. but.. i really wished to.. why won’t he give me some of his time? why won’t he give me some of his attention? why won’t he give me his love? what’s holding him back? why did i give it all out? that’s me being stupid. and of cos, when i think of this, it really makes me upset. But it’s my own wishful thinking. he wouldn’t bother. i know he wouldn’t. i’m bleeding again.
Listen to my heart beat 