Sweets

Friends are the sweets in my life, because they accompany me thru 1/4 of the century of my life. Having a boyfriend is like a dessert after having such wonderful friends. Getting married is like a bonus in my life. Appreciate their pressence. There is nothing more that I would ask for.

Today, I finally received a SMS reply from Alicia. After exchanging a few SMS, she stopped replying me so I decided to give Amy a call. It seems that Alicia was talk to Amy and Michelle because Amy say she will merge the call. Talking to them makes me realized, friends are not always everything.

They felt disappointed because at that point of time when I helped Dearest to buy a domain, buying a domain doesn’t necessary means that I must have the intention to set up a blogshop, I did not inform them. And the fact that I bought the domain during the discussion of the blogshop with them. They were so unhappy about the fact that I wanted to set up a blogshop behind their back. And seriously, the conversation today really hurts me. After being friends for 10-12 years, my BFF shouted at me over the phone and say she wants to puke from talking to me. I feel so upset. But the actions they have towards me, hurts me most. After knowing me for 12 years, do I look like someone who will do something secret behind someone’s back? Or use underhand method to get something done? If I am such person, I would have keep mum about it and do both sides secretly. Which I didn’t, I was upfront about it informing them that Dearest wants to set up a blog shop too. They asked for Dearest‘s intention to set up a blogshop, and I told them it was boyfriend’s idea to setup so I can shop online and earn some money. Simple. Nothing more. They said they have fed me well with informations, if that’s true why is it taking me so long to set up my shop? I did everything from scratch. Helping Dearest to buy a domain, webhosting.. Until my BFFs told me that there will be a clash of interest, so I did not join them. So I source for my own supplier, and JJ told me he would help me to create the website. But because he say he will not change the layout for me, so I decided that maybe I shouldn’t be dependant on him on such things. Seriously, buying a domain and webhosting and having NO IDEA how to set up is really a terrible and horrible feeling? I went to do a lot of research on how to link this up, link that up.. asking people how I should do this, how I should do that. At certain time, I really wanna give up. But my God says I should continue for He is with me.

Everything happened too fast and too sudden. I am lost of words, and not knowing what to do. I tried to explain and I do not get their understanding. It’s not like I will listen to Dearest in whatever he says. I have my own thinking as well.

Whatever it is, I just wish everything will get back to normal. Soon.