death is so sudden.

like my ah ma who passed away on sunday. =[

though i am not close with her, i would cry for her. my heart feels sad. i can hardly recognize her in her coffin. =[ i really don’t know what to say about this.

it’s very frustrating when you are trying so hard to rest you couldn’t because the house is fucking noisy. and the worse part is you didn’t managed to catch a wink the whole bloody night? ANGRY.

Was supposed to meet stead for some singing session + dinner but then suddenly she say she’s gonna meet someone to pass that someone something and plus because she’s broke. i was kinda disappointed because i wanna go singing!! at about 9plus jiabao smsed me and say i didn’t jio him go singing and i went to join them at Chervons instead. =] Singing makes me happy. Haha. Chang yuan, Jonathan and Lao Pa was there as well. had so much fun singing. and then chang yuan send us back. =] and here i am, sitting here, blogging. =]

i received news that my grandma passed away this morning. this news is very upsetting. this grandma who passed away is my father’s real mother. and now, i left with 2 grandmas. this is so scary. because death is always so sudden. and once again, i was reminded that he’s no longer here with me.

曹操- 林俊杰

= 老爸激动

ah bao‘s concert. LOL

Went to Waiting Bar first because Liquid was overcrowded with people. and i personally thinks that the people in Waiting Bar is a little unfriendly. But what to do? Everywhere is crowded. Went to back to Liquid and realized that Jacky is super drunk because he was like shouting at us. hmmmm… this was the first time we saw him behaving this way. Anyways, we left Liquid at about 4 plus to somewhere else. I don’t know. because we were just walking around. hahaha. taking pictures. and i’m sure Jive and Kevin must have thought we are crazy. LOL. whatever. misunderstanding between Jive and me was cleared. and yeah, i’m not a very petty person. But if one is unfriendly towards me, i don’t see the point of being friendly towards him/her. you get what i mean? Stead is the photographer of the night, because all the pictures was taken by her. =]

and really i told myself i am not going to get myself involved between her and kai. because it has got nothing to do with me in the first place. get myself involved means i’m either stead‘s spy or kai‘s spy. but i wanna be NONE. please, don’t get me involved.

it’s a crazy night i supposed, with all the laughing and lame-ness. imagine me drinking half a bottle of green tea vs stead‘s 1/4 of coke. LOL. the tea in my stomach is filled to the ‘rim’ of my throat. and the reason for ta-ing the drinks? no reason at all. it’s so crazy. with all the sugar inside of me, i was so hyper the whole night. and i bumped into Esmond. Haven’t seen him or heard from him for awhile because he lost his hp. ok, forgiven. Ha~ and then walking towards the bridge = photo taking session! ha!! and i only got home like almost 7am this morning. LOL. tired babe.

i accidentally ‘cropped’ their face away when i was taking the pic. LOL

attempting suicide.

went to liquid on thursday night. yes, again. LOL. was having fun playing with photo hunt and drinking. but i wasn’t much pleased when someone from another table wants to know her and then the whole night noone is entertaining me. and what makes me unpleased was the guy knows i was beside her (it’s VERY FUCKING obvious because she was standing jus beside me) but he didn’t ask for my name for the sake of asking. basic courtesy lah. u can’t simply just know the girl of your interest and ignore the rest right? zzzz. Yeah. and drunkards nite. what can i say? i wanted to play pool, but noone’s free to entertain me. wtf. i am an angry person for the night. no patience.

went O Point on friday. to meet jiabao who just came back from thailand. jonathan, sky, bobby, david, chang yuan, ho san and marie was there as well. i must say i m suck at playing 5 10 because i don’t really know how and u know, these people are very tricky. so i ended up drink quite a bit from my usual (usual = don’t drink. LOL). and i played pool with strangers. and i lose all the game. LOL. and that david a little kp lah. keep saying me. e.g. ‘advice’ me not to play pool so that i won’t ‘disgrace’ myself. =.=||| jonathan sat beside me when we were playing 5 10 and he was the one who kept making me drink. i knew this plot of his. but i still fell for it. zzzz.

i wished i didn’t have to think about him anymore. but each time my hand hurts a little, i m reminded of the heartless treatment he gave me. i am reminded how much i love him. i am reminded how much hurt he gave me. i am reminded of every single thing. i hate to be emo. i hate to be alone. can someone please help me?

i got a little tipsy from drinking too much. and cried. i’m sorry if i have spoiled your fun. really so sorry. i’m trying hard to move on. i am. i wished everyone will support me and not leave me alone. but i also understand that i need to be strong. i need to be alone to be strong. i shouldn’t be dependent on others. but then again, i cannot bear the thought of being alone. but it was because of him that i know i have a bunch of friends who cares. even though they are tipsy as well. but touching words coming out from them, makes me feel better. at least i know even he’s not around to care for me. my friends does. =] i didn’t drink because of him. i drink because i lose the stupid 5 10 game. i will be fine after emo-ing for a period of time. no matter how ridiculous i think this break up is, it’s not gonna make him come back to me. this will never happen again. PLEASE, don’t come back and hurt me anymore. the more i try to hate you, the more i couldn’t. i couldn’t bear the thought of you leaving me once again. i do know that i love him a lot. i know. i rather believe this r/s can work than you THINK it’s not gonna work because of our character differences. that’s why i couldn’t overcome this myself. can someone PLS hELP ME!!!!

why is he always so unfair towards me?

Went to stead‘s hse for dinner last night. with kai as well. =] home cooked food. and we chatted till wee hours, like 6am in the morning. LOL. and then i have an interview (for the position Marketing and Administrative Executive) at 11am today. so i only slept for less than 3 hrs and have to wake up. was ‘on time’ for the interview. but i waited for almost 30 mins before the interview. and i got the 2nd interview this sat!!! how excited. =]

Qns they asked:

1) What do you see yourself in the next 5 years time?
My ans: I want to excel in marketing. I want to be at least a manager in next 5 years time or maybe less.

2) How much do i think i will earn in the next 3 years time?
My ans: As much as possible. Enough for me to buy a private apartment and others.

if you were me, how would you ans these qns? i think my ans for the these qns suck. LOL. for the 2nd qns, i really don’t know what range to put… so i put as much as possible. LOL. noone will think they earn a lot. and then i went to meet my sis for lunch. =] den went back home and fall aslp. LOL.

i finally have my Adobe Photoshop CS 3 installed to my laptop!!

Slash came to my house to help me with the installation. =] and now i am waiting to install my Adobe Flash CS 3. =]

1 question for you to think:

A – 1 min
B – 2 mins
C – 5 mins
D – 10 mins

The four of them needs to cross a bridge to another side

bridge
AAAA ———————— KKKK
AAAA ———————— KKKK

Conditions:
– They must cross the bridge in not more than 17 mins.
– They must go in pair
e.g. A (1) & D (10) cross over = 10 mins,
then A go back + 1 min = 11 mins
then A brings B over ………………………….. etc.
(this is NOT the ans =])

this question makes you think for a little while. Yup. ask me for the ans if you wanna know. LOL.

went down to Liquid again today. oops, i mean monday. because i have the urge to sing. i wanted to go KBOX, but kai suggested Liquid because wanna save money. but i still did not manage to sing much because it was too noisy. we should have head down to KBOX instead. hahaha. and i met up with bear, (finally lo, after not meeting for like 1 yr plus?) for dinner. told him to come to my house first because it was raining cats and dogs outside. then we went to JP for some sushi! my hand still hurts, but it’s slightly better now that bear has helped me massaged. yup. hahaha. then went to meet stead and head down to Liquid. it’s like our second home siah. LOL. and i had a lot of chocolate today. =X played pool to entertain myself since almost everyone has left except us and 4 others. and Jacky‘s pool is damn zai! he can play the game on his own, because he literally cleared all the balls on the pool table without giving people any chance to clear. OMG. but it’s so fun. and it’s so tiring. LOL. STEAD, let’s go to sentosa soon, this week~!

the 3 of us again. Ha~!

我们有距离 =[

‘湖’了 (sorry if i had my ‘hu’ le written wrongly. forgot how the ‘hu’ word looks like. LOL)

THE ‘drunkard’. we play ‘scissor, paper, stone’ leh. loser drinks PLAIN water. LOL

the 3 extra behind me consist of kerine, kai and JACKY! ha!!

For that moment, i thought she was heavy….. NO la!! that stupid kai made me laugh!

2 ‘drunkards’?

super ugly can?? [we can only do this when there is NOONE around.]

bear and me

I was browsing thru my emails when i came across the horoscope email. And i usually don’t read it because i don’t really believe in it. Somehow whatever that was written in the email is quite true about me. let me ‘color’ it with pink color. and whatever was bold and in large font is damn true. hahaha. so there is a difference between quite true and damn true. =]

SCORPIO WOMAN
A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it’s in her character.

A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules. She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong.

She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will only see a cute woman. Every things she does will look good, and she has all the woman’s trick you can think of. She can manipulate men without they knowing it.

If you think she’s going to do everything you say because she loves you, then you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling.

She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She
likes to have a good looking , strong and healthy man especially if she start to compare with her friends’ boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a degree or a good career.

She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there are no “fond of”, or “like” for her. Love has no “may be”, or “perhaps”. [i just wrote: “It’s either you love me or you hate me. There is no such thing as you like me.” in my friendster. LOL] If she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has good quality as much as her bad tempered.

Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won’t be long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may say. [i totally agreed with this. that was why my previous r/s doesn’t work out.] Her relationship will be more important than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress.

She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper of the shrew.

If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it. If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If you are nice to her, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman.

She likes to make and spend money. She likes to have fame and reputations, and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too proud and will not accept status of being “Poor”. She loves to have face, so if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she can not stand a feeling of being a “Nobody”.

If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that you have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes early.