House Bunny

Went to watch “House Bunny” with Scandal, Alvin and Wei Xiong at JP.

The waiting for the 3 guys is an angry one. Because Alvin‘s car engine couldn’t stop. Because of the extra thing that was added into the car (i don’t know what’s the name of the extra thing lah, but you know guys they like to modify their car into i don’t know what shit.) and they have to go to the repair shop to get it repair and so me and Wei Xiong just walk around in JP. And I bought a jigsaw puzzle (the picture below). Spent a total of $70 for the puzzle and the frame. Bought it for Nicholas.

Movie is kinda funny lah. And Shelly (in the movie), is definitely a BIMBO. But that’s what made the movie funny. Haha. After movie, went Super Bowl for some bowling action. And I might say my bowling SUCKS. For the first round of the game, my ball went into the gutter 4 times. ZZZz. And my total score for the 1st game is only a pathetic 30 pts. Can u believe it? I don’t have the strength. And Scandal‘s father is really good. And I heard he’s ex bowler. =X That explains it. And after that I went to meet Nicholas.

And I received his sudden SMS. I don’t know if you guys knowa who am I referring to. But I aint gonna say his name. You know it’s been almost 7 months since we broke up… And he doesn’t look like he’s gonna contact me at all. BUT, he did. The first msg he sent me was “Are you with your bf?”. Pretty shocking. I woke up at 11plus and saw the msg that he sent me at 10plus, I was kinda speechless. I did not replied his qns and asked him instead if he had SMS-ed the wrong person. I wasn’t waiting for his reply because I don’t think he would reply at all, I swear! But he replied me at 2p.m after I am done with driving lessons. I know I have been thru this before. I know I did. But sometimes, I can’t help it so I replied him asking what he want from em when he replied “No……..man…” to my qns. He said “Nothing”, but usually there is something if not why would he wanna SMS me in the first place? He said I sounded angry. Of cos I am! For all he had done to me – being harsh towards me, told me to stop SMS-ing him, deleted me from friendster and facebook (+ he blocked me), changed his number and MSN. I wasn’t informed at all! And he said he was harshed on me because I was too denial at that point of time. C’mon lah, if he were me, he won’t say that anymore. Because he simply have NO IDEA how it feels to be treated the same way by him not once, but TWICE. And I was pissed, so I told him to entertain his gf, he replied saying he has no gf. And asking further, he ‘only’ had one gf after me (and that’s Ruth) which last for a month and he say that doesn’t even feel like it existed. So I asked him again, what was his intention for SMS-ing me, he said HE MISS ME. Should I even buy his story? And then he told me he’s going to sleep because he got ‘beaten’ up by indians the night before and his whole body is aching. When I asked why, he didn’t wanna tell me. And then we continued the conversation. I sounded so angry that I even told him that he was the one being petty. And he jolly well knows how much I loved him. Perhaps a part of me still does love him now. He said if not for my childness, we would still be together. And he agreed that he was childish too when I pointed that out. Ahhhh, saying things like that really makes me going nowhere. Really. And we ended the conversation after he told me he deleted his facebook and friendster account.

I refused to tell Nicholas who I was SMS-ing in the afternoon because if I were to tell him, he won’t let me go out with Scandal because he will be so busy asking me qns that I don’t wanna reply. I promised I will tell him later at night. And then I went out with Scandal. He really kept me thinking about the whole thing about him SMS-ing me, you know. So, I decided to SMS him to tell him to stop SMS-ing me. Because I aint his subsitute when there is no girls to care for him. And he stopped replying me after awhile. And I carried on with my bowling game, after which I went to meet Nicholas again. And, this time round, we really broke up.

I don’t have any reasons. I feel guilty. For using him so that I can forget him. And most importantly, I broke his heart, made him teared for a useless person like me. I hate myself you know. I promised him I will still meet him. But he still wants me to stay overnight at his house, which I did. Because I don’t wanna upset him further. I’m really sorry. Because I couldn’t love him and I’m still stucked in the past that he has left me. I really find it so hard to move on. I’m not committing to this relationship, so it’s best to end it now than later. I should have be more persistant a few weeks ago, but I failed to do so. This hurts. I know and I can understand. He was using the whole night telling me not to let him go. He wants me back when I’m ready to settle down. But, I can’t commit any promises to him. This is how sucky I am now. Sighed.