Worth, Motivations

Seriously, i don’t feel like i’m the old me anymore.

I’m so easily paranoid, sick of mummy keep nagging at me because i didn’t go to work (i’m sick what, plus… working in a call center doesn’t make me feel i’m so important that i must go despite me being sick).

Conclusion is, i have no fighting spirit at all. so what’s the point of everything? Where is the me who used to be so talkative (interactive) during work time? Where is the cheerful me? Where is the me, who will work hard for something?

Sick? take MC loh, no MC take leave lo. This is MY mentally now. And i know this is bad. I feel my world so upside down after breaking up with him. I feel me has gone with him.

Nah, i wasn’t thinking of him now. Sometimes, i feel like i have gave myself up in relationship… and this makes me upset. I was reminded by my sister that, if a guy wants to fool behind your back, there are so many ways. And she’s right! I don’t wanna look bossy, but i seriously cannot help it at all. Look at me! Who am i to me? Nobody. My body don’t listen to my brain. And my brain can’t function well. I need some wake up call. I need motivation!!!

Sighed. Certain things makes me so upset, while certain things can drive me crazy. If this carry on, i think i’m gonna have split personality. Soon, noone will know the real me.

I told myself, I don’t wanna get sick and next moment.. my body will come out with some illness like flu, cough, sore throat. . . . and who can i blame? Myself i supposed. I should have taken care of myself.

I need to prove people my worth! I know i must do it. In order for me to do it, i need to find the old me back. Can someone help me pls? I doubt so, because in the end, i have to depend on my own. I will not be branded as useless.