Singing~

Went singing today… Well, I don’t quite feel like going singing today because it was raining and I was feeling lazy but I have already promised Scandal that I will go, so I dragged myself out. Sigh. It’s not a really good day because I had to eat lunch ALONE because the rest are busying singing. And because the Partyworld @ Taman Jurong opens @ 3p.m so we changed to Clementi Kbox. As usual, I took some pictures lah, cos I was so bored…. Sigh…

I am not trying to emo over here again. But I just want to be sure of myself. What I want and who I truly loves. Scandal asked me how would I feel if one day I happened to bump into my ex bfs and saw each of them behaving intimately with another girl. After thinking for a moment, I told him perhaps I will feel nothing towards Nicholas. What about Jin Jie? He asked me. And I don’t know the answer. All I know is I can just keep staring at the pictures he took with Ruth and I still don’t know how I feel. I looked at Scandal, and I feel like I don’t know anything. For one thing I know for sure is, I am already super broken hearted. I find myself thinking of him sometimes. Why is this happening? Gosh. I think I’m better off if I just shoot myself dead. I have just let myself down once again. Fuck. Maybe I should some up with some solutions. What do you think?