It hurts badly

Ask me, ask me if I feel hurt. Ask me, ask me how does it feel like to be hurt thrice. ASK ME.

I can tell you straight into your face, that I HATE MY STUPIDITY. I gave up others to TRY this so-called relationship and I end up being hurt again. *Clap clap clap* Why does everything about him is so true? WHY? He used the same knife and stab at my heart over and over again. I can no longer breath anymore. My heart has stopped once again. I could have forgotten about him 7 months ago. SEVEN BLOODY MONTHS. It took me more than 7 MONTHS to settle my heart and he’s back with the SAME STUNT again. Am I stupid or what? Perhaps the problem really lies with me. Why do I have to be so persistence in this no-feelings-involved relationship? Reality in relationship is always cruel towards me. I haven’t been cruel to anyone (perhaps only towards Nicholas). I feel like I am so useless because I can’t even maintain a proper relationship. He say he just wanna TRY. What’s there to TRY when we have TRIED 2 times? It’s a total waste of my time. I promise, I will learn to stand up on my own. It’s time to face the music. I shall shed no tears for him anymore. This is the last time, I swear.