Christmas is coming! And I wanna take pictures of the lightings in town! Can someone go with me this weekend? PLEASE?

Blurred I know, it was drizzling~

Ok, I know he’s not one of the lightings, I just post it up anyways! Ha

Took this while I was walking. Mai hiam buay pai lah!

Took by Don.

Remembered my mini mahjong? Yup, at the request of my little sister on Sunday, I had a mini open ceremony for it. LOL. And so we arranged the pretty mahjong tiles and get ready the toys to stand by and play!

Here’s the players:
Xiao Mi, Xiao Xiao Bear playing

Xiao Hong the Octopus.

Xiao Fen the Pinky Elephant

Xiao Huang, My Xiao Bear

The game is very fun! And everyone had a chance to win. Woohoo~ =D

Went for my driving lessons after 3 weeks of laziness. Yes, I know. The lazy virus is here once again. I had excuses for not going:

1) My birthday week
2) I was on MC on a beautiful Tuesday and I had nothing to do, so I booked my TP and ta da, my account doesn’t have any amount left (going on to the 3rd reason)
3) I was being lazy because I have to go all the way to BBDC to top up the account (ok, I have to blame on my itchy hand for booking the TP (which links to reason no.2)
4) Having lessons on a weekend makes me even more rushing.
– Because I can’t book in advance (say I wanna book for Saturday slot, I have to wait till Wednesday then I am able to book, but then I always forgets)
– Because I went out till so late during Fridays or Saturdays, going lesson the next day is like wanting my life.

That’s the reasons I can think of now. Ok, it sounds crap but who cares? Anyways, suddenly I remembered the TP date I booked, so I realized I have to BUCK up a bit because I stopped at Stage 2.09 loh. 2 more lessons to complete Stage 2.

Now, going on to talk about my lesson yesterday. It’s like SHIT.

1st, I was having stomachache the whole day. And while running to the toilet all day long, I feel like I had a pair of jelly legs. Never mind. What makes it worse is I always go toilet at the wrong time, meaning I went to the toilet when the aunty is washing the toilet and the ‘nearest’ toilet is actually VERY far. It’s like one corner to another. So, by the time I reached the VERY far away toilet, my shitting mood is gone liao. And so, by the time I am going for my driving lessons I already feel like dying.

2nd, I stepped on the ACCELERATOR when I meant to step on the BRAKE.

3rd, the instructor says TURN LEFT at the next TRAFFIC JUNCTION, I TURNED LEFT into BBDC. LOL.

4th, I stepped on the BRAKE when I meant to step on the ACCELERATOR.

5th, when I wanted to stop the car when the traffic light turns amber, i stepped on the BRAKE TOO LIGHTLY until my instructor steps it HARD for me.

6th, I stepped on the ACCELERATOR so rapidly until I feel like I’m tailgating the car infront.

7th, when I was on a slope, my car goes BACKWARDS and I hastenly stepped on the acclerator so I will not crash onto the car behind ( for this, I scared the instructor. lols)

See, for all the mistakes that I made… the instructor was considering if he should even pass my review for my Stage 2 so that I can move on to my Stage 3. I promised the instructor and assured him that I don’t usually drive so lousy so, he PASSed my review. LOL. =] After that Nicholas came to meet me to return me my stuffs. And accident happened. His car BUMPED into a lady’s car at the traffic junction. And this scares the hell out of me ok? Anyways, nothing too serious because he bumped into the lady’s car at a VERY SLOW speed. Hail~ I’m still alive. And then we had to go back to his house to inform his father of the accident and then after dragging for a VERY LONG time, Nicholas finally sent me home.

You know what I don’t like? What I don’t like is I have to say the same things repeatedly and the other party is not listening. Sigh. You get what I meant? He wants me to stay over at his house, I refused and he stayed under my block for an hour, and I have no choice but to accompany him home. Why me?

Anyways, today’s driving lessons is slightly better! Because I have moved on to Stage 3! Yay. Meaning the circuit! =D And I passed 2 lessons today; Stage 3.01: Circuit traffic regulations and Stage 3.02: Reverse. Having some time left before the lesson ends today, I went to test out my Stage 3.03: Crank course and I think I really have to improve on controlling my speed and everything. Yup. After that Nicholas came to pick me up again. After refusing him the WHOLE afternoon, he just kept bugging me to let him pick me up. So I had no choice but to say Ok. Forcefully. Instructor say my driving is quite ok! =D

And I’m on MC today but I had to go for driving because I already booked it yesterday and it’s too late to sell the slot and too expensive to forsake it. Doctor says I had too much shit inside of me. Ok, I need to shit them out!! Argh. And I kept burping and farting ok. =[ Sick. And I feel like I’m having fever too.Oh no!

Beautiful song. Happened to came upon this song when I was listening to the radio last week.

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I wished I have some importance in the heart of someone I like/love you know. I used to feel very hurt when he remembers me only when he‘s drunk, wants me back when he‘s drunk.. but then to think about it, it’s better than he don’t remember me at all right? But, I also want that particular person to remember me when he’s sober too. If I could, I want to see that particular person as much as possible. Which I think is very important. I know my entries sounded so emotional, but I am just as emotional as I used to be.

I dun understand why does some people always keep each other waiting.

Example: i want to watch a movie, I’ve to WAIT for that person’s reply. What makes it worse is, after long wait… it’s either he replies you slowly or no reply at all. Then in the first place, DON’T SUGGEST OR AGREED on catching a movie. Do you even know that it’s just so bad to give people hopes and then THRASH it. Zzz. But I know that person DON’T.

How come these people just DON’T UNDERSTAND noone likes to be kept waiting all the time?? One minute this person treats you damn nice, next minute he MIA on you and when you SMSed him, all he does was to reply you nothing at all. Doesn’t sound apologetic, as if it’s OK for you to wait and you shouldn’t get angry even if he doesn’t reply you.

YAH, if YOU are mocking at me because I have NOONE to go out with, go ahead. I’m so used to being mocked at BY YOU. Every time, I just feel worse inside my heart. But, NOONE CARES. Once people found their love, they tended to forget about their friends.

And me?

No love. No friends.

What am I thinking now?

I’m thinking it’s just so hard to ask people out now. And guess what? I don’t enjoy being a light bulb all the time because I am always being LEFT OUT. So what’s the point of asking me out if you are going to leave me behind? =[

Can you believe that I have actually cope myself at home for the past 2 days? Can you believe I actually stayed at home on Saturday and Sunday. =.=||| I can’t believe it neither. But this is actually happening to me! Gosh.

Poor me. When your friends have partners and you don’t have. This is what happens. I think I no longer have friends to go out with anymore. Friendless. But, I don’t need a boyfriend just for company. I need a boyfriend to LOVE, to HUG, to REMEMBER me at all times, to make me feel CONFIDENT, to BE THERE for me, when he DOES THINGS he REMEMBER to COUNT ME IN and COMMIT to me, me and ONLY ME. I sounded selfish right? Noone in this world is totally selfless.

I am feeling damn emo last night. No idea why? Happiness is short term. The more I’m happy, the more I think sadness will come to me soon. Why? The more he treats me nice, the more I think the happy time will be overdue soon. Even Scandal…. he don’t understand… This is even more sad. Can someone help me?

Standard Charted Marathon is near. And it’s this SUNDAY. OMG, I hate it when it’s so near leh. Which means I have to wake up @ 6am to get prepared. Since when will Jaymee go for such events? Because company made it COMPULSORY loh. ZZzzzz. And my colleagues are putting bets on whether I will turn up or not. LOL. What do you think? I think I’m falling sick over the weekends liaos.