Fuck

He might think that I have nothing better to do, that’s why I have to dig something out to quarrel or argue about. But the fact is I HATE TO DO THIS. The fact that I’m in a relationship and yet not quite, pissed me off. So why be in a relationship when he thinks that everything is not necessary? So doesn’t make sense. And if you make any sense out of this relationship, please let me know. ‘cos of this, Scandal hates me. And it doesn’t even make sense when my friends cares more than he does.

Oh btw, did I mention that it’s OK for him not to talk to me for a day or two perhaps? We can stop talking now and I don’t know when will be the next time we talk again. Why make myself so miserable? Because I WANT BELIEVE THAT HE’S CHANGED (like real right?).

Now my turn to envy those who are really in love you know? They can do those couple things together. Meet up every now and then. SMS to say they misses each other. Every morning will say ‘Good Morning!’ which never fails to brighten up my day. Hold my hands, kiss me and hug me. I am so deprive of these things right now. Look at ALL the couples like Peili and Eric, Don and Jia Fei, Amy and Gary, Melvin and his gf. They meet up on special occasions, spend their time together (ok, let’s not mention about LONG DISTANCE relationship), mine just stay ACROSS me. Me leh? All my bf say was “i don’t think it’s necessary to REPORT to you my whereabouts”, “we don’t have to meet up everyday right?”, “see how first” etc. ALL THIS SUCKS lah. So why do you want to have a gf and yet, maintain the relationship as if we are just friends? I just don’t get it. What the hell are you thinking exactly? But perhaps if the person isn’t me, it would be a different story.

So fuck this relationship.