Sick

Argh. I feel so sick now. =[ Kept coughing and soon i will be coughing my lungs out.

My attempt to break up with Nic failed. You must be thinking “Jaymee crazy huh? Just got together and now she’s talking about BREAK UP? Gosh”.

Jaymee doesn’t feel any security in this relationship. Simply because he’s still young and have the tendency to go out and have fun. And, perhaps some other things as well. Oh well, i couldn’t say i wanna break up with him when i was talking to him on the phone and managed to tell him thru SMS and he gave me a call back. i just felt that i couldn’t trust him 100% still, because i find it hard to do so. No faith in this relationship at all. Especially when i view his friendster there is like hundreds of little girls in it. This is a BIG no-no for me. OH yes, and his MSN list too. Perhaps u might thinking “Jaymee, you think too much”, but if you were me, how would you react especially when you know that your ex bf has been going after those young girls? zzzz. I hate to mention about this, but it keeps coming into my mind and is refusing to go away. Oh well. He persuaded me, and i don’t even know if i’m doing the correct thing. So what shd i do? I told him that he should just prove it to me, no point talking about giving me security and no actions. I hate empty promises. And he reassured me that he’s gonna revamp his friendster and MSN list, we shall see. He just want us to talk things out first, compromise each other before the B word. I just felt that we shdn’t waste time together if i can’t trust him at all.