lalala. shd i? shdnt i? shd i? shdnt i? shd i? shdnt i? my mind is in a blank now. haha. have a conversation with fang chew.. and it turns out a bit… kinda make him happy but it makes me think more. damien advised me. and his advise doesn’t reali reflects on my mind. bcos he has his own stuffs to think of too. and i… sigh. no pt talking abt it. it just wouldn’t get off my mind if i have to say it out here and let the whole world know. muahahaha. some stuffs are P&C. =X

ok. i have finally know the reason why fang chew behaves lidat. =.= oh man.. and i feel real bad about it. =X tell me what i shd do. damnit. i can’t think. ok, den i better go to bed b4 i go crazy. zzz.

well, worked 12-10pm today.. and i did lunch bar today as well. so i was in the bar for 10 hrs minus off my breaktime, 45 mins.. well, more or less lah. haha. chatted with guobin on certain stuffs, and i feel it’s pointless to think about it bcos it was supposed to be a past. and i was reminded of that and somehow i feel bad. nevertheless, i have stopped thinking abt it so that i wouldn’t feel bad anymore.

and do u realised how fast can someone change? it’s very fast.. one moment he’s still he.. and next moment he seems to be another person. sometimes i don’t understand what he’s talking about. sometimes i don’t know if he’s really happy or he’s just pretending to be happy.. or he was just contented to see me.. oh well, but the main point is, sometimes i reali don’t get his point. oh nvm.

terrence from FM came to RX today to look for jiayong.. was kinda surprised to see him.. and coincidently, it’s my break time.. so i was in the kitchen joining the conversation.. and he wore so smart. LOL. and we went to have food together.. and i got a treat from him. haha. don’t ask me why i got a treat. i don’t rem why. hahaha. he called fang chew after we left and told him abt it. which was kinda lame lah. and we had some lame conversation as well. haha. like i say it’s lame, so i don’t have to say it out. =X

there was this customer who was so basta*d until i feel like beating him up.. and unfortunately, he’s the skin color i dislike the most which gives me all the reason why i shd beat him up.. i shall not say out the skin color in case people say i’m racist. LOL. he ordered with starkey an oreo milkshake and mango tea freeze. when i have already done with the drinks and it was rejected bcos that basta*d said he ordered a banana blend and oreo milkshake.. after checking and all, they change both drinks to summer passion and banana blend. damn, it feels like they are playing me. making a fool. but believe me, such basta*ds will have their retribution, if u get what i mean. =]

ooh man. and for the 1st time i meet up with bear after knowing him for like 2 yrs since the gunbound era? LOL! kinda weird.. but it’s good too. haha. he was doing an event for the company he work for, so he happened to be at raffles place so i went to look for him after work bcos he has to stay at that place overnight. muahaha. kinda cool and i gotta drink the supposedly to be a new drink. and trust me, it taste kinda weird bcos it’s new? ok, this is crap. haha. so i sat there for an hr crapping and after that i headed home. and here i am sitting in front of my laptop holding on to my new issue of national geographic which every issue i just read half of it. HAHA. k. i shd head for my bed now bcos i’m working morning, 9am.. finally.. =X cos wed & thurs i will be working closing.

i hate guys who are so indecisive. i reali hate them. and this makes me dislike damien more bcos of his very indecisive actions. and his never meant to kept promises. it makes me a fool to actually believe him. why do i keep trusting him and all i get was his “go home” before we actually go to my destination which i have told him earlier on? sat he was suppose to acc me and he said he was tired from last nite drinking with fang chew. and jiayong offer to acc me but i went to meet someone else instead. i guess shall be the last time we will ever meet. and so i cancelled the movie date.. but i asked him (damien) to acc me to visit my sis at dan ryan’s today which he agreed.. and den i meet them at far east plaza and went to take a look at nokia hp at scotts shopping center and den had dinner at scotts food court after which we went to lucky plaza bcos fang chew wants to take a look at the digital cam. well, and den after that damien say go home. wth.. i haven’t go to my sis place yet. he offered to walk me to dan ryan’s but i rejected bcos i’m flare up. it’s barely 8.. and… he wants to go home. when i asked him what time he wants to go home, he still can tell me not late. den i would rather go out alone since i’m alone the whole day. and i don’t know what happened to fang chew.. he’s not in his right self today.. seems a little moody.. and quiet.. and den i went dan ryan’s alone.. on my way there, i realised my tigger was gone and my tears flow out. i walked back the whole journey hoping to search for it, but i can’t find it.. damn it. i love my tigger so much.. it was given by my sis when i was sec 4. and it’s GONE. damn sad. and when i reached dan ryan’s i saw 1 familiar face.. and i went to sit beside him bcos my sis told me to. and after crapping with him.. i realised he’s the ang moh ah beng, chris, whom we went out with on cny’s eve. LOL!! i couldn’t rem who he was until i ask my sis when he’s gone. ok. haha. blur. and i had potato skin which i share with my sis. haha.. den i went home at 11.30pm.. i wanted to leave at 10p.m but she asked me to stay.. sigh.. crapping with my sis makes me happy woman. and on my way home, i was smsing with fang chew.. and.. don’t wanna talk abt it. damien he gotta leave me alone bcos i don’t wanna talk to him anymore. arggh. at least not now.

watched “The Break-up” ytd. and it’s pretty nice. and i must say jennifer aniston has got a good body. Haha. i simply like this. it’s romantic at 1st.. and den things turn bad when gary didn’t do whatever brook ask. so well, brook ask for break up which she didn’t mean. all she wanted was gary will change for her which things got bad when he didn’t get the message. the things that happened in between was a bit of halirious. and it got sweet at the end.. however still maintain the one ship call friend. which was kinda cool. asking myself, when i break up with certain someone.. will i still be able to keep our friendship.. everyone says it’s almost impossible. well, at least i will try without saying impossible.

well, it’s not surprise to find ppl who has a higher position than u has no manner. they tend to let their true colors out when they have someone to “back them up”.. but sometimes if that certain someone backup the person who was in wrong too obvious, den the rest of us will not show them any respect so justice has to be done. and i shall not talk abt that incident since it doesn’t happen on me. =] however, this change my opinion abt she who shall not be named 2. sigh.

well, i bought 3 chocolate chips cookie today. keke, freshly baked and the subway auntie saw me so she ask me to buy 3. hahaha. today had my fav choco too. missy bought it for me. oh man, i feel so pampered. HAHAHA. went to have my break with missy and damien. =] went to have my fav tom yam fried fish.. yummy, and the auntie gave me discount bcos i always buy from her. MUAHAHa. =X regular customer. even though i tell the fish soup auntie i forgot to bring the banquet card, she gave me discount anyways. today is a good day. for me at least. and today tim bought us wedges and chicken wings. yummy. =X keke. closed bar today. and when tim told she who shall not be named he has no money and needs to sell his kidney for money (obviously he’s kidding lah. duh), i had my remarks:” but tim, ur kidney too old for sale already“.. and i got attack by him even though i tried to run away.. he carried me up and jiayong suggested to him that he shd throw me into the rubbish bin in the kitchen which tim did by putting my butt inside and den carry me out again. hahahahaha. this shows that i shd keep quiet if i don’t wanna get thrown away. haha. den i have to rush home bcos i wanna watch tv. aaaawww. lucky i’m in time to watching the ending. as usual. HAHAHa. time to ciao. =) hope i wouldn’t have nightmare abt ppl throwing me into the rubbish bin later. HAHAha. =X nite.

working with she who shall not be named 1 & 2 is killing me. both of them are equally rude and of cos, they don’t do the things that they briefed. whatever. i’m trying hard to tolerate this kind of rude behaviour from them but who knows what i’m going to do when there is ever one day i can’t tolerate? she who shall not be named actually ORDERED me to top up my bar stuffs today once lunch time is over. wth.. i could have kill her. and today she who shall not be named 2 burged into the bar and say customer complaint and need to give whatever to that customer. c’mon, can’t she see that i’m steaming the milk to get foam for the ice latte? damn, i’m pissed bcos i was like not frenli towards anna. i feel bad and apologise of cos. how can i present the drinks to the customers when it’s not properly done? and c’mon, i have LOTS of drinks to do and i’m sick. duh. she put a sick retarded person do a lunch bar. lol. well, at least i had given my best. sigh. but i know i could have done better. it’s early for me to think anyway. hah. after work i went to see the rest of the tcc ppl bowling at marina south. it’s pretty funny. bcos fang chew was like showing off to me that his name is on the chart and when i see the chart, he’s the last. that was the 1st round. after the the 2nd round.. he improved from 48th – 47th place. i keep laughing at him i wanna die. k, this is too… funny =X hahaha. it took me 20 mins to decide whether i wanna go. and jeremy bully me. HAHA. kns. still say i pet. haha. since sat! damn him anyways. keep bullying me. haha. wth. but it’s funny. went home with fizah and her sis.. well.. that’s all today.. time to slp. nite folks.

well, i finally received my new atm card. find it pretty fast bcos they say it will take a wk to send my new atm card to me.. it’s like 2 working days (cos i cancelled my old atm card last fri & today is tues i received the new one.. this is what i call efficency. =] ) and this time my atm card has got my name! hahaha. but i have had $5 debit from my account. and the stupid part was i was trying to find way HOW TO SEND THE ACKNOWLEDGE FORM BACK when they give me the envolpe. hahaha. i’m reali pa jiao. well, it’s worth than suddenly i find my money gone from the bank. HAHA. if u get what i mean. some people just don’t have the courtesy to ask. well, that’s the past and this past has really taught me a very vaulable lesson. NEVER give ur PIN and atm card to ur “partner” if u think u can trust them.. haha. oh well. past. i had fun working today.. i went crazy again.. HAhaha. what can i say? i always go crazy. =X anyways, i almost had the experience of being thrown into the rubbish bin by jiayong again. hah. shit him. den jacky was like standing there laughing.. kns. shall not help them make any drinks anymore. hah. and i drank a lot of water today bcos i feel so dehydrated. haha. and it makes me wanna go to the toilet more often. and realised today that michael hasn’t receive his ambassador card too. lol. and we are doing the same action (the rub our ears action) and this makes the both of us laughing. hahaha. we are of the same kind~ =X and den michael was like asking me what kind of breed of dog i had, and den i told him chihuahua, he say no wonder i have such ears lah. if u get what i mean. haha. kns. and den i was asking michael how come he doesn’t send me home bcos he was like staying a street away from me, the reason is bcos i had cold. c’mon, even i dont have flu.. he still doesn’t send me home! haha. the main reason is bcos i doesn’t have a helmet. =.= oh well. he said i had not ride on a bike b4. =.= hahah. oh well. =) anyways, den went to the river with jiayong and fang chew & terrance. sat there for an hour and crap while i was doing some stupid tricks with the bottle. haha. and i was disturbed by that terrance. lol. after that we went home. and here i’m sitting here blogging. well, going to bed pretty soon though cos i still feel sick. and tml will be a good day. they are going to play bowling tML! shd i go watch or just go home? lol. let me think. consider i mean. lol.

sick sick sick. i’m sick again. down with flu and cough and headache. sigh.. and this whole wk isn’t a good wk actually. for the fact on fri the fatass really spoiled my day just bcos of a glass of ice water. =.= ok.. i have no brain juice to squeeze now, so i have to go to bed and rest. =X

human disappoints human sometimes. when the person whom u think is harmless, she’s actually harmful in certain ways. and u will never know where she will attack. so stop being native to actually believes she’s innocent from her i-am-innocent look.. and rem, never judge a book from its cover. and looks is forever deceiving. i have always agreed with this sentence don’t u? anyways, a series of stupid events happened today. no, actually i think is one. HAhHa. very unfortunately, i’m the “victim”.. she who shall not be named 2 did lunch bar today and i was the cashier. so i helped out and when fizah came in to take over the cashier and i have to take over the bar since i’m the afternoon barista, and i cant do washing so starkey was helping me. surprise surprise!! she who shall not be named 2 just walk out of the bar after i took over the drinks and serve the customers.. i have no comments about this since she’s still do her job.. and den after awhile, i didnt see her around and she suddenly appeared in i-am-going-for-my-break kinda attire.. ok, at this point of time, this reminds me that 2 wks ago they gave a briefing about after lunch time, the lunch barista is suppose to top up things that needed to be top up for the afternoon barista while the afternoon barista took over the drinkings and the cashier will do the washing. =X this so much for the “briefing” that she gave. and ppl, rem she even wrote it in her notebook? bullshit. why tell us to implement this shit and she, herself, didn’t even do it? starkey was like telling me “since when am i the cashier.” & “where is she who shall not be named 2 doing?” and i was telling him the exactly same thing. it’s alright if she’s going for her stupid break and at least have the courtesy to inform me to top up the things myself. and when fizah asked her, she asked fizah am i the one finding fault with her. ha. rubbish man. if i wanna find fault with her, i will just tell her straight into her f**king face instead and not to starkey. and from the way she “helped” me to top up the milk and ice, was pretty obvious that she’s not pleased. c’mon, i don’t owe her money or something. this is what she OUGHT to do. =] shit. nvm abt she who shall not be named 2. haha. only spoil ppl’s mood. duh. and she ‘complaint’ abt the part where me & starkey forgot to do the chilli sauce and tomato sauce. c’mon, i caught her a few times nvr do the garish and i kept quiet. she still can say “she doesnt wanna make an issue out of it?” bullshit. haha. the next time i make sure i doesn’t make anything an issue too. =)

anyways, duckie smsed me today, and i have clearly forgotten about his hp no. so i replied who are u to him.. and it’s kinda bad lah. but the shit thing that he did was, he withdraw my money from my bank last nite 4am plus and it’s without my permission. after so long, he still doesn’t have any manner about asking ppl for their permission and esp the fact that we are no longer. but wat can i expect from him? ask me properly? ha. but can u believe him that he withdraw $100 for his f**king cab fare? god knows why he need so much money for his cab. and he withdraw from beach road. wwwwooooaaa. hahaha. watever. i need to go slp cos i’m working 12-8pm tml! hahah. rubbish again. i like to go home with fizah. talking to her is like talking to wati & amin. it feels gd.