Went to Waiting Bar first because Liquid was overcrowded with people. and i personally thinks that the people in Waiting Bar is a little unfriendly. But what to do? Everywhere is crowded. Went to back to Liquid and realized that Jacky is super drunk because he was like shouting at us. hmmmm… this was the first time we saw him behaving this way. Anyways, we left Liquid at about 4 plus to somewhere else. I don’t know. because we were just walking around. hahaha. taking pictures. and i’m sure Jive and Kevin must have thought we are crazy. LOL. whatever. misunderstanding between Jive and me was cleared. and yeah, i’m not a very petty person. But if one is unfriendly towards me, i don’t see the point of being friendly towards him/her. you get what i mean? Stead is the photographer of the night, because all the pictures was taken by her. =]

and really i told myself i am not going to get myself involved between her and kai. because it has got nothing to do with me in the first place. get myself involved means i’m either stead‘s spy or kai‘s spy. but i wanna be NONE. please, don’t get me involved.

it’s a crazy night i supposed, with all the laughing and lame-ness. imagine me drinking half a bottle of green tea vs stead‘s 1/4 of coke. LOL. the tea in my stomach is filled to the ‘rim’ of my throat. and the reason for ta-ing the drinks? no reason at all. it’s so crazy. with all the sugar inside of me, i was so hyper the whole night. and i bumped into Esmond. Haven’t seen him or heard from him for awhile because he lost his hp. ok, forgiven. Ha~ and then walking towards the bridge = photo taking session! ha!! and i only got home like almost 7am this morning. LOL. tired babe.

i accidentally ‘cropped’ their face away when i was taking the pic. LOL

attempting suicide.

went to liquid on thursday night. yes, again. LOL. was having fun playing with photo hunt and drinking. but i wasn’t much pleased when someone from another table wants to know her and then the whole night noone is entertaining me. and what makes me unpleased was the guy knows i was beside her (it’s VERY FUCKING obvious because she was standing jus beside me) but he didn’t ask for my name for the sake of asking. basic courtesy lah. u can’t simply just know the girl of your interest and ignore the rest right? zzzz. Yeah. and drunkards nite. what can i say? i wanted to play pool, but noone’s free to entertain me. wtf. i am an angry person for the night. no patience.

went O Point on friday. to meet jiabao who just came back from thailand. jonathan, sky, bobby, david, chang yuan, ho san and marie was there as well. i must say i m suck at playing 5 10 because i don’t really know how and u know, these people are very tricky. so i ended up drink quite a bit from my usual (usual = don’t drink. LOL). and i played pool with strangers. and i lose all the game. LOL. and that david a little kp lah. keep saying me. e.g. ‘advice’ me not to play pool so that i won’t ‘disgrace’ myself. =.=||| jonathan sat beside me when we were playing 5 10 and he was the one who kept making me drink. i knew this plot of his. but i still fell for it. zzzz.

i wished i didn’t have to think about him anymore. but each time my hand hurts a little, i m reminded of the heartless treatment he gave me. i am reminded how much i love him. i am reminded how much hurt he gave me. i am reminded of every single thing. i hate to be emo. i hate to be alone. can someone please help me?

i got a little tipsy from drinking too much. and cried. i’m sorry if i have spoiled your fun. really so sorry. i’m trying hard to move on. i am. i wished everyone will support me and not leave me alone. but i also understand that i need to be strong. i need to be alone to be strong. i shouldn’t be dependent on others. but then again, i cannot bear the thought of being alone. but it was because of him that i know i have a bunch of friends who cares. even though they are tipsy as well. but touching words coming out from them, makes me feel better. at least i know even he’s not around to care for me. my friends does. =] i didn’t drink because of him. i drink because i lose the stupid 5 10 game. i will be fine after emo-ing for a period of time. no matter how ridiculous i think this break up is, it’s not gonna make him come back to me. this will never happen again. PLEASE, don’t come back and hurt me anymore. the more i try to hate you, the more i couldn’t. i couldn’t bear the thought of you leaving me once again. i do know that i love him a lot. i know. i rather believe this r/s can work than you THINK it’s not gonna work because of our character differences. that’s why i couldn’t overcome this myself. can someone PLS hELP ME!!!!

why is he always so unfair towards me?