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after thinking the whole of last night, i thought i might have over reacted a little… ok, i was very over reacted. that was because i am still a little affected by this he-were-to-ask-me-back thingy. which he has no idea why he ask me back when peili asked him. and this has been at the back of my mind for 2 days. and i feel rather bad for pushing Andre away when he was trying to be concern and all. Argh. what am i thinking? i m affected because he told peili that he has never toy with my feelings before. so which one should i believe in? the one he told me about him playing with my feelings and stuffs (and that night i cried my lungs out. i became so pathetic that night.. but he don’t give a damn to me. he don’t care about me. but he told peili that he still cares for me after we break up.. tell me, should i buy that story? i begged him. i begged him dun break my heart that way… but he did it anyway) or the one he told peili about him being serious with me at the initial part? i loved you. but i have done my part that is to stop loving you, which i almost succeed. but now, i m almost back to square one which is not fair to me. because you have your fun.. when you have got noone to turn to, u think of me.. when i used to think of you almost every single day. i gave my best, u know i loved you so much. but, your desire is to know those girls working in the pub and get their number.. go out with them for movies, drinks.. i am not one of them, nor i am cute. i almost want to run into your arms again.. i almost agree steadily when you asked me to go over.. i almost. but on 2nd thought.. i shouldn’t. you say you thought we can try again.. i wanted tat long time ago… but u refused to give us another chance.. you rejected me flatly.. remember? but i have put all these aside, and moved on.. I want to think about it no more.