dinner

i had a very sumptuous dinner at my sis’s house today. this makes me happy. because i got PSP to play and nice dinner. This is the first time my sis’s cooking for me. ho ho ho. Xing fU~ i love my sis~~~ and i love the PSP as well. hahaha.

i’m pretty upset. if my concern about ‘what time he’s gonna finish work’ is part of trying to get attention, i seriously have nothing much to say. if that’s the case i will never ask again. i have said sorry. but i doubt i can continue this r/s anymore. he said i was trying to get attention which he say he don’t give. this fucking hurts me. the moment i saw this msg, my heart hurts. my tears flowing out. nothing is fucking right. this r/s is so fucking wrong in the first place. i shouldn’t have make myself emotion vulnerable again. it’s not right. this time, i’m so screwed. i can choose not to make myself so upset. but i m always so screwed until i made myself vulnerable to such kind of person again. fuck. i’m his gf but i don’t deserve any attention, den might as well.