会呼吸的痛

Am i childish when he say he doesn’t wanna see me and i went to look for him. Am i childish when he say don’t call him and i kept calling him? Am i childish getting his friend to help me look for him when he doesn’t wanna reply me?

I wouldn’t say this is childish. I call this S T U P I D. i’ve been thinking for the past 2 days or perhaps 3 days when he doesn’t wanna contact and when he pissed off just because i failed to pick up his call (he knows i will call back. but he kept calling as if i will disappear from this earth.). and he doesn’t wanna talk to me since then. and i have to bear this pain. i bear this pain for 3 days. how long more? this morning i smsed him if he still wants me. he replied i’m childish. and i asked him in what way am i childish, he mentioned the above. if he had answer my call OR reply my sms, would the WHOLE WORLD knows we fight over such peanut matter? i’m just a laughing stock to some people. his attitude towards me is getting more and more ridiculous. i am serious. please tell me which bf would treat his gf like shit? please tell me.

WHY i can’t just have a PROPER r/s?

WHY is it so hard?

WHY come back to me and treat like shit all over again?

i’m a HUMAN, not MACHINE. i have my EMOTIONS as well. but ppl would blame me. It’s always the case. in a quarrel, he’s always the right one i’m always the wrong one.

WHY is it so??

Just because he’s in the fucking NS, so i tried my best to be understanding. he doesn’t like me to ask him WHAT time he finish work, i stopped asking. he doesn’t like me this, doesn’t like me that, i tried to compromise. But when it comes to quarrel, there is NO compromise even i apologize even if it’s NOT my fault. i did my best. but all it exchange for “i don’t want u”. So be it. If you wanna leave me, den leave me for good. Don’t ever come back again. and All i ask from you is CAN YOU PLS STOP READING MY BLOG.