Went to watch “Watchmen” last night. And it’s really kinda boring because there is so much talking! And for every character, there is a story why they became what they are, people who hides behind a mask. Riots, wars. U.S. and Soviet wars. Nuclear bomb. Atomic bomb. Killings. Guns. Authority.

“By sacrificing a few millions of people, you save billions.”

The plot:
Set in an alternate 1985 America where tensions between the United States and the Soviet Union are high and the Doomsday Clock is set at five minutes to midnight, former superhero turned vigilante Rorschach discovers that one of his former colleagues has been murdered. As he investigates the murder he uncovers a plot that is intent on killing and discrediting all past and present vigilantes. As he reconnects with members of his former crime-fighting legion, including Nite Owl II, Silk Spectre II and Dr. Manhattan, they uncover a wide-ranging and disturbing conspiracy that not only links to their shared past but has catastrophic consequences for the future.

Taken from here.

Perhaps, I am not very into talking “superheros”. I like superheros with action pack. Haha.

Anyways, I am so frustrated over my personal affairs and I think it’s driving me nuts. Every single day, I think how I should treat Teck Yong. Every single day, I was reminded of what he said previously. Every single day, I have fear in me. Every single day, I can’t sit still. Everyday, my thoughts will slowly wander and my heart told me something which I don’t wish to hear. What I can do right now is, I think this friendship should end. It shouldn’t start in the first place. It really hurts to watch him go. Just like everyone else, no one stay.

I realized I will not hesitate to kick away guys who throw his tantrum at me for no reasons. Which means this applies to Teck Yong too.

I realized very often when I got mad over something, that the accused (the one whom I am mad with) in return accused me. And this is so horrible. I am angry and he got angry because I am angry, things got worst. Whatever it is, I am just so disappointed with his attitude towards me. So what he did apologized to me? I told him I am not going to wait for him anymore. Be it his SMS replies, or when we go out. After perhaps even after such SMS the chances of us meeting up will be lesser. I just don’t understand WHY guys are behaving this way. I mean, are they trying to tell me that I cannot be mad at them? Or I can’t show my temper a bit? I mean, I will do the same to anyone who keeps me waiting all the time. He’s not an exception what. What is worse is, he even know that he’s wrong in the first place and he was arguing with me. Whatever. So tired from waiting. Seriously. What am I waiting for? Some thing good or some thing bad? Just so, whatever really. I will not SMS him anymore. But I miss him leh. Stupid right? Whatever.

Anyhows, I meet up with Peiwen for dinner @ JP today. Yup, Haven’t seen her for a long time and the last time I saw her would be in Oct last yr. *OMG* Yes, it was really that long. And we had our dinner @ Feast (located at JP2 level 3) and after that we walk around (I mean WALK, literally) JP and went to McCafe for a drink and then WALK again. After that I head home because I am feeling tired already. And working? It’s fun lah! Hahaha. =P Maybe I will try to take a pic of the baby rabbit and post it up here. =]

Ok, I think the previous entry is a little unfriendly. So I will re-write this and talk about my first day at work! Oh my, it was so exciting. And I am pretty touched when people starts to wish me luck since last night and this morning.

And after quarreling with Teck Yong last night, he SMSed me this morning to wish me luck and apologized for throwing his tantrum at me. First of all, I don’t see why I can’t be mad at him. Second of all, why should he be mad at me when he’s first at fault? Unless you are telling me, being early is my fault then I will accept it. But hell no! But, what he said last night can’t be taken back. These words are like salt, rubbing to my wounds making it worse. And I feel like I am dying any minute. But lucky for me, I did not put much emotions into this whole thing. I still can be cured. Nevermind about this whole Teck Yong thingy. It’s hopeless.

Back to what I want to say, I woke up around 6.45a.m and lie on my bed and nuah before I get up and take my shower. After that I had my nutella (with bread of course) and then by the time I finished my bread I still have some time left before heading out my house. I went out of my house ard 8.05am and waited for close to 20 minutes, 3 bus 99 came by and the ONLY bus 242 was filled with people. Left with no choice, I went to ake bus 243/181. This is so horrible can? And what makes my morning worse was, there is a train DELAY! what the hell right? So I was almost 10 minutes late for work. Lucky, Stella (HR Executive) has to handle those interns first. LOL. After the briefing by Stella, me and my new colleague (Catherine) took a cab down to our workplace! We met up with our Reporting Officer (RO, Lawrence) and P.K (Assistance Manager).

First day is normally the orientation. So Lawrence took us around to familiarize with the environment, and I must say there’s too many names to remember. I wondered how he remember those 100 plus people’s names. We had lunch nearby. And I was actually feeling very sleepy after lunch leh. But I managed to hide my sleepy face. And yes! I met up with my 1st interview interviewers, Mary and Mechelle. Which I don’t have to intro myself, they still can remember me. -.- I don’t know if I should feel happy or what. After that I am attached to Shah until 5.30pm but I only left the place around 6p.m. And then I reached home, had dinner and went to JP to meet up with Rebecca.

And now, it’s time for me to sleep. Because I have to report work @ 8am! Ciaoz!

Ok, this is the 4th movie I have watched this week. Haha. That’s quite a lot! And I will be watching lesser movies when I start work tomorrow! So looking forward to that ok? =]

Anyways, I went to watch “Marley and Me” @ JP with Teck Yong. The movie is really touching towards the end of the movie when doctor gave an injection so that Marley will go in peace (after old age). That’s so sad. And I cried. Damn. Such scenes never fail to make you tears. Really touching. And it’s really hilarious at how Marley can try to tear down the whole place (ok, I am being exaggerating over here).

I am sitting in my living room right now, feeling so flare up at myself. I am so mad at myself that I don’t know what to do anymore. Why is it so? I realized that I am not a magnaimious person. Because I was very mad at Teck Yong for being late for almost half an hr. Not that I want to spoil the day, I just can’t stand people not informing me that they will late. Not that I am an eye for an eye person, but rather there is a limit to what I can stand. And for today, my tolerance level is very low. We quarreled over MSN. I told him I bumped into Jin Jie today. Not that I am harboring any thoughts of being with him again, I minded more about why I bumped into him today after I have been dreaming about him for days. And then, I think this is the ending of a friendship between me and Teck Yong. Because he feels that I gave him attitude over a small little things. He thinks that I like to bully him. He thinks I am a liar. And then …………… this is the end?

ARGH. Just feeling so fucked up that I can’t even blog properly.

I dreamt of him this morning.

And I bumped into him @ the bus stop.

Got into the same bus, but I chose not to sit beside him. Am I not generous at all? After all, he was the one who tapped on my shoulder when he saw me at the bus stop opposite my house. Sigh. Why do I see him again? I feel like my emotions are mixed up again.

I am so fuck up now.