a brand new year. nothing much though. We just bid 2007 goodbye and welcome 2008. time to give some certain stuffs some serious thoughts. and gosh, i’m starting work on 2nd Jan! Holy crap. =| at least it keeps me busy than just sleeping at home. yup. some normal lifestyle. =] Went to Tuas to have some BBQ. and it’s really VERY windy there. and there are quite a lot of ah neis. =X finally met up with Justin‘s “wah len eh” friends. LOL. Andre arrived 10 minutes before 12mn, just in time to have the “countdown” with us. Not much of a countdown though. because there is NO hugs… =[ then we hitch a ride from Justin‘s friend to Taman Jurong to have some food because Andre is hungry. He was actually having cold. hmmm. actually, i thought he wouldn’t come. =| anyways, me, peili and Evelyn got so ‘high’ (this is what we called zi high) when we reached there. and by the time Andre arrived, our ‘battery’ went low. LOL. Tiredness lah i guess. Alright, will try to upload more pictures up (if any) once Peili send me. =]

It’s NYE today! and time to make some new plans i guess? Let’s see what do i have in for my NY plans:

1) Gain 20KG? oh well, because Shaiful says 20KG is the maximum because i may only gain 10KG or lesser by the end of next year. =| So it’s 20/2 = 10KG – xKG = the amount of weight i will gain. LOL.

2) Register for my course for July 2008. Ok, i know i’ve been talking about registering but no actions yet.. i will register in the coming days. =] and i wanna study hard! no more like the past.

3) SAVE MONEY! yes, this save-money thingy i have been saying about for ages, but apparently… i didn’t managed to save any. =X i will try in the coming years!

4) Work hard! Maybe it’s time for me to be more responsible in the things i will be doing. Not that i am not responsible.. But, i am easily distracted. =P

5) Last but not least, maybe LOVE LOVE LOVE. ahh. i dare not think about it. =|

maybe that’s all for my plans for the coming year. =] How about urs?

Went to Bugis to meet Peili, Justin and Andre. Was actually thinking if i should even go in the 1st place. We had Seoul Garden for dinner and with all the meats, drinks and cooking… and Justin trying real hard to be funny. Yup. When he deliberately trying to do something that’s funny, none of us laugh. and when he did something unintentionally, everyone laughed. L O L. Oh well. =P Then we walked to Haji Lane because Justin says there’s lots of girlie stuffs there.. but because it was rather late more than half of the shops are closed already… then we went to a cafe to chill. crap there, took pictures… and everything seems nice. Both me and Peili was wondering why these 2 guys has endless topics.. They are the Leo gang. LOL.

One embarrass moment at Charles and Keith:
Andre took one side of a boots and turn to Justin: Babe, you will look nice in this man.
and i forgot what did Justin says/did, but it’s enough to make the hairs on my hand stand. =X
and i was actually looking around to see if anyone heard that.. apparently, the salesman did. and he was like SMILING at me. They behaved super GAY yesterday lah. They actually went off to ‘walk walk’… have their “GAYS” talk which Justin claim is Guys talk. *rolling my eye balls*

Then me & Andre took bus giving Justin and Peili their private time together. and Andre suggested to walk his dog, Cookie. Ohhhhh. i just love BIG EARS. she got a pair of big ears. I like~~ so we sat there and talk till about 4a.m and then we headed back home. We pretended to leave her there and she was like so gan jiong la. and she looked super innocent. aawwww. And there is SWINGS at the park there. oh my gosh.. when was the last time i sat on a swing? =|

and yes, i m looking forward to tomorrow. because it’s NYE. =] New Year = New Start. Everything shall be brand new. New job. New people around me. New loves. Yes, i want to put the bad things around me this year away… to the far far away land and no longer brings it back.

We have a rather complicated relationship here.

Slash sent me this song a couple days ago. and i fall in love with this song. =]
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oh oh oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later I get what I’m asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
The truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger I gotta let my spirit be free
To admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on and leave you behind

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you (I'll always have you)

Sick of playing all of these games
It’s not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror didn’t deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could stop
Admit that I’m wrong and then change my mind
Sorry but I’ve gotta be strong and leave you behind

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you (I'll always have you)

If I live every moment
Won’t change any moment
There's still a part of me in you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do, oh

I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize nothings broken (yeah)
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back got a new direction (don't look back)
I loved you once, needed protection (no, no)
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo

I can’t waste time so give it a moment (i can't waste time)
I realized nothings broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done (no need to worry)
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back at got a new direction (don't you ever look back)
I loved you once and I needed protection
You’re still a part of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo
Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you

after thinking the whole of last night, i thought i might have over reacted a little… ok, i was very over reacted. that was because i am still a little affected by this he-were-to-ask-me-back thingy. which he has no idea why he ask me back when peili asked him. and this has been at the back of my mind for 2 days. and i feel rather bad for pushing Andre away when he was trying to be concern and all. Argh. what am i thinking? i m affected because he told peili that he has never toy with my feelings before. so which one should i believe in? the one he told me about him playing with my feelings and stuffs (and that night i cried my lungs out. i became so pathetic that night.. but he don’t give a damn to me. he don’t care about me. but he told peili that he still cares for me after we break up.. tell me, should i buy that story? i begged him. i begged him dun break my heart that way… but he did it anyway) or the one he told peili about him being serious with me at the initial part? i loved you. but i have done my part that is to stop loving you, which i almost succeed. but now, i m almost back to square one which is not fair to me. because you have your fun.. when you have got noone to turn to, u think of me.. when i used to think of you almost every single day. i gave my best, u know i loved you so much. but, your desire is to know those girls working in the pub and get their number.. go out with them for movies, drinks.. i am not one of them, nor i am cute. i almost want to run into your arms again.. i almost agree steadily when you asked me to go over.. i almost. but on 2nd thought.. i shouldn’t. you say you thought we can try again.. i wanted tat long time ago… but u refused to give us another chance.. you rejected me flatly.. remember? but i have put all these aside, and moved on.. I want to think about it no more.

It’s been 2 days, and my emotions are still affected by his smses yesterday. i have been feeling real down these 2 days. i thought i should ask Andre out so i would feel better. it did makes me feel a little better because we bumped into Peili & her colleagues (my future colleagues too), crapping with them for awhile and headed back to Mac when i just left the place. My mood did not turn bad because i head back to Mac but rather, some thoughts came into my mind… or rather, my mind turns blank. till i don’t feel like talking.

while waiting for Andre, i bought my very FIRST book which i-supposed-is-an-interesting-book to read. And i seriously think that this is an interesting book.. though it may seemed a little bimbotic to some people. Sometimes, its nice to read such BIMBOTIC book you know? It’s FUNNY. What’s the criticism for? I just can’t understand these people. zzzz

Had a rather emo morning, afternoon till i met up with Bernice, Danny, Michelle, Jason, Josephine, Pamela, Abigail (the birthday girl) in the evening. Yup. We had dinner at Paisley & Cream, Central – Clarke Quay. I am definitely not a creamy person because i failed to finish up my pasta. =[ then we head to Minds cafe at Boat Quay for some games. Damn fun, but i left my brain at home. =X i was supposed to meet Andre after my game. But he didn’t pick up my call nor reply me.. Damn upset today la. Super Duper EMO. DAmnit.

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I enjoyed this year’s christmas eve by having dinner with Andre at Holland Village, Wala Wala and Le bar with Peili, Justin, Martin & Jenna. =D But Le Bar was too noisy because they have DJs there. Hmmm.. not what i have expect for this year’s christmas though. But it’s fun taking pictures and crapping around and, hitting Andre. =X I bought everyone a christmas present but i forgot about Justin‘s because i was busy helping my mum to paint the house. so it was not very convenient for me to go out so ‘early’. I bought Yuting a present too since i will be seeing her today. =] and she was kinda surprise. and for that, she hugged me like a hundred times (ok, i’m being exaggerated here) and kissed me like at least 4 times and even on my lips. Thanks to Andre‘s suggestion. =.= oh well. whatever that makes her happY! me & Andre left early because he was kinda tired and i find Le Bar too noisy. Oh well. I want a beautiful and romantic christmas next year puh-lease! =P This shall be the last time that she’s gonna mention things regarding to JJ.. i’m not interested to know who he’s interested in or whatsoever. I’m SERIOUS. Oh well, at least Yuting promised me that she wouldn’t talk about him after christmas. But, she was like in a drunk state. =X But, it doesn’t hurt me anymore even talking about him. I cared less and don’t care.

Met up with Jeremy yesterday, supposed to do some shopping… but because i was ‘trying’ to help to paint the house, so by the time i met up with him was about 8p.m… and grabbing some bite, ok… i mean dinner here = no shopping can be done. aawww. Met up with Peili & Justin as well, since they are there. And we took some pics. Well, what else can we do anyways? LOL. Was supposed to watch movie, but things doesn’t went well.. Justin went home and Peili was left alone.. because she told him she wants to be alone. and me, have to head back to Vivo to look for her. =.= 好朋友难找。你很幸运，因为你找到我。She bumped into the guys we met at MOS previously. Yup. It’s been a long time. Haha! Crap for a little while before heading to Le Bar. Yes, again. Because my hp was low batt, thus… no more pictures for the day! Haha