Heartless

Sometimes decisions are hard to make. Some times you would wonder if you have made the correct the decision and chances of you feeling regret. There are times whereby some people make decision for you. Like when you are in the relationship, boyfriend decided to break up with you despite you, objecting to the decision a hundred times and he would tell you, this is the best for you and me. This is the time he made a decision for you.

After feeling emo for a period of time, you moved on the next phrase of your life, then some other guy took interest in you and he wants you to be his girlfriend. This time, you have to make a decision yourself. You consult friends, ask friends for their opinion about the potential boyfriend, you agreed to try. However, subconsciously, you know that the past is still haunting you. You wanted to make decision for this relationship by breaking up with him, but the new boyfriend wanted persevere on.

Humans are not born heartless, it’s only under some circumstances that made them heartless. At least, that what I choose to believe. Some friendships are hard to maintain, some don’t even bother. But to me, I do. However, it’s hard to be someone’s friend if he/she doesn’t even want you in his/her life. I have learnt this precious lesson in the last relationship i had. I’m learning on how to let go the hope of being his friend. Despite him breaking my heart twice, delete me from friendster twice, and delete me from everywhere, i still would want to maintain this friendship. It’s hard. But i have tried. Perhaps you don’t even care. Wrong, you don’t even give a damn. But I did try to be your friend. Have you? All the best in your new relationship. And I love my Bi very much to break his little heart. I aint heartless like you and I have loved you so much before. I deserved what I have now, my happiness. =]

And, though I have my ups and downs knowing stuffs about you, it doesn’t seems to hurt me that much anymore. Because I’m well nursed in Bi‘s ‘hospital’. =]