Pubs

went to liquid on thursday night. yes, again. LOL. was having fun playing with photo hunt and drinking. but i wasn’t much pleased when someone from another table wants to know her and then the whole night noone is entertaining me. and what makes me unpleased was the guy knows i was beside her (it’s VERY FUCKING obvious because she was standing jus beside me) but he didn’t ask for my name for the sake of asking. basic courtesy lah. u can’t simply just know the girl of your interest and ignore the rest right? zzzz. Yeah. and drunkards nite. what can i say? i wanted to play pool, but noone’s free to entertain me. wtf. i am an angry person for the night. no patience.

went O Point on friday. to meet jiabao who just came back from thailand. jonathan, sky, bobby, david, chang yuan, ho san and marie was there as well. i must say i m suck at playing 5 10 because i don’t really know how and u know, these people are very tricky. so i ended up drink quite a bit from my usual (usual = don’t drink. LOL). and i played pool with strangers. and i lose all the game. LOL. and that david a little kp lah. keep saying me. e.g. ‘advice’ me not to play pool so that i won’t ‘disgrace’ myself. =.=||| jonathan sat beside me when we were playing 5 10 and he was the one who kept making me drink. i knew this plot of his. but i still fell for it. zzzz.

i wished i didn’t have to think about him anymore. but each time my hand hurts a little, i m reminded of the heartless treatment he gave me. i am reminded how much i love him. i am reminded how much hurt he gave me. i am reminded of every single thing. i hate to be emo. i hate to be alone. can someone please help me?

i got a little tipsy from drinking too much. and cried. i’m sorry if i have spoiled your fun. really so sorry. i’m trying hard to move on. i am. i wished everyone will support me and not leave me alone. but i also understand that i need to be strong. i need to be alone to be strong. i shouldn’t be dependent on others. but then again, i cannot bear the thought of being alone. but it was because of him that i know i have a bunch of friends who cares. even though they are tipsy as well. but touching words coming out from them, makes me feel better. at least i know even he’s not around to care for me. my friends does. =] i didn’t drink because of him. i drink because i lose the stupid 5 10 game. i will be fine after emo-ing for a period of time. no matter how ridiculous i think this break up is, it’s not gonna make him come back to me. this will never happen again. PLEASE, don’t come back and hurt me anymore. the more i try to hate you, the more i couldn’t. i couldn’t bear the thought of you leaving me once again. i do know that i love him a lot. i know. i rather believe this r/s can work than you THINK it’s not gonna work because of our character differences. that’s why i couldn’t overcome this myself. can someone PLS hELP ME!!!!

why is he always so unfair towards me?